Last night i prepared myself to die but it went wrong. Do not waste your time with lithopone. I followed the instructions perfectly in a small sealed box room.I laid down waiting and waiting for 6 hours, there was the smell of rotten eggs and my eyes started to sting and i coughed a little, but that was it. No knock out….nothing. I was so happy getting everything ready and today i’m a failure again. I used 2225 g of lithopone and 10 bottles of 75ml hcl. I stirred the stuff for hours waiting and waiting. Really need to find another method of catching the […]

Ok, this will probably be my last post before I do the deed. I only have one final question. I’ve been making videos outlining my last will, and reasons as to why I’m going to do what I’m going to do for my family. The only thing that’s holding me back is my mother. We’ve always shared a powerful connection, and to put it bluntly, I wouldn’t just be killing myself, I’d pretty much be doing the same thing to her. I’m not going to leave this world without trying to explain and soften the blow of my actions to her. Any ideas what I […]

So by now, I’m sure many (if not all) of you must have been wondering: with all these shits and fuck-ups happening in my life, what is then really the Purpose of my Life?? And I mean, fuck, what is Life really all about??
(it’s funny, strange, and yet still an unexplored *mystery* in itself of why we humans can at one point always seem to ask about this ‘big’ question, especially when we’re in our lowest point in Life. It makes you think & ponder deeply, despite that “Life goes on”).

How about this: Life on this Planet (& Universe, for that matter) is only […]

Dunno if I will fit in here: Serious feeling of a terrible tiredness of living…And pursued for so long by terrifying phobias and dark, dark thoughts.

I have been living in this purgatory since my first panic attack when I turned 18….31 years ago! 10 years of “lounging” in any and every emergency rooms in my country of birth ( France), and in different countries. A life of worries, fears, lightened-up with only some rare flashes of happiness.

I am at a loss to comprehend why I should keep on dealing with this anymore, and yet, ironically, I fear death as terribly as I do with my […]

It must’ve been in a place so dark you couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh, why? That’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin’ third to score the winning run
You always […]

But then again, what is it that makes us such the savior??? Shouldn’t it be easier to just end it _

He wrote me so many precious poems.
Once he told me
“When my skin lacks radiation the clouds stole,
I won’t let this coldness become a black hole,
because the comet in my sky is your smile.”

I hope his black hole opens up
and sucks her up
and kills her
the next time he kisses my best friend,

because he will never see me smile again.

Today, I carved his name into my arm.

The worst part is, if I showed him,
I’d only be less likely to get him back.

He dumped me on my birthday.
Ten minutes after taking my virginity.
Because, after ten months of dating,

Im only 13 and think im going to commit suicide tonight i need someone to talk to please if you are willing to talk please do im begging you please talk to me and comment even if you can give me an email address to talk to you my friends or parents or any other dont wanna help so please help me and talk to me

Well I’m feeling down and I need to hear about your shit life so I can feel better bout mine :).

Please read, I know its long but I could use any help I can get… Two years ago I was in a relationship that ended with physical abuse.  I tried to kill myself then and went into therapy.. It help and I stopped going.. but always felt that depression try and come back but I always just fought it off. I have been in an on again off again fling for a year and we just started dating a few months ago.  I did the worst thing I could possibly do to him and I regret it fully. I took the violence that I have […]

i tried commiting suicide by taking pills 2 months back and my bf dumped me after tht saying tht m a psycho…today i dumped him and learned that life is very beautiful..we just have to throw away things/people who hurt us frm our lives…:-):-).dnt die yaar..its not worth it!!every problem has a solution.i was raped 3 years back whn i was 16yrs old by my 1st bf.i told everythng to my 2nd bf but he taunts me now abt my past.m a mbbs student n i dint write my exams 2 times.everythng sucks–my career,health,my personal life etc…but i dont care i want to live n […]

Hey its me im a 13 year old child before i commit suicide would someone please talk to me im begging you my email address is misnesha97@comcast.net or comment and leave yours i really hope i can talk to someone who cares

They act like i killed off everything n everybody they fucking know and own. i only went out last night. what the fuuck. i dont do my heroin no more i dont do shit. thats why thy hate me so miuch. they think im only good for partying and thats it. no, no thats all i no to do. u let me fly my whole life. dont no how i ended up here. you fucking *****, you fucking ***** u think u can just let me go pull me bak then tell me to jst go n die. i should kill you nstead of myself, […]

i would rather b in any1 elses shoes right now. real talk. blood drippin from the arms, bottle of pills a foot away from my hands. the gun already loaded just looking for a quite place to just enjoy ur fucking death n not be bothered. wanna no where im at?, no socks, no shoes, all u own is n a bucket in ur car. no money, no cigs, no bed to lay ur head on, n home to cuddle on the floor. the people that raised u n hav been taking care of u ur whole life, want u out of ur only home […]

Im probably one of the most fucked up people on here. i cannot tell you how much i think about suicide n death. so much that i here the toon from a cartoon do ta do do ta do. dont have a home i live with my parents n hide around the hose n i haave even ignored myself being here. i tryied commiting suicide 3 times. pills, heroin, coke, xannex. u got it i want it. but we all probably got the picture in our heads of going deep into the woods with a knife or a gone n picture the blood, or the […]

Hi everyone haven’t posted here before but have read almost every post on here. I don’t want to be here anymore. All my family hates me, my mum never speaks to me and cares more about her new boyfriend than me or my brother, I am failing college and am fed up of feeling angry and lonely. I cry all the time and just want out basically. Has anyone got any advice on how to go quickly without any pain? Have got loads of pills but it would need to be quick before my mum finds me like she did before. Thanks

My wife, lover, soulmate and carer walked out on me 6 months ago. I have tried suicide 4 times and been sectioned twice, just got out on thursday after drinking 1 1/2 litres of morphine and other tablets. I was revived three times in intensive care and still i want to die.

I have no job, my children wont talk to me, my youngest left my home last week and i live in physical pain daily. I am treat by everyone around me in my village with contempt, they all think i,m a nutter for trying to kill myself repeatedly. I have been home 4 days […]

hey its me again the 13 year old i have a bottle of pills right next to me ive already started cutting on my arms and wrists guess its time to take the pills writing my letter maybe someone can change my mind but i dont think so

I slipped last night and i dont regret it but i had been so good for the past month and then my aunt started saying hurtful things and my best friend who is almost my sister doesnt want me around her baby. The marks are visible and yet all i get is a glance a sigh and then they are gone. I know they are fed up with me and i try so hard to get better but they dont help. I wish my family would help an i love you or please talk to me anything would be better than suffering alone in a […]

Hey im only 13 and i want to commit suicide right now bullying is the problem i need someone too talk to please help im begging you.