My parents don’t want me. I hear them talk about how i was a mistake. They talk about it when they think i am sleeping. But im not. I hear them talk about it. After a while, i just decided to distance myself away from them. I go to school and i don’t want to leave. I come home and stay in my room. I am not wanted here. I think to my self every day. I think that one day, i will have the balls to either run away or just commit suicide. I haven’t decided yet. Im still debating. I have a lot […]
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I wrote this earlier…its just an opinion and please excuse the foul language :)
by waste2304
written by waste2304
This is a depressing world we live in….a very depressing world one I cant bare to live in one I wont bare to live in…but im a bad person and bad people belong in this hell…I belong in this hell….I hurt everybody with my words…my touch….my everything wonder if anyone else realizes that they already live in hell hell cant get much worse then planet earth…I hate myself people hate me but who gives a fuck right……..who…really….gives….a….fuck!!!!!!!!!!!….the world is filled with disappointments im just another one of them ill live………..ill die……….but I swear to my lord and savior I wont multiple….why bring something in this […]
When i read suicide stories online. I allways read reactions like, don’t worry, one day everything will get better. It will all be allright. You might feel sad at the moment but your future will get brighter.
Well, stop lying, it’s not going to happen. I take my pills daily, pills to reduce my depression but also pills to reduce my pain. My nerves are damaged and i have chronical pain.
It’s going on for 2 years now, and no. It won’t get better, it won’t restore, i’ve lost all hope.
I shouldn’t even be drinking with my medication, but i do. I drink even more […]
And again the cycle is repeated. The nights are the worst. That’s when the thoughts are prevalent. And what is it that stops me? It’s the idea of my body. No one deserves to find a loved one dead,especially if it’s at his own hand. Children need to live happy lives,not be scarred and tortured with gruesome images. No one deserves this pain. I want my life to be extinguished. The pain doesn’t matter because in the end I will succeed. The nights get colder and colder. My sheets aren’t enough. There is no warmth in my heart,just a void that never seems to end. […]
In the shuffling madness
Of the locomotive breath
Runs the all-time loser
Headlong to his death
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNCT6pA5I9A
He feels the piston scraping
Steam breaking on his brow
Old Charlie stole the handle and
The train it won’t stop going
No it don’t slow down
He hears the silence howling
Catches angels as they fall
And the all-time winner
Has got him by the balls..
Hm, this is my first time so please bare with me.
I am a young woman just turning 18. I have my group of friends. Active with school. Well liked overall. I only have all this because I thought that if I didn’t I would be tortured by the same kids that I try have love me. I live in a small town so everyone thinks they know all about me.
But in all honestly no one knows how fucked up I am.
I claim to stay positive,be strong,be your own person. The sad part is I don’t all the follow that. I’m a hypocrite. Last year one of my […]
I dont even know why Im writing this. Im pretty sure it wont help but I have to try something… I am suicidal but you know the worst part.. I dont even have the balls to commit suicide.. I guess I should explain myself but i really dont know how to structure this.. So im just going to ramble.
I’m 23 years old and I’m from India. Right from my childhood I’ve had a sense of fear in me that never leaves me. Guess its all cause of my father. He used to beat my mother and sister and I used to cower in fear, just […]
Thought I had something important to say. I lost my job a few months ago. Redundancy. Which should be shit, but I hated it anyway, and everyone I worked for, and redundancy is the best way to leave a job.
Anyway, I wanted to type something meaningful, but the only phrase going through my head is “fuck it” so I don’t anticipate anyone getting many nuggets of wisdom out of this post.
I dreamed about putting a gun in my mouth last night. The barrel tasted of bourbon. Wish it were real. Not out of any need for attention or anything, I’m just tired. I think I’ve […]
Im commiting suicide or attempting again.. when i was 14 i tryed with pills.. but got my stomatch pumped b4 i could die.. damn.. i tryed again last year but dont really have the balls to hang.. but im almost completed all my business that i had to b4 i can attempt again… im thinking october.. middle month.. damn.. if only my gun wasnt stolen then i would have died last year.. anyway im not scared of death.. i accually look forward to it.. but this i am sure of is my last year.. people in this fucking work are psycho!!
well here we go, the story of the pretty little rich girl is being spoken about.
Hey, my names Shauna if you knew me you’d know that I’m a very outspoken, confident person, nuh huh you don’t really KNOW me then. where do i begin?
My ‘father’ was an alcoholic, drug and woman abusing piece of scum, he numerously abused my mother and would’ve abused me if i wasn’t for my mothers courage to leave him. Thank god she did otherwise i wouldn’t know where I’d be right now. Nether the less i started primary school, i was the fat gingery blonde girl with glasses who everyone […]
I’ve been trying get the balls to commit suicide but there are so many things I am scared of before, during and after death.
For example:
-the pain
-grief of parents and family
-will it work?
-where i will go after?
My problems: Â (I don’t know why I’m telling you this) what can i say? I’m an attention-seeking fuckface.
-I’m fat and no muscle, only tall.
-bad childhood- divorce, no game with women, abused.
-Hatred towards women and have never had a real connection with a woman(hate mother, HATE)
-I’m broke, 18 years old but dad has no job and mom is a ***** about her money(she’s filthy rich)
-Overall, just tired of people telling me […]
My name is Luke, and I want to share my suicide experience with you, for any chance of reading and really making you think about the decisions you are about to make.
Before I begin, remember that I do not know you, and it is your choice and yours only to take your life. It is a natural feeling to feel like this, and don’t let people tell you otherwise…they’re either in a shock state or they’ve missed a dose of their anxiety pills.
Anyways, now to start…
I had just started senior year, I was 17, had the girl of my dreams, was playing in a band, […]
I’ve lost.
For months I’ve been playing russian roulette with my best friend. When wouldn’t she be there when I would need her.. Well, now. I will most likely fail but I will try to take my life tonight. Don’t stop me I want this and I probably don’t have the balls to do it anyway xs Cus I’m weak as always xs
(I’ve been working on this for quite some time)
There’s nothing quite like that feeling of rolling up one of your dreams like an old news paper, and placing it in that ubiquitous furnace in your mind. The place you send thoughts to get rid of them. Like an unpleasant situation, or a traumatic experience, what was once your dream is now your nightmare, and you suppress your thought, realizing it’s beyond you, accepting that your dream…will remain just that. A pigment of the picture of the figment of the imagination. As thin and immaterial as ether. Putting to rest your airy desire for love […]
I’m lost in a dark room in my own head.
I’m in pain and agony from all the thoughts that circulate.
The frightening answer of suicide and leaving.
I feel weak because I can’t accomplish it. I don’t slice deep enough.
I don’t take enough pills and I don’t use a thick enough rope.
I consider myself a coward. Because I cannot finish what I started in the middle of the year.
I’m alone, I’m scared I’m afraid. I’m worried and I’m in pain.
Each breath I take is another mistake. I shouldn’t be breathing this air.
Am I selfish for wanting it all to […]
I started cutting again. My friends didn’t think I had the balls (pun intended since I’m a girl) well surprise mother fuckers. And I couldn’t get the smile off my face since I saw the blood. And razor, its been too long my old friend.
I sit here eating .. like a pig. Ive already eaten two burriotos, chow mein and now icecream.. and yet im still hungery. I’ve tried to puke up my food but i never have the balls. And i’ve tried to go with out eating but all it does when i finally eat is make me look like a bigger big then i already am. Im 14 and wieght 125pounds and i hate it. Everyone says its fine. That thats a normal weight.. but when u look at the other girls AT SCHOOl at their all 105 and TALLER then you .. you know your fat. […]
How many of you have been told that you help a lot in someone’s life?
What about being told that your useless through a post but that person doesn’t hae the balls to tell you strait up?
I am so fed up with feelin useless and like I don’t matter and I’m tired of people lying and being all like oh you matter so much and they just don’t show it…..
I am fed up with feeling like they could all give a shit less….
I wanna play R&R but I wanna lose this time…….
New on this site, And it really helps to talk with people who feel the same
by Atlanta
written by Atlanta
I have the balls to do what i need to, i just dont have the things i will leave behind prepared yet but really, the way im feeling waking up everyday just kills me, so i find strenth to keep going until i take care of business.
The poor man is hated even by his own neighbor,
But the rich has many friends.
He who despises his neighbor sins;
But he who has mercy on the poor, happy is he.
Life’s Pain
Two divorces and child custody.
To do the right thing will require personal pain.
I can’t pay I can’t pay. I am falling behind in my payments to the world and the world is getting pissed.
I try to keep up but something always throws a wrench into things so I can’t keep up.
2 steps forward 2 steps back
God I want to quit, God I want to die.
Jesus protect me from the world I cannot continue. […]
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