Fam pick me up from work instantly depressed hit me like a ton of bricks I was pretty much fine and okay all day and then all of a sudden in a bad mood .
* fart noise*
well I think that thanks to you guy my arts coming back I might try and attempt to do a comic the ark is dark a bit like the place I’m inn but yeah 
I’m so tired of everything. the quickie marriage to a needy husband (thank god we don’t have kids together), the mean baby daddy, the holier than thou ex-wife, the annoying step-teenager, my teenager that I love dearly, who is my only joy, that is trying to fail, maybe to go live with her much better off financially father, then he gets to be the bad guy, not her, and just life in general.
my super needy husband, is a fucking looser, then he needs praise for simple shit that any grown man should be doing a million times better/more effective than he’s doing it. won’t pay […]
List of things im bad at
Talking about my problems
Eating
Being a good daughter
Being a good sister
Being a good girlfriend
Being social
Living
Standing up for myself
Its not just me who thinks these things. Who knows for a fact that I was just a fuck up from the day I was born. My parents, my dear good at heart parents pawned me off on someone else. My siblings who I know loves me, I hurt. I affect them with my depression that seems to be the vain of my existence. I really suck at being a good girlfriend. I mean Im to insecure and fucked up to be a good […]
I can not anymore
to think everyone would be better off without me, all could live better, could do more things, I realized how much I never should have been alive I feel I am insignificant, I’m a nuisance, I am nothing
I’m bad at all
for my parents I am disappointed, I have bad grades, do not talk to my family, I do not talk to my sister, I have no future at all, I’m a bad person, I’m a bad friend, I’m a bad brother, I’m a bad boyfriend I am a bad student, I’m bad at all and simply and has caused […]
So I havent really been around here as much as perhaps I should be. For those who dont know me im an old timer upon this sight, put im my time at the bottom of every bottle and put my time in at the worst spirals of depression. but through the help i got here I got out of the worst of it and now im here to help out. unfortunately right now stuff in my life limit the time i can spend here and alot of people needing help may go unanswered, as ive seen by a recent post. while i cant be an […]
Hey, since lots of us is having a bad night, I wanted to recommend you all listen to “Beautiful Pain” by Eminem ft. Sia. I stumbled with this song last week, on a particularly bad day, and broke down and cried in the middle of the Mall, but it served me well. I know, it’s old news, but really, the song has some nice message. I find it.. encouraging. To make it through another day.
why do i feel so bad after talking to my boyfriend?
I don’t find life to be unbearably painful as much as I find it to be completely mentally exhausting. At least when I actually try. In order to accomplish much of anything I usually have to fight myself a lot. I’m always fighting either social phobia, or fear of change, or severe self-doubt, or hypersensitivity, or self-hatred. It’s like I’m dragging around a sixty-pound rock of depression and fear everywhere I go.
On my bad days, I often wonder how much longer I want to keep fighting myself. Another year? A few years? Ten years? And why should I keep fighting myself? Five or ten years ago I […]
I do not know what to do, what to think. I truly do believe that my husband does not want me around anymore even though he tries to make fighting arguments that he loves me and that he wants me to be here. I am having by far the worst time in my life and he can’t even be there how he used to be. He used to be so patient. Do entirely blame him for it though. He has gone through a lot with me in the last almost 4 years of being together, a year and a half of being married and 11 […]
I’ve made some bad choices. I have a kid that I love with the wrong guy. We have been in a nasty custody battle for five years. The custody battle really started after I tried to kill myself. My son was with his dad at the time, and that was enough to declare me unfit.
I think I am unfit. He is coming for a visit today, and all I want to do is sleep. I can physically feel that hard core depression, that I have known since I was 11 years old, trying to burst out of my abdomen. That’s where I feel it.
Honestly, I don’t drink much at all, and I haven’t had anything in years because it’s not really my favorite thing, but lately I feel like I want to have just one night of drunken misery/celebration/reveling.
Just one.
I’m in the middle of coming to terms with certain issues, certain people, and certain unsavory truths, so dammit, I would like to drink myself stupid for one night.
When I do this, I will post on SP throughout the evening so you can all see me at my weirdest. (Because what are friends for, right?)
In the interests of good manners, I will try to keep most of it contained […]
Ever since I could remember I have been bullied and made a social out cast not only at school but at home as well. My father is a bad man and he has since been put in jail. My older two brothers aren’t exactly model siblings, and my mum takes all her anger and frustration out on me, even though I’m not a defiant child.
So as far back as I can remember I have felt these depressing feelings and have suffered from many mental illnesses. My mother, whom does not believe in that kind of thing, has been emotionally and physicaly abusing me since I […]
Its seems everyone is having a bad time right now, I now I am, nutty is out (I really hope not for long…) I and everyone else is worried for him, I feel so low right now and yet taking my life just doesn’t seem like the thing to do.
So I will endure for nut and everyone else and for myself (not sure why¿) …but I really dont know what else to do anymore…
How is everyone by the way, I can probably assume not very well but I do want to hear from you.
I feel so much sadness I dont now if Im just feel bad for myslef and cowardice about my life that what my sister told me Or if just crazy liky what my mother law says I feel so worthless and useless.
I dont really feel..at least not the way I would expect myself to, especially after breaking up with my best friend. I feel calm like something bad is about to happen…and when I do feel its super annoying, cuz ill be happy with tons of energy and super outgoing, and then the next day i’ll be tired and sad and extremely antisocial…on repeat.
I’be technically been on this site for 2 or 3 years now just looking around, but this is really the first time I’ve ever made a post. I’ve seen how everyone here connects and empathizes with each other, and I guess now I’ve decided that finally posting and visiting the sight without private browsing on could be the best thing to help for right now. I’m in a bad spot; potentially the worst I’ve ever been in. To be honest I’m pretty sure I won’t be alive for much longer than a year if that, barring a miracle. And if I do die soon I […]
i’m hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hfghddghnbvdghgbxfgdhb hehe my name is in the word sushi see suishi <— yay SUIshi -3- I LIKE TO EAT CHEESEBURGERS AND COOKIES… COOKIES MAKE ME FEEL BETTER YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY FOR FOOD GGGHGTEDFGHNJFYJFHBNGFTJTFJTRJYGFHDNDGNDG (I’m going to be so regretting this in the morning like a bad hangover XD) DON’T STOP ME NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW I’M HAVING SUCH A GOOD TIME I’M HAVING A BALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DON’T STOP ME NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW IF YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU WANNA HAVE A GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD TIME JUST GIVE MERHHHHHHH A CALLLLLLLLLLLLLL…. wait no don’t call me I didn’t give you my number O-O if you do call… HOW DID YOU GET MY NUMBER?!?!?!?!? O-O OMG I’M NOT GOING […]
Today I burned my arm over the boiling kettles steam it hurt and still stings but I like it now its something to occupy my mind and its not like a normal pastime or anything and now I feel like I wanna start harming again to feel the pain and take my mind somewhere else for a while this may be good or bad not too sure yet.
I’ve been reading this site for a few weeks but this is my first post. In a lot of ways, I wish I could go back to when I was little, when I spent most of my time alone in my room reading or solving number puzzles or making up stories. Before there was any pressure to socialize or compromise endlessly or impress others in general.
I spent most of my childhood blocking out my emotions. Criticism and rejection have always been very, very painful. It often feels like I’m walking around in a shooting video game except everyone else has armor or shields and I don’t. […]