Why do people do it… Why like honestly get to know someone before the assume and make an ass of of themselves I know people probably think I’m paranoid (love that song BTW) but this morning was different like literally 20 mins ago I was at le supermarket (lala de dem doo) grabbed all my groceries then went straight to le checkout harmless right? What could go wrong here? Bam!! (Shitstorm tbh shit went down people) ….. A “nice” elder lady was in front of me (or so I thought see don’t judge a book by its cover (SPOILER ALERT:she was a total *****) see […]
I am so disappointed in myself… last week I finally seemed to get a grip on my Psyche but nope.
This morning the voices and the doubts and the fear crashed back into my consious like a Bulldozer with airhorns.
The laughter, taunting and insults returned blarring in my head… it is so loud. I can’t eat or drink, I get sick from it.
Thanks to this I tried on a large plastic bag to see if it was suitable and to remove any anxiety once I hopefully get the strenght to fucking end this shit.
Talking with friends pushes them away each time. Shit, I lost a promising […]
So it’s holy week and i’m going home to my hometown and leaving the city for awhile. Ive been really difficult lately, ive been acting mad all the time ad im just so full of spite, i dont like it. i dont like being mean. but im just so mad. i failed school, it was supposed to be my last term but i fucked it up (after dropping out from a nice school and being in college for a total of 6 years and now my younger sister has graduated ahed of me and already has a nice job and a nice car) so my […]
can’t handle this bipolar struggle and loneliness. Been looking for the easiest, most effective, quick, and most painless way out. Found pathologies in autopsy reports w/bag w/helium. Bag w/******** more promising but access is tougher. Any other suggesstions? I cant handle the pain.
My plan is kinda going to shit was meant to get more meds today and they didn’t put what I wanted in the bag maybe it was a mistake or maybe there on to my plan but it has pissed me off tho I feel much better knowing I have a method in place and when iv had enough I could try again but they are fucking with my plan here
Hi, I used to post here as Second_Winter before I got locked out for incorrect password stuff. I constantly read this site and relate to so many of you. I don’t post often, mostly out of apathy from my own situation and because I was locked out for so long.
My situation has gotten dire. I am in so much debt that I feel like I’m drowning. I recently returned from working a nonprofit job with students in another state and it was great, but my contract ended and now I’m back home. All of the reminders of my past are here, so much that I […]
So for the longest time, I have had this paranoia that I was being poisoned by my folks.. every time I would eat something they made I would immediately start feeling sick, my throat started burning, my chest and stomach started hurting and I got really bad headaches later on. I’ve been trying to avoid there food for a while but I had to yesterday morning, they were watching. The same thing happened. I couldn’t take it anymore, immediately I started searching around for shit I can be poisoned with. I then found this on the bottom of one of my families bag. is this […]
Here I am sitting on my bed casually browsing the net whilst also watching netflix and debating whether I should study or not. I have an upcoming test this Thursday but I can’t seem to focus at all, heck I haven’t even got my books out of my bag yet for the past 7 hrs or so and it’s already 11:55 PM right now. *Sigh*
She perches on her cream-colored windowsill as a robin would upon a branch. Taking a look outside of herself, she sees all that is good around her. Look at the sky, what with its baby-blue face freckled with wisps of cloud cover. Hear the gentle crunch of dying leaves under the tender feet of newly birthed fawns, or the gentle shushing of feathered-wings taking flight. Smell the earth- the rich tone of moist soil mixed with the crispness of mountain air takes away her breath. Feel the cool breeze run his fingers over her skin, over her cheeks and lips and arms, as lovers would.
My friend of 35 years and boyfriend for 5 years killed himself yesterday. A shot of heroin in the arm took his final breath.
Others view it as an overdose because he was cheerful that we were spending the holidays together.
The reality: I found a spoon containing heroine, a Qtip from my bathroom, broken pen from my kitchen, an empty bag of syringes all stuffed a grocery bag with a time dated receipt in a local grocery bag pinpointing when he picked up using again. He just finished a year of rehab and I stood strong beside him.
I photographed the drugs and other items and emailed […]
Ok loves, this article contains many swear words, so if you don’t like swear words, please stay away from this lol. This article is about letting go of the little things in life that drag us down: our insecurities, bullies, dropping your bag of groceries in the middle of the road, etc. http://markmanson.net/not-giving-a-fuck
I really want to die.. I want a painless and quick way.. I’ve been doing research and I like the ******** gas and the bag thing. But i don’t know what supplies I would need and how to get ******** gas. Someone please help me!!
Just curious
I recently started working temporarily at this store where they set “goals” for each employee as to how many garment bags they sell and how many new customers they can get signed up for the store’s rewards program. It’s all a load of crap if you ask me.
These don’t even deserve to be called “goals” because 1. I could name about 1000 things that are more worthwhile, 2. you get no kind of reward if you actually reach this goal, and 3. it’s entirely up to the customer, not you.
The best you can do is ask if they want the bag, ask if they want to […]
there I was on the beach, it was around 5:30 AM, I had been drinking, reflecting on my life and experiences, getting ready to do the deed (my shotgun was hidden in a tennis racket bag) when all of a sudden this man come’s walking on by (looked to be in his mid-thirties). I was very surprised because It was still pretty dark outside and pretty dead out with no people but we both make eye contact and say ‘Hey’. I think it’s going to end there but it doesn’t, he asks me what I’m doing all alone on the beach, and I replied with […]
I am not leaving my apartment until October….or in a body bag, whichever comes first.
pettiness is starting to upset me more. like i know suffering isn’t a fucking competition or whatever, but it’s one of those things where its like oh your sister didn’t get you the bag you wanted for your birthday? yeah, well my sister fucking kicked me in the stomach so god damn hard i had to lay on the floor for 30 minutes and keep in my fucking pain and all i got from my god damn mother was a ‘im sorry. you’re doing a great job’ as if im doing a great job being my sister’s fucking punching bag. or like when girls complain […]
I just want to pack a bag and walk. I want to see the world.
I don’t want to die without seeing it all.
I might just do that.
If not today, the last day something ‘made your day’?
What was it?
(a positive post from me, for once…)
I had my day made today, just now, and it wasn’t even ‘today’ because today’s already over, whatever…but…it was finding a ‘pink lemonade’ flavoured jolly-rancher-lollipop in the cheap bag of valentines candy I got for half off a couple days ago…fuckin best flavor ever!
I will legit mail these fuckin things out if they’d make anyone else’s day, so you’d better say if you want one! lol
I have only a plastic bag and a razor blade I was planning to wait till I’m 18 and get a shotgun would you put the gun in your mouth?
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