A simple question from a simple childrens movie.. “who are you” asked the caterpillar… “Why, I am Alice!” the small girl says.. but all I can hear is the caterpillar saying “Who Are You?”. and i have no idea who i am.. well duh im only 16.. but who am i? Where am i going? whats gonna happen to me? I know parts of who i am.. my best friend in the whole world has helped me realize who i want and who i  should be.. but she also has made me realize the type of person i really am. She relates to my problems, she is […]
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The love of my life lives in Kansas….I live in North Carolina. We have been off and on for almost a year now. We got back together about 2 months ago then he broke up with me. I fell back into cutting and pills. He swore he didn’t like anyone else, it was just the distance. He asked out my best friend 2 days after he told me that. I want to fucking hate him so much….but I can’t. He doesn’t know I know. I promised him I wouldn’t cut or get high…..yet my arm is filled with new scars and my pill bottles are […]
My parents … (if you must call them that) are absolutely the worse. They’re the reason why I will never trust anyone, they’re the reason why I think everyone is out to get me, they’re the reason why I hate myself. They act as if I don’t exist. They ignore me on a daily basis. They tell everyone that I was a mistake, that i’m their constant reminder of failure. I try to pretend that everything they say is the opposite. But it never really works out. The man I am forced to call my dad, is constantly making me regret living. He’s the reason why […]
Im 51 and tired of life. My life hasn’t been terribly traumatic although there have been a few things. It hasn’t been averagely successful either. Im shy, have no friends, not really interested in any b/c they’re rarely fulfilling or interesting to me or am I interesting to them. I’ve enjoyed things in life and those things have all gotten very old and tired. I’ve tried many new things along the way…
I am married to my best friend for 25 years and it is the same old boring tired situation. I have a child with disabilities I have given my all to for many years and im […]
I’ve kept this facade of being happy in school for so long, so when I was telling my friend about this (she’s kind of my best friend), she asked me is this how I really am?
Like happy( that’s how I come across in school) and can make people laugh because of my randomness.
But I told her at home I’m not happy because everything is tense and well… NOT happy…
I wish I could tell her EVERYTHING…but I literally CAN’T, like I get this cold felling that spreads from my finger tips everywhere. And I can’t always rely on people to listen to […]
My best friend saw that I was upset. She asked if I was okay as she was walking out of the room to go and sleep.
I told her I was okay, then she asked a few more times, to make sure. So I then told her that I was not okay, and she did nothing about it. She just looked confused and obviously had no idea what to do. So she just said good night and went to sleep.
Isn’t she the best?
-A.C
“You can always talk to me. I will always be here to listen.”
Yeah right! I can’t talk to anyone around here. I tried to talk to my best friend and all I said basically went in one ear and out the other. She has the attention span of a fly. Anyone else I try to talk to, it always somehow becomes about them. Can’t it just be me for one fucking minute? Can we just talk about me and my problems without you blowing me off? I sound conceited but I really am not. I am just tired of being the listener and talking to […]
everythings supposed to be perfect. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever but… i still want to cut and puke. i cant eat normal even though he begs me to. im still depressed. i still want to die. i still feel fucking empty like i dont exist…. WHY? this was supposed to fix everything having my best friend in the whole universe as my boyfriend but somethings wrong. i just wanna starve, cut and die but he wont let me.
i dont know how much longer i can last
Fifteen days ago was the last time I cut.
Fifteen days ago was when I almost committed suicide.
Thirty days or so ago was when I told my two best friends I cut. Well I didn’t exactly tell them, they already thought I did because they saw my wrist. But one day in gym class, one of my best friends made a reference to another one of our friends who cuts and I added, “So do I.” She, of course, freaked out and repeatedly asked me why I did it and all the other normal questions someone who doesn’t understand would ask. For some reason though, I couldn’t […]
i’ve never been a fan of halloween, but this year i cancelled plans with my best friend to drink 1.5 litres of wine, right out of the bottle, in my pajamas, in bed, playing with my box cutter, keeping quiet so my roommates don’t know i’m home.
i just can’t compete in this world.. everyone makes living and smiling look so easy but it just isn’t for me.
Well, this is my first post on here, so might as well tell you why I’m here.
I had the perfect life, weren’t many people in it but those I had were the best. I depended mostly on my best friend and boyfriend. I was doing great with studying. I didn’t speak to my parents much but when I did they were friendly and supportive.
I had been with my boyfriend for 9 months, but it felt like forever, which isn’t a bad thing. We rarely argued and when we did we were quick to forgive each other. We often talked about the future and I convinced […]
I used to self-harm..
It wasn’t serious.. It only used to be scars.. Only once it bled, and when it did, it didn’t bleed that much.
I started this year.. At the beginning of this year.. When I was 12. Now, I’m 13.
I don’t know what got to me but I broke.. I was depressed and no one knew about it.. My past was No one was there. I did have friends, but none of them knew about what I did to myself. I was never a talker. So none of them really knew.. Which was good. No one would really know me.. I tried to spill […]
My name is Nick mills. I am 18 going on 19 in march. For my whole life the only person who has cared about me is my father. My mother doesnt care, my siblings resent me, for no real reason, other than that i just don’t belong or have ruined their lives somehow by being birthed into this god forsaken world. Constitantly seeking approval, because no one has ever approved of anything i have done. I am currently on my 5th year of high school, alternative ed starting at the end of last year at Lincoln High School owosso michigan, (track me down and murder […]
About a month ago, I decided to drink with some friends. I ended up drinking more than I thought and the next thing I knew, I was at a park. I didn’t know how I got there or who was with me at the time, I was just out of it. I was scared. Confused. I had no clue what happened. While I was there, I was in and out of knowing my surroundings and what was happening. I remember my best friend right by me helping me out and trying to figure out what to do. I remember trying to call someone but ending […]
I have only ever wanted one thing. It’s the only thing that I will never have.
In grade school, I was maybe seven years old, my teacher asked us to draw what we wanted to be when we grew up. I drew myself with a bunch of babies and kids running around and wrote “stay at home mom.” Now, I’d say my goals have changed considerably, I’d rather work than stay home, but I still have dreams about little green-eyed babies.
My freshman year of college I found out that I’ll never get those babies. I also found out that I will never be in love, I’ll […]
I was a sad little girl. Â 35 years later, I’m a sad little girl who’s been on just about every medication possible. Â They all stop working after a few years.
I’ve never really had a relationship. Â I’m not sure what’s so unappealing. Â Maybe my sadness is more obvious than I think. Â Men don’t even pay attention to me. Â They never have. Â Having cute bubbly friends doesn’t help. Â My mother has nagged me about my weight since high school when I started gaining weight from the antidepressants.
I have a job and an education. Â I live in a rented 2 bedroom house that is much too big […]
I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve never been good at opening up to people, never really had any close friends who I can actually trust to tell this to. My parents, pshh I’d have more luck venting to my dog. So excuse me if I seem nervous.
I’m turning 24 in 4 days. A lot has happened to me in these 23 years of life. Not a lot of them good. And the worst things have happened within the last year.
I wish I was a kid again. Being a kid is so damn easy. You have not a single care in the world, other […]
I have no friends at school and everyone looks at me like I’m a freak every day. There is a small group of people I normally hang out with, but they just see me as someone who hangs out with them because nobody wants to be friends with the person. Every romantic relationship I’ve ever had ended with every boyfriend either taking advantage of me, cheating on me, or pretending they loved me. I feel like an ugly person and I wanna die already. Nobody would care, not even my own family would care. They hate me so much, and the only person who (sometimes) cares […]
I have another problem ….. The girl i love… I have no idea what to thing she´s like pretending a friendship but just a second latter she says like she really likes me … Like one day all students of our school was in cinema and she was going with her best friend something about 20 meters behind me and when we arrived in the cinema she ran to me and wanted to sit down right next to me but in the last second my shoolmate did that and she sad “thats a pity”(in slovak and i dont know a better words to say that […]
Hello to whoever is reading this. My name is Brooke and I am 19 years old. This is my very first blog in my life, not quite sure what I am doing. I wanted to start just because I am going through a rough time right now in my life and I want people to hear my story.
I want to talk to everyone about suicide. Suicide is the third leading cause of death between 15-24 year olds. Nearly 30,000 Americans take their own lives every year. An average of one person dies by suicide every 16.2 minutes. Crazy right? What causes people do do […]