i know this is suicide help but im caught on running away;
my boyfriend that i love so much and been with for the longest through THE MOST (me cheating, arguing daily, thinking im pregnant, my bulimia & anorexia, self inflicting, and self esteem) may be going to jail because of my mom; we may argue a lot but in the end were more in love than anything you could imagine; i was raped by my moms ex boyfriend and touched by her 2nd ex husband; all of this is coming out as once; and its sooo much pressure and i dont want my boyfriend […]
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Okay…This has been going on for a while now..My best friend has issues, I can tell but she wont let me in to help her, she knows all about my problems and is always there when I need her but now I wish she would let me in so I can help her. Whenever I ask her if she’s okay she says ‘yea’ but I know she’s lying to me, I really don’t understand…She knows I’ve went through similar stuff to her. And when I ask her again if she’s okay she turns away and walks off… I feel like she’s pushing me away for […]
Everyone always assumes my life is so perfect. No one really know how it is, not even my best friend. Everyone always tells me how smart I am and how they like how cheerful I am and how perfect my life must be and how great my family is, its true I have a good family, not perfect at all, but good. Why would anyone want to kill them self when they have such a good life. What these people don’t see is that its not like that, I’m not smart, I’m not happy and cheerful, I’m not pleased with myself at all. Its all […]
I hate this. I hate it all. Everything about life. And I just want to die.
I’m tired of being used. I’m tired of putting all my effort and heart into something and never having it work out my way. Not once. This life is crap. There’s no reason to live if all I’m going to experience is misery.
But I promised my best friend I would stay. Until at least the end of the year. And I don’t want to break that promise. She was so happy when I told her. So overjoyed. She hadn’t been honest with me about how upset she was over my […]
So I haven’t writen in a while.. mom n dad got a devorcie and my boy friend left me for my best friend. I feel so unwanted and just wana die. Bleh
Dear Love,
This is the last time you screw me over. Because of you, this time I found my boyfriend having sex with my best friend. I did absolutely nothing to deserve that. I was faithful, kind, patient, and loving to him through it all. I would have never hurt him like he hurt me. 6 years gone to waste. This goes for the rest of the guys and “friends” who screwed me over. My heart aches so badly and is through getting stabbed over and over again. It hurts… so much… I just want it to stop… But it won’t… I hope you’re all happy. I have been broken […]
I am a moron. A complete fucking idiot. Why? For actually trusting someone. And not once, but twice!! Maybe that’s the power of a cute face, it makes you do some pretty stupid shit.
My first date (freshman year in high school) was the result of a dogfight. For those of you who don’t know what a dogfight is, it is a bet between a group of people to bring the ugliest date to whatever the occasion may be. Long story short, beautiful red-headed senior asks my “gorgeous” mug to prom; like a ditz, I accepted (should have known, a girl with looks like mine isn’t […]
Here I find myself again, with tears streaming and a heart that aches. I have no idea what to do. I feel lost in a world that is passing me by, crippled by the fears of the unknown that consume me. So many paths lay before me and I can’t even take the first step, the pain inside crippling. Betrayal, anger, hurt, hate, love, loss; all consuming thoughts.   I don’t want to be here.  I feel tired and broken and the task of putting the pieces back together is impossible; even if I could, I would never be the same. My life can be seen […]
I’m new to the site (obviously) Been lurking around here for quite a while though. I don’t know why, Guess knowing I’m not the only one feeling fucking miserable is comforting for me.
I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can really remember. I guess the only reason why I haven’t killed myself already is that I don’t know how my family would react. Don’t really want them to feel bad… Then again, They might be glad I’m gone. I don’t really care anymore honestly. They don’t pay any attention to me anymore…
I plan on killing myself tomorrow…But looking back, I’ve said that so many […]
So my best friend lives in Cali where I used to live and it started to feel like we weren’t as close as best friends should be. But tonight I finally got the guts to tell her how I really feel and my addiction of cutting. She gave advice and told me things I should try. We had a really good talk and I feel kind of less lonely that I have someone to trust in fully with nothing to hide.
Hi. My life story? I’m fourteen years old. My parents are divorcing, and I know it’s because of me, I was their mistake. My dad wanted kids at first, but my mom didn’t, now neither of them really want me. I have friends, and I seem like a normal crazy teenager. But hey, a smile can’t hide everything. My uncle committed suicide. I’ve thought about it many times. The only thing holding is my best friend, her brother died a few years ago. She has thoughts of suicide too. My words have always stopped her, I just wish that I could believe them myself. I’m […]
This whole thing is just so confusing and depressing. Last month I spent 3 weeks in a psych ward. I was brought in handcuffs in an ambulance having swallowed 59 pills and downed a bottle of vodka. The doctors call it an episode. I cut my long hair to above my ears too before the police came. I guess I should fill you in: I had this episode around 2am one night near the end of Feburary. On top of the booze and pills, I cut my hair and was kicking things and throwing things at walls, screaming and making rediculous amounts of noise. I’m in […]
I’ve been waiting to die a horrific death ever since I was six. I would pray that during thunderstorms, I would be struck by lightning and go into a c0ma. I knew that my family was to poor to keep me in the coma and they would just let me die. It has never happened but I am very jealous of the people who get hit and survive. What a waste of a lightning strike. Every time I stepped into a car, I hoped a drunk driver would swerve directly into my side of the car leaving everyone unharmed but me. That’s why I refuse to wear a seat-belt, […]
Dear Josh,
I miss you. I cant believe we’ve gone this long without talking and you live around the corner from me and we both go to the same college. Why did things have to end up so badly? We were supposed to grow up and go to college together and live together remember? You were my best friend for three years when you lived across the street from me. You couldnt say Rain without Josh and you couldnt say Josh without Rain. Always came to my boxing matches..even watched me spar. Went to highschool together. You were even my first kiss… You told me […]
Hold back your teardrops
Don’t cry on me
I can’t be so numb with you here
My emotions rise up insensibly
Understand that I’m gone
I’m dead but my heart still beats
And my lungs still breath
Understand that Death has won
Don’t care for me
I can’t be saved
Don’t ruin yourself over me
You can’t reach me beyond this grave
I hate to see you suffer
The one person I would live for
But it’s too late
If only you’d come four years earlier
Then we could have shown the world
We could have beat the odds
We would have owned the world
They would have been […]
I wonder what to do now seeing as how my mind isn’t clear there will always be that edge to want to hurt cut burn or die. No matter what I’ve been through this off and on uhm well something today caught in my mind I don’t know felt like sharing it, when I was little my mom left me only to be raised by my father I watched him suffer so he died when I was younger my dad was like my best friend so that loss killed me and started this horrible addiction of cutting than I had to leave everyone which […]
This was posted on Tumblr but I felt like it was worth sharing on here:
You’re sitting at your desk, and you know it’s time to go. You’ve said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know, for sure, is real. You’re tired… you’re just so very tired. You’re parents pissed you off, like school wasn’t bad enough today. You go to get the rope, or the knife, or the gun or whatever you choose to use because you’re that desperate. You’re ready. You think of it as some game… the first one dead is the one who wins. No ones home, […]
Sorry, everyone, but tonight you are going to read what my best friend so aptly describes as “The inessential ramblings of a disconsolate teenager”. I write on many subjects, love being one of them. This is meant to be a song, but I can’t write music, so it’s just lyrics. I wrote this a few weeks ago. For all of those heartbroken tonight, I feel your pain. As always, FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED (as are suggestions for a title).
I used to try
To separate reality from the lie
To keep my dreams distant
Especially while you were present
Because my mind has a mind of its own
It has a […]
Not really sure how to start this post or how to talk about this, i guess the comfort is in that nobody knows me.  I’m at a dead end , im only the good person i think i am.  I have so much hate in me im almost misanthropic , but i love company , but at the same time i hate it.  My life has been ok , ive traveled places i have people in my life, my sister and mother and some friends.  But i have come to the stage where i just don’t want to deal with living anymore,  i have suffered from being empty for a long time , the doctors […]
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adventuregirl – I am suicidal. Â I’ve already attempted before, with 96 sleeping pills. Â Unless something changes soon, another attempt (probably successful) is imminent. Â I’m 19 by the way. Â Me and her were not in romantic relationship, although I did want one with her. Â But I was okay just having her as a best friend. Â I left the story off at January 3rd, 2011….as you can see I still have all of 2011 and some of 2012 to explain. Â So everyone is missing a lot of information, and it’s no one’s fault but my own for not typing it up yet. Â The fact that I’ll […]