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not doing so great,

by quietcheep 5/3/2016

written by quietcheep

i’ve been having a very difficult time lately. i have a lot of health issues both mental and physical and they’re finally catching up to me. it’s been very difficult holding on, but even more so now than before because my family is now explicitly honest about how they feel about my condition.

my health issues have gotten to the point where i can’t work. i can’t function on my own anymore. i am a burden. i’ve been in the gray area of suicide since the age of nine and i’ve only been open about it in the last two years. it’s gotten worse. everything has gotten worse […]

5/3/2016 1 comment

by MissDysphoria 5/3/2016

written by MissDysphoria

I’ve been lying to everyone about how good im doing in school and that ill be graduating in two weeks and have all these great plans for the future and that me and my bf are happy and i have jobs lined up and everything they expect to here.
But im not doing well in school at all. Im failing four classes so i wont be graduating. Im not going back to school and i have no jobs lined up, havent even looked into it. Ill be moving in a month but i have no house situation prepared. And i dont think me and […]

5/3/2016 4 comments

Born death and i will die again soon ….

by StillBirth 5/1/2016

written by StillBirth

i have no words now … i was thinking about that alot latlyyy but i had a little hope just alittle one to fight for … but now !!!!

i made my decision ill stop thinking about it and ill do it soon ill fix some things before i leave …. i have nothing to do here actually never had !!!!

5/1/2016 0 comment

i’m tired

by dizaster 5/1/2016

written by dizaster

i mean we all are tired, i’m not special.

i’m alone. lot’s of people are, i’m not special.

I’m angry

I want to trust again, to be able to open myself up.

one of my 40 “friends” on facebook noticed i left and it took 8 weeks for him to do so.

my housemate is a deadbeat and i always cover his part of the rent.

i havent spoken to my mom in at least a decade.

the only people that would miss me are those that just use me for my income anyway.

i’m a social nightmare, so i dont make friends. never speak first. never intrude….. its not that i don’t […]

5/1/2016 2 comments

a response to salts post “i tried to show you a way out”

by Procel 4/29/2016

written by Procel

this is more to do with the comments than the post itself, i tried to write a comment but it didnt seem to post, so ill just put it here, as you can see its long, perhaps theres a word limit on comments? either way after writing so much i would be irritated to just delete it

Wow, this one really blew up didnt it? Just a couple of pints id like to add after reading all the comments.
Firstly is the discussion over ways to help, @salt you know i agree with what you say regarding more serious members need more serious help instead of […]

4/29/2016 27 comments

huh

by secret me 4/24/2016

written by secret me

ive been working my ass off day and night, 7 days a week non stop. It has lead me to a place of isolation from my friends and family. So i get up today and go to this school thing for a project and I came home at 5pm- and at this time i hvent ate anything and was feeling sick from exhaustion . so im in the kitchen and theres nothing to eat. i ask my dad for 5 bucks to got get a sandwich or something and this is where i get confused.
-He tells me, why the fuck would i give you […]

4/24/2016 6 comments

Sick and Tired of living

by flatliner 4/22/2016

written by flatliner

i am so sick and tired of living this fucking life… I am just a waste of space and time in this IDIOTIC world… I am an introvert and i hate the all people who are hypocrites that live only their lives in such a way (self image, dressing, hairstyle, money and materials appearance) so that they can accepted and liked by other people. Yes i am a short and an unattractive person and so i don’t have any chance out there but let me tell you what, i DON’T GIVE A FUCK since i hate those guy more than i hate myself.
I fucking […]

4/22/2016 2 comments

WELL I GOT BIG FAT NO

by kupo95 4/22/2016

written by kupo95

so the other day I was thinking about leaving my husband but now I can’t ……WHY?????? BECAUSE MY MOTHERFUCKING PHONE BROKE…. so anyway for me to leave is gone no way to contact my family to get me a plain or get my own tickets no way of calling a cab or anything how why why…… wow so god works in weird ways but really break the only thing that gave me solace…really…..I hate my life really bad…. now if I do still leave I have two wait two weeks . and spend money I don’t have I literally fucked and it’s snowing it April […]

4/22/2016 5 comments

i don’t know what’s real,

by quietcheep 4/20/2016

written by quietcheep

i get deja vu so often i don’t know what’s real and it makes me panic. my head is all messed up and tied in knots and i can’t stop thinking about how this isn’t real, this is all fake somehow, i’m fake, and it makes me suicidal. i want to feel real again i haven’t felt really real in so long it makes me sick. i’m panicking right now and i don’t know what to do anymore just that i want to stop pretending to exist

4/20/2016 2 comments

How am I always wrong and crazy

by kupo95 4/19/2016

written by kupo95

I am wrong all the time and im stupid and crazy I want to die I cant take it no more . I am ridiculed for not having money but I havr no help..I have been in this motherfucking town for almost one month . my job as I see it get to the office and make money every body eles can go fuck them slefs. I dont need to put a cup of coffe for my father in law or be apart of this family I dont want to play scategory or Monopoly…. And fucking play house I was told I was gonna make […]

4/19/2016 0 comment

Over here its mom’s weekend

by MissDysphoria 4/17/2016

written by MissDysphoria

To remember I dont have a fucking mom. And i’m glad. And l dont care if l sound immature.

4/17/2016 2 comments

hi,

by quietcheep 4/16/2016

written by quietcheep

i’m new. to the site, at least, not to being suicidal. but i like writing and i was told once i should get more people to read it, so thought maybe this would be a good place to put this?

I breathe with the beating of my heart and lose it all so easily,
something of some significance slipping through my fingers.
Farewell, goodbye, good riddance, freedom and fear follow suit;
I’m gone, I’m gone, I’m gone.

it’s short but it’s here.

4/16/2016 4 comments

Simply no reason

by jjosephmm 4/12/2016

written by jjosephmm

So, I am being kicked out of my house at a bad point in time and honestly i do not see a very good future for me, and i guess ive given up, im about to be homeless and id rather kill myself than be homeless. Ive spent the past 2 hours looking up painless ways to doe, there arent really any which kinda sucks, i dont have a gun i might just get super high and cut my wrist up to my forearm. i hope i wont feel it too much, i wish i could just end it right now intantly, i would be […]

4/12/2016 14 comments

Just so I get my facts straight . …

by kupo95 4/11/2016

written by kupo95

So yesterday my husband told me that his mother is gonna pay for a vacation…greaaaaaat*sarcasm* something eles my mother inlaw will throw in my face. Do I care no I dont I’ll get vk,you’ll think you will have something to hold over me . when the young couple who lives with us said ….I wanna gi when dose her life began .

My mother in law has there nerve to say” let me set your’s facts straight ,your life starts when you have your own house your own income and children. ”

And she not paying for thr trip wich is a lie to make me feel […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

by Emptyface 4/11/2016

written by Emptyface

Never thought id feel so empty id split my flesh, just to feel again, just to distract from the fact that i feel dead inside; so much emptiness can only amount to hell or bliss; my desire for the afterlife, a darkness where i cant feel, wouldnt that be nice? Never thought id feel so numb i couldnt feel the pleasures in life, so dead i couldnt feel my fingertips. And pain was the closest thing, an extescy silver steel could bring. So bloody. So much fluid, expelled from my veins, passed the boarder from insanity, the bloody warmth giving back to me, drawing […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

I hate my life

by Deadboy 4/11/2016

written by Deadboy

Well it all started when i was about 7 my mom went to jail for lust and i started getting into pot at 12 but aroung that time i got caught shoplifting which put me through hell then a bne (breaking an entering) then it keeps getting worse. I have a scare on my back from when i was abused at the age of 5 but that bothers me no more last year i got knocked out from a choke hold by my dad then a couple days after that i got caught smoking pot on school grounds then i moved in with my sisters […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

Postmortem

by Emptyface 4/11/2016

written by Emptyface

Things have gotten better. They really have. Ive got a new job now, helping out an old friend, my depression has subsided and im ready to get off the meds now, and i barely hallucinate anymore. It used to be much worse. I wouldnt eat. I wouldnt sleep. Or i would sleep for days on end without water even. My heavy self medication with marajuana and alcohol has turned into lighter recreational use, and i feel like that previously impregnable barrier between myself and others has subsided substantially. I feel like a human being again. I feel successful even. But really, thats the problem. It […]

4/11/2016 1 comment

3 am thoughts.

by medusian 4/9/2016

written by medusian

I’m new here. Excuse my bad grammar skills.

also apologies for the extremely long first post.

I’ve been creeping a couple days now not as a member reading some of the posts and although sad, they made me feel home. There’s a couple things i want to get off my chest personally because i feel as though i cant go to anyone. my family is not the lovey dovey type, i didn’t grow up with mandatory family time, my parents and siblings were not involved in my personal life, And i’m not here to complain or whine, i did not grow up neglected but i just never […]

4/9/2016 4 comments

Happy Kat

by LostKat 4/9/2016

written by LostKat

Its a very rare time when i am utterly full of happiness, but today is one of those days. Thank God.

This year I can only pick out about a handful of happy days and I’m so glad today is one of them. Im going to see my best friends today and have fun.

I dont really have a specific reason for making this post, I guess for myself. Left as a reminder that not all my days are bad, and i will have more of them.

A message from Happy Kat to Sad Kat.

I love you Sad Kat, Love,

Happy Kat

4/9/2016 2 comments

Whats wrong with me?

by secret me 4/4/2016

written by secret me

I feel like shit. I went out on a date with a man 13 years older than me and all he wanted to do was touch me and kiss me. I didnt let him, as a matter of fact I walked away from him and went home. He treated me like an object. Anyway, I come home and my sister tells me “please dont get upset but our sister in law was flirting with your ex fiance”. I didnt say much i just brushed it off. but my ex fiance was my first love, and i have always loved him till this day and its […]

4/4/2016 2 comments

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