I have no where to write anything or talk to anyone because no one cares.  My entire life has been one horrific series of scarring event after scarring event and every time I keep my chin up telling everyone else how it’s all going to be better.  But you know what?  It isn’t going to be better.  Not now.  Not today.  Never.  It only appears to get better so the next time some new horror comes along it will hurt even more than the last.  You can try to isolate yourself, keep yourself safe, but they find you–they prey on your hope, they prey on […]

A friend of mine just talked about how she’s apparently suicidal and now a bajillion people responded with nice comments. She’s not really suicidal, she’s just doing it for the attention.
I’m freaking suicidal, and drop hints on my buzz posts everyday, but they go unnoticed.
I’m just so freaking pissed off at the world.

Why do these demons surround me?

And pick at my weary soul?

What would it tke to ground me

after I lose all self control?

How can I cover this flood of grief

If I cant pinpoint it’s source?

I stand here alone in disbelief

Numb to all remorse.

Im not afraid of dying

I welcome it instead

But what’s the point of even trying

Unless I end up dead.

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I lost a loved one today.we had a lot of ups and downs,

but I always seemed optimistic on the potential of us getting it together one day.

I love her.. and I’ll never realize when to let you go.  I’ve struggled with the highest form of anxiety for years now

and its become unbearable. Panic attacks and heart palpitations have altered my life for the worse.

I’ve just been always scared to die due to religious beliefs and felt if under the influence it’d be way easier.

Drugs make my symptoms of depressions worse so I avoided it.  I depended on her.. she kept me going when I didn’t

have reasons to continue. Now that […]

I hate my ass hole of a brother. He kicks the kids around, tells everyone to shut the hell up, acts like he’s the fucking king… My mom seems to believe that everytime I’m upset or something it just /has/ to do with her. Yeah, I don’t wanna move. But did she ever think that the fact my brother was threatening me was possibly upsetting? And that she didn’t do anything was awfully bitchy of her? I hate it here. I hate the kids at school, the people at home… I’m just too much of a coward to die now… I don’t know what the […]

Hi its me again im 13 and i wanna die it doesnt matter what method i just wanna die i was so suicidal in school today i just wanted to kill myself in the bathroom i made this comment to the same boy that was makin fun of my grade in science and i see no life ahead of me i just wanna leave if u wanna help u can try but i dont think anythings gonna work right now

I wrote this when I had cut myself the night before even though my girlfriend didn’t want me to. She didn’t know yet that I’d cut when I wrote this:

Sitting all alone
The emptiness inside me threatens to consume me.
The sting in my open wounds keeps me feeling
The bleeding doesn’t hurt
It’s knowing I made you cry that burns
Tears ooze out of the corner of my eyes
Acid burning my skin
I know I let you down
I know you’re angry
At least you would be if you knew
I’m sitting here alone and bleeding.

So tired.
Living hurts…

It hits me
like a wave
crushing my lungs
and my will to be
until I’m left gasping
and faltering
and fidgeting
or anything
just to breathe

Trying not to drown
not let it overcome
and overwhelm
or anything at all

Then I find it
because I know
that I truly need it
it’s my life jacket
when that wave engulfs me

And finally I can breathe
my sigh of relief
when I make myself bleed

Hey guys i’m thinking about cutting myself, is there anything i should know cause i don’t want to screw that up.

My best friend was murdered when I was in grade 7, December 25’th, 2007. I haven’t felt any emotion other than anger and sadness since that day. I’m known as the family failure or disgrace to my family, Atleast that’s what my dad calls me.I’ve thought about killing myself before but I felt like I had something to live for, until now. I was kicked out of my house because I miss too much school, there are people that care, but I can only name 2, and both of them live atleast an hour away, or provinces away. I have nowhere to go, nobody that […]

I’ve been telling myself this for 7 years and I need a way out. Every year it just gets worse with more time passing by. I haven’t ever had anything or anyone to live for, no meaning whatsoever. I acknowledge that there are people in my life that care, but they’ve never really shown it in the ways I need them to and they definitely don’t understand how I’ve been feeling for so long. At this point I don’t care at all, I don’t feel anything, and I just want what’s best for myself to be free of this constant hell that I live in […]

Is it painful? Does it take long to succumb to death? And how much would I need to consume?

I have the Exit Bag kit but it says helium or ******** is required but I can’t get my hands on those discreetly and keep it a secret. I’m still considering this way without the gases despite knowing that your body goes into panic mode even after loss of consciousness and can easily end up in failure. I need another way out, I’ve needed one for so long.

Hello, My name is Michael Meece and this is my story.

Over the past 15 years, I have tried to end my endless suffering and has failed.  I believe there is a true reason for that. But I am not sure what it is, yet.

The first time I tried was when I was probably in the 7th grade. I took alot of tylenol and hoped to die. All I did was permanently screw up my liver. I was committed for 3 months in a hospital psychiatric facility for minors.

In 2006, My future fiance broke up with me. I was trully and painfully heartbroken. I […]