im 17.im a girl. i just dont care anymore. i smoke too much weed.i was molested by an immediate family member when i was little. i hate myself. i go to an all girls school. i hate it. all my friends ever want to do is party. i want a boyfriend but i know im too crazy to have one. no one could take me. i have no real friends. i was gang raped by drug dealers a little more than a month ago. i cut myself. my moms an alcoholic and sometimes stays out for nights.. i know ive gone mad. i know it. […]

I like milkshake i think everyone should cheer up and like live for milkshake XD Life is a party!! WOOP!! BOPin
I love Jedward and Britney Spears! If ur thinkin of commitin suicide remember them and believe that LIFE IS AWESOME!!

Hi people I randomly discovered this site and it almost made me cry at how many people are just giving up on themselves and think that the only way to deal with your life and problems is to die. Well it certainly isn’t  i myself have been here and when I was 12 i took an overdose to try and kill myself Failed obviously and so for all those people who think I dont know how you feel I do.

We all feel alone sometimes even when theres people around you you can still feel trapped by society, friends , family and life in general day […]

even though i open my mouth to speak
no voice comes
the truth is
im chained by own thoughts
wondering if i should say this or not
knowing that they will either laugh or yell
im scared

as i stood there in the darkness,
it seemed to comfort me.
the grip on my finger seemed to loosen
before i knew it,
tears were falling.
it was so lonely.

my eyes had no life,
they did not burn with passion,
nor did they not smile.
in these dark brown, hollow eyes of mine,
it tells a story.
a story of lonliness, hatred, and depression.

they’re looking at me.
why […]

nothing really more i can add to this

i’m a physician in residency training.

i feel like i shouldn’t feel this way, but i cant help it.

i’m so tired, so lost, i feel so ‘not good enough’

thoughts of dying all the time.

i hate myself.

i’m all alone.

i dont know how to go on.

So, I’ve been suicidal ever since I can remember. I remember being a little girl, trying to hang myself by skipping rope… My family use to abuse me both physically along with sexually. I was an insecure child being both white and indian like native american indian. I was never accpeted by the white because I had native blood and vice versa with the indians. I was alone. I started cutting at age 10 and gradually went deeper as I got older. I never had a father, so I never knew how to act. Around boys. My mom was a work-a-holic so we always had […]

Dear readers,

I’m a 19 year old female student. And I seek help from you, because I’ve got no money to pay somebody to listen to me.

I’m not lesbian, I know that for sure, and neither is the person involved in this story.  Despite this fact, I think we probably fell in love with each other some time ago. But let me tell you the whole story.

I met her on September 2009, but we didn’t begin to talk seriously until the beginning of 2010. When we began talking, we discovered we had many things in common. We enjoyed the same music, had similar experiences in the […]

I want out now.
I just want to be gone from everything, everyone.
I’m bisexual and I can’t tell my parents, I mean what if some how I get pregnat?
What would they say?
I’m not that strong with words.
I just want a friend who won’t tell all my secrets, maybe a guy who will have my back insted of sttabing it.
Iv never done drugs, but everyone thinks that because of my “friend” i don’t know what her problem is.
I haven’t been able to cry for months,but I need it.
Just take me away.               […]

People just don’t understand.

I used to have plenty of friends that thought they knew me well, but when they found out how sick I was, how close to death at my own heads I had come, they stopped being there for me.

I hear the same things all the time from psychologists, my parents, teachers, and the so-called “people who care about me”. They always ask me why I am so sad, I have everything that any teen girl could ask for. Talents, smarts, looks, why would I want to give that all up for nothing?

I. DON’T. KNOW. If I did I’d do something to fix […]

my attempt and the hospital visit…

Im 25 years old. I dont care about anything or anyone. it seems like its been like that most of my life. i feel really guilty but also too lazy to do anything about it. i just want to end my life coz i feel like there’s no future for me- i cant hold down a job coz i cant learn new things/ i cant problem solve or think indepdently or have an opinion about anything for some reason (am i mentally retarded?) and i cant make any meaningful friendships with people. my sister- who is unbelievably patient and supportive of me in my bottomless […]

I’ve got it down that I want to and probably should take my life fairly soon, I’m just about positive. The reasoning is good and doesn’t have any ill will towards anyone like it used to (almost everyone is doing something like this “because” of someone, it’s rare that it becomes a 100% personal thing, which I’m thankful that I waited for), which is normal, I guess.

All I have to figure out is a way to do it in that I can still be an organ donor afterwards. I’ve gotten really far in making everything just about perfect but I can’t find a way that […]

The more I stroll the street or malls at night, seeing all the humans and couples and happy and dull faces of them,
the more I feel so distanced and separated..
Men in suits always looking oh so professional, with their seemingly chic I-Phones or Blackberry on their ears,
Women often with glamorous necklace, and latest/newest brand of bag,
Ads blaring everywhere you see, hear, and even approached by so-called “Sales girls”,
discount here, buy this, buy that, discount there,

You come out from movie theaters watching perhaps most fantastical & hypnotizing movies/films,
that you even freezes out and don’t feel like you want to get […]

I am not a stupid girl. I just make stupid decisions. I love my boyfriend of three years. However he has so much issues that he’s dealing with that I got wrapped up in all of his drama. He’s dealing with depression and addiction and despite all the support I’m trying to give him, he spirals down into his alcoholism dragging me along with him. I had a bad past and I am trying my best to support myself and put myself through school. But he’s just so twisted that he ended up getting drunk, cheated on me, and in the process, I suspect he’d […]

Well i spent most of today thinking about suicide and how i would do it, from research i came to the conclusion i would use helium tank and an exit bag… though i am still thinking about it more in depth before i commit.

I guess you think about people who know you, family and how it will effect them, I have even thought of the song i want played at my funeral. I guess it really related to my life here are some lyrics..

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of […]

go ahead and monkey-fuck on all of this: “I had bad grammer and mi girl/bboyfriend freaks me on occaision.,”

Fuck you all.

I am talented, I make a living playing music–something many people could only dream of, but yet every year I spend months trying to commit suicide. Stints of happiness and joy in what I do in no way make up for the pain and unhappiness I have experienced as long as I can remember. Drugs, therapy I have tried everything and have put myself far into debt because of it, so here I am; Broke, broken, and homeless. Is this my reward for treating people horribly in the past– continued self hatred, or is this a sign that things should end here? They seem to […]

my life has been very difficult the past 19 years, but somehow some way i pulled through.

i have many people by my side to support me. and thats what i am thankful for.

without the help of my friends family my councilor and others i probably wouldnt be here today.

yes there is a bumpy road, and then their is the quick way and thats ending your life.

i stuck through and tried my hardest to pull my life back together. and yes its coming back together but it can colapse anytime. in 5 days i will be entering the real world.

school was one of my […]