Face it, friends want something. Whether it’s companionship, belonging, someone to talk to, someone to drive them home when they’re piss drunk, someone to borrow money from, someone to move furniture for free, or whatever, they want something. A successful friendship is based on a fair balance of giving & receiving these things. But some of us don’t want and don’t need any of those things. As a result we end up giving everything and receiving nothing. Friends serve no logical purpose. Oh but try going through life without friends and society labels you a freakshow, a misanthrope, a socially maladjusted head case. So every […]
After putting a gun to my head yesterday I decided to go see my psychiatrist today. Â I called the ombudsman in my area about his lack of ethical behavior earlier this year. Â After 4 months, the case was assigned a ‘resolved’ status without my knowledge. Â I MADE THE FUCKING COMPLAINT!!! Â How can it be resolved without me even being notified? Â The agency has lied to the ombudsman from day one and she told me that they told her the situation had been resolved. Â I asked her what the resolution was cause I sure wasn’t included in that decision. Â The agency told the ombuds that they […]
Why put someone in the pain of lienig to the,, & make them believe something that wasn’t true. I thought you cared.. Clearly I thought wrong. This is why I cannot trust, I get lied to & hurt soo many times.. Do you hear me? Are you happy of what you did to me? Hope she’s better. Funny thing is; Your best friend said “Dang, G fucked up.. our way prettier then her & much better.’
Why would you pretend to care for me? Act like you actually liked me.. Dang dude.. You fucked with me.. & It hurt.. Especially not knowing what I did so wrong for you to stop talking to me.. You put my number into your friends phone.. Why? To see how I’m doing? Fuck with you dude! Rog says you stopped talking to me because I’m ‘Different’ … How? I don’t even want to do this anymore.. I can’t stop thinking about you.. You really hurt me & I don’t know if I can except this one.. The pain in my heart is strong this […]
Aite Ive had this random sex encounter with 3 guys by the end of december , but got hsv 2..im gay and that pretty much ruins my sex life.. and they were all healthy, it was me i was shedding and didnt even know i had hsv on my lips! on the last guy.. i really liked.. & started texting him mid january. from that day we kinda started texting everyday. now its like less cause he’s on a trip and is coming back in like 2 weeks. since i thought he would be in town by mid jan i kinda started talking to him […]
when I go to ask for help I get too scared of being sent away and everyone’s judgement. what if they all think i’m crazy or insane or something,
My brother tries to talk to me when I’m crying and it just makes it worse and i just want to punch him in the face.
the man i looked up too, my grand father, passed. mt dad lost his job so now we have no money. my grades keep dropping, I’m cutting more and more.
I’m scared and helpless, I want help and a friend. I have tons of “friends” but none that are actually there for me. My […]
; I feel lost.. Confused.. Unsure of what I am doing.. Why do I get hooked on things that can only hurt me.. Why do I smoke? Why do I do it all? Is it to get rid of the pain? Why am I like this? Oh bj & a ride to get weed.. What have I became? It’s a disaster.. I feel like a whore? I had sex when I was 13? With a 16 year old? I feel soooo gross. Why would I do such a thing.. The high lasts forever & makes me feel amazing.. Am I hooked? Could this go farther? […]
I’m soooo fucking stupid.. Why did i do it? So i was talking to this guy& i thought he really liked me. He started to ignore me for 4 days. & so i was like wtfe imma go get high, So i had an older guy friend pick us up & take us tol go get some weed.. he told us all he didn’t have a girlfriend.. & i made out with him, he forced his hands down my pants & i tried to pull it out & we made out & crap.. but i was high so i was like okay? & today.. this […]
if you need somone to talk to, or someone to vent to, i might be able to help, so email me @ thursday_mourning@aol.com im her for anyone and everyone 🙂 be sure to put “suicide project” in the subject box & ill respond ASAP.
When to Say When?
I been thinking……. when is there ever a time in a person’s life that they should say fuck it & give up on life & end it?
Is there ever a time to say: I’ve tried but it’s now time to stop feeling lonely, being rejected, stop taking one steps forward and two step back in everything in life and just pull the trigger.
I think I’m just not built for life ups & downs. Seriously
when subjected to huge amounts of pain, nerves go numb, bodies go into shock and consciousness shuts down. Mental pain, on the other hand, never lets up. It piles on thicker, higher, heavier each day and there is no relief. Screw fire & brimstone. If I were to design hell for the worst criminals and worthless souls to be or tired with unspeakable agony, it would be exactly my life. Which begs the question: what did I ever do to deserve this?
Hey everybody, I’m new here…..kind of. Anyways I felt like I wanted to share my story, but I have no idea where to start or how to start. So I’m just going to ramble on and on until I feel like it should end.
I guess I was always suicidal. I’ve always thought of suicide as a little girl and its almost an obsession now. I remember trying to commit suicide when I was six or seven, but not strong enough to push the steak knife into the skin of my neck. Such a weak little girl I was. Anyways about two years ago is when […]
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]
I’ve made up my mind. I don’t know if my parents will see this. Anyone feel free to email my mom this;
kira5605@yahoo.com
Dear Mom,
I can’t do this anymore. I know it’s hard for you to take care of me while living with dad. He’s un grateful and cruel. He hits both of us. I hate seeing you hurt. He always tells me that his life would have been better if I wasn’t born. If it was just you and him, no one else. Because of that, I think it’s the only way to keep you from hurting. I love you dearly. I want you […]
Who am I? I was born November 22nd, 1997. My parents?.. Ha, no. I didn’t have any. They abandoned me in a apartment all the time so they could go buy drugs! Why? I don’t know. Both of them had been in and out of jail multiple times. One day, while they were off getting drugs, I was at the apartment and neighbors heard me crying. They called the police… The police knocked on the door. No answer. They kicked down the door. I was taken away. I remember being in a cop car starring out the windows while it moved. I had no idea […]
well my life sucks .. ive drinken ALOT of pills but it never seems to kill me not even do anything to me .. i have to much problems & surpisingly i am only 14 .. i have pressure at school at home everywere i ust want to die & get it over with .. how can i kill my self ?
Depression…It can come to anyone but that doesn’t mean it comes to everyone. It doesn’t just HAPPEN like that either. If you’re depressed, there’s a reason to it and it’s not something silly or stupid, it’s actually quite serious.
Right?
So that means all the people telling me that I’m looking for attention are wrong, and that something has happened within my lifespan to cause depression in my life. I’m not being an a**hole, attention-seeking or anything. I’m actually depressed.
But then there’s no cure to this. No-one to talk to around me, those whom I CAN talk to are far away, nad many people […]
there’s too sides to me; i love nature, long walks, sitting next to a creek, i like hiking & going to the snow, i love laughing and feeling completely alive, i like to feel the rush of things like bungee jumping and jumping out of an airplane, i absolutely love art, traveling is one of the main things i like to do, i like being places where nobody knows me, & i believe life is very beautiful,… but this darkness has taken over me and made me into a bitter, lonely person.
I guess we all have different reasons for being here. For me it keeps coming back to the same thing: I’m not convinced that life is a good thing.
All living things are born with some sort of survival instinct. But has anyone rationalized why we should want to live? I think it’s just some sort of selfish programming, like the desire to take whatever you want. In the case of taking things (stealing), we’ve learned to suppress that instinct. Mindless carnal instincts like rape & violence are mostly suppressed too. But still there’s that ridiculous “self preservation” thing that nobody ever questions.
Maybe I was born […]