my mom is yelling at me non stop all i do is cry when im alone im not aloud to cry in front of her she yells i cut but i recently went to biteing which leaves me a scare for about three days and pain for a week i hat life ive wanted to kill my self since i learn i could my sister tried she was raped she was arrested ….. im just here in the back round i never do any thing bad im always good yet im the one […]

If I get up early enough tomorrow I’m gonna go food shopping and spend the day eating myself to death. 

But I’ll no doubt sleep all day and miss my chance.

I’m Jasmine im bigger then usual I’m 14 turning 15 I believe im pretty only my head has good features my mom and sister talk down to me and get mad when I stand up for my self I truly want to kill my self idk what to do.
All I do is get criticism I know people judge due to my weight ive tried every thing I never tell any one every thing only one person or two know and that’s my therapist I got from freaking school not my […]

Why is it wrong to destroy nature? The natural world might, after all, not be necessary to our survival. We have the technology to create artificial environments, as we do in space, and we are inventive enough to keep ourselves entertained, maybe even happy, without anything like the natural world. So why not replace it with something more congenial to our tastes?

There are, of course, many answers to this question. For now I’d like to examine just one: that the destruction of nature is an invitation to nihilism—that is, to the obliteration of higher purpose or meaning. To see the point, consider that nature is by definition […]

The lights have all gone dim

and im questioning when they will go out

we always said we would leave this town

never knew it would be like this

I want to be where everyone goes

sleeping on the floor,

sleeping to make everything make sense

don’t wake me, the nightmares are like the old days

well if you look at it like I do

its not a dark tunnel with a light at the end

its so bright I cant open my eyes

well I love you enough to stay so don’t tell me to straighten up

ill stay fucked up so I can stay

ill stay numb so you can at least hold a warm body

so […]

So…? I don’t know how to start this, but I guess this works.
Know what I hate? When people say they understand, and you know they don’t. Because it’s really hard to understand this.
I’m 14 years old, I’ve been cutting for 3 years, and suicidal for 1.
In July, I tried to kill myself.
I woke up one more time than I expected to. Now I’m just left with the scars.
I wish I had succeeded, because it’s only gone downhill from there…
Yea, sure, majority here feel sad.
But to what degree?
Isn’t 4 years enough? No. It isn’t.
I’m not some oh-my-boyfriend-dumped-me-I’m-depressed […]

So here’s the deal:

I have this condition called post traumatic stress disorder from my life sucking for a while, and all it really does is make my life suck more and renders me incapable of feeling any emotion similar to happiness and  incapacitates me from any form of escapism, self-help or relating to other people. I have nightmares whenever I sleep, and anxiety through the day. I’ve been suicidal for years. Had major self esteem/self identity issues. Been sexually assaulted.  Was bullied as a child. Cutter for six years. Eating disorders. Sleep disorders.  Y’know the whole deal.

If you fancy yourself to be somewhat intellectual and can […]

Today i woke up and forgot who I was. I went to the bathroom and saw something weird on my face, but then again I’m not even sure if thats my face. I asked a dog sitting in the backyard if he could tell me who I was and he said : “you are a very cheerful  person that loves playing with me and never lets me be alone”. With a smile I said :”thanks”. I went in the house and in the kitchen table I found a fish and so I asked him: “who am I?”  he said: ” you are a very quiet person and never have i […]

Still alive

was in hospital for 2 weeks

when I’m with you time doesn’t stop but the worlds mumble dies

and only you and I exist 

I’ve said too much but I feel as though it’s not enough

and the cuts on your wrists prove me right

the pain you always hide,

the world you create where nothing exists,

stop running away,

stop being afraid,

I know you always cry at night,

your pillow swollen with painful tears,

the tub filled with blood

your joyful eyes always hiding who you really are

fake smiles, trying not to bother anybody

pretending only to want fun but I know you’re looking for love

hurt myself helping you

I don’t mind,

just don’t want to see you cry

I’m posting my suicide letter online because the people in my life know how I feel, so I would just be repeating myself to them, it’s like they can’t really hear me. I hope people read this and at least try to understand what it’s like for those who are suicidal, or ‘different’ like me.

In 2005 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I’ve been on medication since and was in hospital for 2 weeks once.  I only take the meds to please other people, my illness upsets them and I don’t want to do that.

I have manic periods where I am literally on top of […]

You wanted me perfect. It all started when I od on those diet pills because I saw no progress, until I started to faint, constantly. I try to gain wait, but slowly my weight decreases. The good thing is that I’m not skinny, just thin; the doctor says that since I don’t have the nutrients my body needs, it’s eating my body slowly. Somehow I noticed this change in my body; I started with this cold thing, I always felt cold and my body was actually cold. After a few months my hair wasn’t as soft and pretty like before, and then I started losing […]

I hate my life my best friend doesn’t understand no1 does, I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF this is not for fucking attention

Ok I’m 12 and very siriously thinking about suicide this helped a little but Im still leaning towords suicide

Im sitting across the room from my husband of

sixteen years. Im desperate and never felt more alone

I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I have

endured too much. I dont really want to die but

I feel like Im not welcome here anymore.  My

brother commited suicide about 5 years ago. Leaving me

an only child. My mother has delt with multiple

ilnesses all my life and had became addicted to

prescription pain meds. Now she is blind and mostly

bed ridden. I have to sit with my mom everyday,

often 7 or 8 hours a day.

My father works hard to make ends meat.

My […]