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I Wanna Be Sedated

by louise52 4/17/2015

written by louise52

I’m groggy. Have taken three different sedative substances, only one of them prescribed. Tsk tsk.

Am desperate to sleep.

Am using chatrooms coz I can’t focus on any book, movie, documentary or any other cultural output.

There’s something seriously wrong with my body. It’s like dragging a corpse around. I’m constantly knackered.

Uh-oh. This may not be suicidal enough for Suicide Project.

I daren’t even say what I really want to say. I’m paranoid as all hell. If I say I wanna kill someone some f***** out there might think I mean it so…

So here’s another half-assed post which is really just a groggy vent. Because sauce for the goose […]

4/17/2015 3 comments

should i brake up with my boyfriend?

by Ali 4/14/2015

written by Ali

okay guys sorry for the bad spelling/typing. . . but im in a relationship and ive been going out with him for like 3 weeks now but ive always been suicidal and i dont know if i should brake up with him before i commit suicide or kinda leave it. im very happy with him but i just dont like the idea that i am alive, i know that is the probably the most stupid reason to die but there is a whole back story of why i am depressed and suicidal. i dont want to hurt him yet i still want to die because […]

4/14/2015 8 comments

is it my fault that i am a loser?

by iamafingloser 4/14/2015

written by iamafingloser

i mean yes i do have bad genes so is it still my fault for being a loser?

4/14/2015 27 comments

I need someone :<

by Meg725 4/13/2015

written by Meg725

I have no one. My best friend don’t give a f* about me. I had a fight with his friend and he forced me to apologize with them even though it wasn’t fault so i sacrifice my dignity and apologized to them. We were best friend before i had a fight with his friends , he stops hanging out with me and left me sit alone in the class . I start to have my lunch alone in the school , feeling helpless in the class . I tried to overdoes paracetamol and ended up vomited all of them out and i never going to […]

4/13/2015 2 comments

FINALLY DECIDED

by seanyboi 4/11/2015

written by seanyboi

I really can’t take being ignored anymore I thought maybe if I try and talk to someone it will make me feel better I tryed speaking to my dad and he said get on with it my mum just ignored me. I even tryed to tell my so called friends that I don’t want the here anymore and that just thought I was joking about nobody get it. I just can’t the pain anymore.

This is my finally goodbye thank you to everyone that tryed to make me feel better the smorning the first people that’s done that in a long time but I […]

4/11/2015 1 comment

What is the meaning of life? [help]

by pp1102 4/9/2015

written by pp1102

Hi, i am new to this site, please excuse my poor grammar and occasional incorrect spelling i do not really want to check all my mistakes and attempt to fix them and sorry for the long post, i could not shorten it out, this is the only place where i can truly speak whats on my mind.

What exactly am i dealing with? I’t cant be depression my problems are too meaningless to be that:

I constantly feel sad, like i am not doing anything useful with my pathetic, meaningless, insignificant life, like i have no meaning, sorry, its not like i have no meaning, i know […]

4/9/2015 3 comments

nopeee

by bigmoppa27 4/8/2015

written by bigmoppa27

Im not crazy , just alone, need employment, cant get out of house, lost my last job 2 months ago hitting on a girl, which i would never do ever but wasnt thinking clearly from the kratom. Im about 400 pounds and i feel lazy and lethargic alot. I worked at 711 for about a year, hard to keep up but i tried reallh hard. Then i got a job as a security officer. im a nice guy, why did i have to hit on that woman, i should of not did it, noe i have 14 dollars living with my brother, ive messed up […]

4/8/2015 1 comment

:)

by BlackOutAlice 4/4/2015

written by BlackOutAlice

No horny white boy, i do not want to see your penis

no horny white boy i do not want to exchange pictures

Yes horny white boy i do not want anything between us

No that does not mean come closer, be warned i have scissors

No horny white boy that does not mean i am a racist

No horny white boy this is not because your white

Horny white boy i wouldn’t take penis pictures regardless

No horny white boy just because your white does not make you right

4/4/2015 5 comments

When. Will. It. Get. Better?

by exitsun 4/4/2015

written by exitsun

This is my first post here. I found this website when i was googleing on nebtual substitute. Thats where i am now. I know what i need to aquire, but it seems inpossible. So i look for the next best thing..

I have been down for the last 15y, and i have tried everything there is. It wont get better. Im diagnosed with a “personaltiy dissorder” so that means that no drugs on earth will ever cure me. Well, exept for one, the one that let me sleep forever.

I have 3 children and a girlfriend since 9y. Me, i am 29y.

But i dont feel anything special, […]

4/4/2015 4 comments

Still

by Namelessqueer 4/1/2015

written by Namelessqueer

I wonder if I’ll make it. I barely survive. I do not know what to do or who I truly am. I feel at the core of me jealousy for those who survive but also I need them to survive. I think they deserve everything they have and need, wish I could give them more.

This all feels meaningless when we think about the corners of our heart that keep wearing down, rounded by time, as rocks by the sea, to slide more seamlessly as the tides overwhelm.

I do not know that the love I have is enough to keep me here. I struggle and […]

4/1/2015 5 comments

Break Me

by Sammi6xoxo 3/26/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Break me down. Please. Disect me. Cut me open. Just tell me what’s wrong with me. I’ll give you all of the tools if you can just look inside. I’m down on my knees begging you to tell me what’s wrong with my mind. Why am I like this? Why do I want these horrible things? I don’t want to be your burden. But I wouldn’t mind being your little science project. I don’t want the drugs. I don’t want the alcohol. […]

3/26/2015 13 comments

you minus you plus you

by heyB 3/26/2015

written by heyB

the internet. i’ve always invisioned going into a community and visualizing them face to face except we’re not really face to face. its just the illusion inside our minds. our bodies make the motion. so any time i enter a forum or whathaveyou, i imagine it a lot like entering into a room already chalked full of people, some you know and some you don’t. the ones that don’t know you happen to see you first, thus already altering an outcome.

stranger: hey, hello…i’m not sure why i’m drawn to you but i am and i just wanted to say hello.

me: plus you gave me a […]

3/26/2015 0 comment

Broken

by HereticBlood 3/25/2015

written by HereticBlood

Heart wide open
I’m am the chosen
Lost and broken
So many words left unspoken
Oh how I wish I was more outspoken
I try to sleep but I’m always awoken
Nightmares, eating at my soul, an empty soulless erosion
I have nothing left, I am emotionless
Make no motions
My mind reopens
Racing thoughts it’ll soon be an explosion

Self destruct in 3……2…….1….

3/25/2015 0 comment

hoping for early death.

by spvnalittlelie 3/23/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

a while ago, i read an article that says extreme prolonged loneliness is just as bad as obesity as far as lowering life expectancy. i think, good. i am both extremely lonely and obese. i hope it doubles my chance of dying early. sometimes i get little chest pains. i’m only 18. but when it happens, i think about how it would feel to have a heart attack. that’s how i’ll probably go, if i don’t do it first; my obesity + the stress of loneliness/depression/everything else will finally come crashing down onto me, like lightning, and i’ll be gone.

3/23/2015 1 comment

Down and away

by chriswatt666 3/22/2015

written by chriswatt666

It all comes full circle. Nothing really left. I am 47 have not felt this way in awhile. Lost all that was good. I am not weak. But just cant stand the thought about what is left. Things dont really change. I was not a drinker. But all i want to do is get fucked up on alcohol, pills, weed. I need relief. I have good friends play in a band, but am alone always alone.

3/22/2015 8 comments

Just sad

by unicornprin 3/16/2015

written by unicornprin

I ain’t shit, I am pretty sure that everyone around me knows that. I flunked out of college when I was only a semester away from finishing. I recently found out I got fired from my job but yet don’t know why.. I worked so hard, I was working almost three weeks with no days off. I received no recognition, no appreciation, no love, they were all shitting on me. I am sort of happy I am no longer working for a bunch off people who shitted on me constantly and never gave a damn about my feelings but i dunno how i’m going to […]

3/16/2015 3 comments

I can’t take anymore of this!

by yellowflowercx34671 3/16/2015

written by yellowflowercx34671

I am 19 yrs old. I am studying in a private university and to graduate I will have to pass 12 semesters. I am in my very first semester and have already failed. I haven’t told my parents about this, as I am afraid that my father will kill me if he knows that I have failed, because my family is very poor. This semester cost about 500 bucks and it was wasted completely. I failed because I missed a class in which the study material for the exam was given and I couldn’t get it later because I don’t know how and where to […]

3/16/2015 7 comments

by Matt 3/14/2015

written by Matt

the person you knew is dead

let go of who i am now but never forget who i was

why won’t you call

any of you

i’m just tired of being forgotten

i’m not doing this to hurt you

but i want you to hurt

3/14/2015 1 comment

Drinking

by savemefrommyself 3/11/2015

written by savemefrommyself

Me and my boyfriend went to a party a while back where I drank for the first time and I liked it. While I was drunk something snapped in place and I felt better… I’ve been drinking a lot since then and my boyfriend made me promise to stop… but I can’t. And I have been trying to since I promised… should I tell him I still am drinking?

3/11/2015 1 comment

I need help

by Josie 3/7/2015

written by Josie

im so scared of what i might do like i don’t wanna go to school anymore because i keep getting beat up and i don’t wanna leave my house i don’t know whats outside and I’m scared something will happen! i just wanna cut even when I’m happy i wanna cut i should be dead? am i worthless? i just wanna get better but i also just wanna die! is this normal? am i normal? i don’t think can do this for much longer…

3/7/2015 4 comments

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