I have decided that I am for sure going to end my life. However, I have one wish. I want to be able to go on one vacation with my kids. I have two kids that have never seen the ocean.
Also, we haven’t ever been on vacation together. I just want to be able to give my kids this one awesome memory before I go.
If anyone out there can help in any way, I would be in debt to you. Even if you just live close to a beach, somewhere warm, where we could stay for a week.
I hate begging, I guess […]
Im only in 6th grade. I have been called MANY names . Also have been accused for many rumors , it sucks. They call me LINDSAYLOHAN , & worst of all CRACKHEAD -.-” .
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“My Body Is A Cage”
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I’m standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It’s a hollow play
But they’ll clap anyway
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You’re standing next to me
My mind holds the key
I’m living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the […]
Sleep forever or never sleep,
my choices dwindle, Â counting sheep.
The aching nights or lonely pain,
I step outside, sleep in rain.
Freeze to death or sleep forever,
i chose the second, now or never.
I started praying about a month and a half ago. Since then everything has been getting worse. I asked to help this girl on this website that I had been talking to. Her username was Littlemissnobody. Well apparently she’s gone now. I asked him to help me but everything has just been getting worse and worse since I started praying. Does God hate me?
Silent house
of empty nights.
Welcomed shadows
of fleeting dreams.
Distant gleam
of broken skin.
Rusty blood
of worthless love.
Falling child
of weeping soul.
Today I went running and like usual my thoughts began to wonder about life and death. What I couldn’t figure out is why I haven’t summoned the courage to kill myself yet.
Yes, I hate myself. Yes, I am in pain all the time. Yes, nothing makes the pain go away. Yes, I have no hope.
So then why the hell can I NOT kill myself?
The only reason I could come up with is that I am not at peace with myself or my life. Even though life is burning agony, I am not at peace with myself. I have accepted my life is hell, but I […]
I feel like my life is limited. I have to suffer things that only few people have to go through.epilepsy. But in a way, I’m lucky. I have only the slight version, while others have to suffer worse kinds than I have too. CImbibed with epilepsy, I have to go through pain induced seizures. So today, I was just under so much stress. I was tired, didn’t get any sleep last night, and at the end of the day, I had a sharp pain in my stomach. On a scale of 1 through 10, it was a four. So not that bad. But because of […]
I cant take it anymore every wakeing day is something new wether it comes to getting called a fag or gay in school to going home with a black eye. I sometimes just wanna end my life and am planning to do it i just cant bear the fact of all of this anymore ive tried so many things and it always comes back to me. I cant bear the fact anymore….
All i wished:
to hear your voice,
to touch those lips
sweet and moist.
All i wished:
to say your name,
inhale your scent,
ignite this flame.
All i wish:
to pop these pills,
to say goodnight,
for a final thrill.
All i wish:
to have you say
loves not gone,
you feel the same.
i’m so fucking bored with life. the same old shit year in and year out of paying bills and struggling
it’s time to leave now and it’s the best decision i can come up with
i must be the only person on here that really won’t be missed by anyone….becasue i don’t know anyone lol
guys, nothing is real in life, it’s all theatre. time is manmade
Fucking life is shit and I’m sick of it, just want someone to hug me and make it all better
I hurt myself today, to see if i still feel. Johnny Cash had it right. But i do it everyday
so tell me why my fucking step dad thinks he can yell at me just cuz he’s married to my mom.he said that I can’t be friends with this guy my mOm did too but he was yelling.he’s not my dad.he can’t tell me what the fuck to do!don’t I hate my mom for marrying him at times.and I hate my biological dad for dying on me.
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Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now he’s gone
No one but me can save myself
But it’s too late
Now I can’t think
Think why I should even try
Yesterday […]
Why…WHY???? WHYYY?????????????????????????????????????????
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRsofblEK3A
I have damage to my frontal lobe which doesn’t paralyze me, but it effects the way I think, there is no cure for brain damage so I am stuck this way forever. Why the fuck does this happen to me, my life was absolutely perfect, I had everything going for me and my life was going to be amazing, I was going to be really successful and I was the most optimistic person in the world. Now I’m a fucking failure and I have absolutely no chance of ever achieving anything. I suppose I should count myself lucky that I got to have 16 years […]
I have been having thoughts of killing myself on/off for several years now. I have even lost my 20+ years of sobriety. I just “want to go home”. I am sick of the struggles, of the things in my past that affect me each day to the core of my being. I have spent thousands seeing several therapists, all to no avail. I am a walking robot cut off from the world about me. I am successfully employed and financially stable with loving friends and family. But nobody can understand the depths of my hell. The horror called life. I am so done. I am […]
4 years ago I had (in my mind the perfect life). A beautiful wife of 18 years. both had great careers. 250,000 home in the country. boats, 4 wheelers, acreage, well you get the picture. I worshiped my wife and children from a previous marriage and had 2 grandson’s, one of which we were raising. My wife was my best friend (so she said daily). It all unraveled in a matter of months when I found out she was having an affair with my daughter’s drug dealing boyfriend. We never did drugs, led a healthy lifestyle, spent a lot of time together. My own daughter […]
Cheek resting against the bitter metal of the safe, taking in the scent of the mixed smokes, i begin to lean back. Taking comfort from the cool walls embracing me with their heavy darkness, i slide my lids down. The feel of the soft stuffed Pikachu beside me as my last companion, reminds me of the pain inflicted that evening. I take a peak through the slits of the closet door, the soft light filtering through onto my neck and shoulders. Nothing. The silence adds to the electric shock of anticipation. Taking a final glance at the room, i see belongings thrown around, and two […]