My birthday is coming up, wouldn’t it be ironic to do it that day?
Not a good day today. Never felt more alone in a room full of people then I do now. I have been married for over 22 years and four children of all I love, but things are overwhelming right now… tooo much. I tried to pull the trigger, but just couldn’t, even did it while standing infront of my wife…foolish.
We just had the hugest argument that we have ever had and I just can’t take it anymore. My life is worthless, my married marred, and my example as a father destoryed. All I want to do is leave. […]
“Hi, my name is Gerard. I’m just a bit concerned by the tendency of the medical profession and society in general to want to put a label on us as depressive people and therefore that there’s something wrong with us.
I think that some people may have an inability to cope, and maybe this might sound a bit extreme, but that might be Darwinian theory, the Darwin theory of survival of the fittest.
Maybe some of us aren’t meant to survive, maybe some of us are meant to kill ourselves because the only people that really suffer are the ones left behind, but the person who […]
You would think that being different would work for you.I handle all my personal business like a good person. I mean you’ve seen or heard about that guy thats not a typical idiot, that wants only to be happy and someone to share it with. All he ever thinks about is doing for others in the hopes that others will be just as kind if not than more so. Of course your family will say they love you. BUT THATS WHAT THEY ALWAYS DO. It’s only natural for them to say I love you. But its a whole different story when someone from outside your […]
Remember when we all dreamed of what we wanted to be when we grow up? What happened to that? I guess life has a funny way of showing you how your life is going to pan out. I have dreams. I have lots of dreams. But will I ever achieve them? I’ve been told over and over again by people to be “realistic” about life. But why? Why can’t I dream? Do you think I will never accomplish them? So what if they may seem outrageous or stupid. It’s my life. Yes, I want to be a WWE Diva. Yes, I want to live in […]
Sometime in the past 6 years, I found myself. I still know who I am… but I can’t be who I want to be. No, not because of peer pressure and whatnot. I genuinely have this sickness thats preventing me from doing the things I love and being the person I am.
There should be no walls, no obstacles to stop me. I have my supportive parents. I have a warm home. I basically have most things I ask for. So why do I still sit here and want to be gone? Not dead, but gone. And if dead is the only way to be […]
or at least no worse than any other night. i wrote my letter. summoning the courage to do what i think is right. or what needs to be done. i resisted for so many years. these past days i woke up and fell asleep with the thought of suicide.
well, thanks for creating this site. i hope you guys get better, i hope for a good change in all your lives, and be safe. if i survive i guess i’ll be back (:
i hope hell aint that bad that i cant laugh at it.
ps. this is a primal fear song, i found it fit […]
Just like you all I have experienced depression ,depression so bad that it drove me to almost killing myself and even praying death upon myself. Life seemed unfair to me, it was like everything I did failed ,it was as if God was against me ,I hated him for it and even went as far as cursing him multiple times without any fear of him whatsoever. I was constantly disappointed in the world and people ,because everything  seemed “fake” , superficial and cruel ,life just seemed like a popularity contest with winners and losers and I was losing(each and every time no matter what lol). […]
Largely, the posts here are of an intimate and personal nature. I have that. I have micro issues that wrought anguish, yes. But it’s the world, the macro, that really zings me. Take the oil gusher in the Gulf Mexico. I am not schizophrenic, but when I think of all those sea turtles and birds nesting (this is the peak of their nesting season, right now, surround by oil and chemical dispersements) I get sick to my stomach. The good ol’ boy network, BP is the 4th largest corporation in the world. Something like this in China happens […]
This life isn’t mine is it? I feel so unaccomplished, and unloved. I am tired of doing for everyone else. Always being the hand someone needs but never getting anything in return. I have felt this way so many times throughout my 28 years of life.
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Recently my husband of 7 years and i were reunited after a 17 month seperation due to issues not in our control. I thought things would be great. I had done so much in the time we were apart. I worked hard to help support him, to make sure everything with the govenrnment was done right and on […]
Basically, I’ve been suicidal since I was about seven years old. All in all that’s not as long as it seems, seeing as I’m only turning thirteen on Monday. Maybe it is a sort of long time, six years… yeah. Anyway, it all started when I found out my dad was a drug addict. He had been addicted since before I was even born, and it hurt that nobody had the nerve to tell me before. They all had lied to me about where he was when he went to the… I want to say eight rehabs he’d been to, where he was when he […]
Over the past week or so I have left a comment or two on these forums as well as a post of my own about 10 days ago. This is not my first time using this website, I have posted in the past but I have always avoided becoming an active participant in the Suicide Project community. Lately though I have been thinking a lot about the idea of suicide, and reading the posts of others on this site has given me some new perspectives and ideas to reflect upon. Ultimately, I hope to find others on this site who share my views on life, […]
It’s such a stupid reason to become suicidal over your appearance, isn’t it?…
I keep writing this over and over but yet again if anyone feels the way all you feel its def. me! if anyone knows that suicide is a blessing and would be amazing if it could just happen and w/e it would be me but the only thing i hate is to ever see anyone hurting the way i do thats why im here i wanna do it so bad but just haven’t yet but i do want to, but i believe if we all stick together we all understand each other so we can make it through this we just need to all stick […]
I remember like it was just yesterday. We were both 15 years old, and so in love. Her birthday is only a day after mine. She was and is the most beautiful girl I had ever met. She was the only girl to make me as happy as I was, the happiest I’ve ever been. Her name is Alisha. We met through friends who we shared, when I met her I had a girlfriend at the time, but we weren’t serious, and didn’t plan on being. Alisha, from the first day I met her was the nicest, sweetest, kindest, most giggly, enchanting, beautiful, amazing, funny, […]
This song has been in my head the last few days.
English translation:
On a bridge, quite high
A man holds his arms open
There he stands and still hesitates
Right away the people swarm in droves
I won’t miss out on it either
I want to see it up close
I get into the first row
And scream
The man wants to climb from the bridge
The people begin to hate
They form a dense crowd
And don’t want to let him down
So he climbs back up
And the mob begins to rage
They want his innards
And scream
Jump
Redeem me
Jump
Is there a certain point where it becomes acceptable to end one’s own life?
I’m a severe alcoholic, I recently blew about five months of sobriety by drinking again. It didn’t turn out well. I smashed my windshield and got my third owi. I’ll get up to a year in jail, fines and lose my license for that. The thing with drinking is once I start, I’m powerless to stop, and I do crazy things.
I live in Wisconsin, somehow I ended up in California. I’m not sure why I even came out here, but I’m too broke to get […]
I’m in the process of taking painkillers that I’m chasing with vodka/rum. I’ve wanted to do this for as long as I can remember. I’ve wanted to die for so long. I waited and prayed for God to kill me but he never did so now I’m going to do it my way now.
Its funny. My life could be a lot worse. I made the cheerleading squad at the college I’m transferring to. Something I wanted really bad and worked really really hard for. I got a good internship for this summer that not only will pay well but will look good on my resume […]
For well over a year i’ve been trying to kill myself. and ive concluded i either suck horribly at suicide, or im not spossed to die.
It started when my baby died. I got one of my friends pregnant, and she knew i wanted a kid really badly, and she lied to me about even being pregnant, and got an abortion on top of it all… she didnt even have the guts to tell me.. her best friend told me and gave me proof…
Then i gave up everything for someone.. spent seven months with a girl, and was 200% dedicated, i gave up more […]