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Writing helps me release somethings..

by Dusty96 8/12/2015

written by Dusty96

I’m running because I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel

But when I reach the end of the tunnel it’s just another puzzle.

And that’s when I understand there’s only one way to end this struggle.

And the pain and the sorrows I can no longer juggle.

And now my body’s empty and lifeless I can no longer move a muscle.

And a 6 foot hole for me they are digging with a shovel.

And people are wondering why me I always met life with a chuckle.

Will I miss some people in this life, yeah maybe a couple.

8/12/2015 1 comment

good bye

by praj 8/12/2015

written by praj

Thank you guys to support me.. But i couldn’t help myself and i am ending with all hopes with my life..

Just need some courage. I am shivering with sweat on whole body. The cutter in hand falling down. I wish i will get successful on the way of hell or heaven. I wish i would have live more with my love. I really wish. Please god make me die in his arms.

8/12/2015 8 comments

Any tips?

by Rotted_Flesh 8/12/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

On how to conquer alcohol addiction. I usually drink about 8 ounces of hard liquor and about four 8% beers. When I don’t drink my body and my heart starts to feel weird and I don’t want to go through withdrawals as it is one the only ones that can be fatal. Someone please give me some help on how I can wean myself away from this liquid devil. I’ve been drinking for about 10 years. Off and and On super heavy but as of late really heavy.

8/12/2015 7 comments

Feeling alone

by megan0550 8/12/2015

written by megan0550

I’m struggling with my self confidence. I feel so ugly and I hate my body. My ex boyfriend watched porn behind my back, huge tit porn. I don’t have big boobs and It has made me hate myself so much. I wish I had big boobs, I wish someone would love me for my body

8/12/2015 23 comments

Life insurance, funerals, cemeteries, what’s the point?

by wndozh8er 8/9/2015

written by wndozh8er

I don’t understand why individuals have this drive to have “life” insurance. The person paying into it is going to be dead by the time it can be used. Let’s be honest – you can only give money to the living.

I understand that the insurance is mostly to help pay for funeral expenses. but why must we have a traditional funeral for our lost loved ones? Why not have a free get together to remember them buy?

Now for cemeteries – why even have them in them in the first place? They take up space that can be used for something tangible. Gotta do something with […]

8/9/2015 12 comments

Him

by Whateverbell 8/3/2015

written by Whateverbell

I met him last year around the end of August beginning of September. He was so nice to me. And he started flirting with me and saying how I was cute. Now I never really had a guy say this to me as I spent many years being called ugly and unattractive and you know. I started to devolop feelings for him and started to trust him. I loved his personality and it’s like, he was it for me. But I started to realize at the end that he only liked me for sex. It was lust for him. He only wanted my body. Every […]

8/3/2015 1 comment

Know thyself

by isj032 8/3/2015

written by isj032

Just thought I’d make a post for those of you suffering physical pain and discomfort.
Many people are ignorant to the “scientific fact” that the left hemisphere of our brain controls motor function to the skeletal muscles on the right side of our body and vice versa. If you were to accept that movement begins with the eyes (you look in the direction you are traveling or intend to travel) then we must also consider the optic nerve and the way in which nerve impulses are sent from the brain (visual corteX) to the eye muscles.
There are in fact 2 branches of optic nerve […]

8/3/2015 2 comments

im going to set myself on fire

by lewismarr 8/2/2015

written by lewismarr

I hate being black ever since i was a kid im now a 25yrd guy plus im short im 5″8 no body wants me. I tried talking to this girl but she said that she wouldnt date me becuase her mother didnt like black ppl and i could tell she didnt eather this is partly why i want to burn my color off.god cursed me with this ugly body now im going to get out of it by setting myself on fire

8/2/2015 6 comments

hes a prick hes a cock — durty dyana

by kills 8/1/2015

written by kills

ive always been pretty fuckin cocky. but i mean with a mind and body like mine i cant fuckin help it i mean cmon haha. I’ve never felt more in charge of my life and myself than I have since the night of the full moon two nights ago. I looked up and let Dyana go. Dyana is my twin spirit. she latched onto me in the womb to save herself out of fear. so i’d naturally been carrying and protecting her my whole goddamn life. Talk about confusing huh. 26 years of being two people in one body. fuckin nuts man. finally shes […]

8/1/2015 22 comments

Insomnia

by thehusk 7/31/2015

written by thehusk

I can’t get no sleep

Ok, so that’s an exaggeration. Even on the worst nights, I usually manage 1-2 hours. What I mean to say is that I can’t get enough sleep to function properly. During my work week, I spend most of the time wandering around in a haze, zombified, narrowly avoiding bumping into people, longing for the day to end. But then the night finally comes, and I just can’t get to sleep at a reasonable hour, no matter how tired I am.

I feel like I’ve tried all the standard advice. Sticking to routines, exercise, limiting technology use, changing my diet, meditation, yoga, warm […]

7/31/2015 11 comments

Life painfully worse than death seems like hell

by Lifeahell 7/31/2015

written by Lifeahell

Hi…

There are endless problems in my life and my life really seems like hell. I am tired of my life.

The problems are physically, mentally and socially troubling me continuously, all the time. Earlier I was a simple person living an ordinary life. I was physically somewhat less healthy. But rest things were going normal. But then chronically painful things happened later. Once during my holidays, I joined a swimming pool. It was only after a few days that I felt something wrong in my ears, as if they were blocked, perhaps water got trapped into them. There was a serious ear infection which painfully lasted […]

7/31/2015 5 comments

Its not always sad or loneliness

by deerdezz 7/31/2015

written by deerdezz

Its been odd, havent posted in a while since ive been caught up in feelings and thoughts. But now ive hit a wall again and its not even for the usual causes. Normally i would fluctuate between feelings of extreme highs and lows, though lately ive been cruising in the neutral zone.

Ive dropped a lot of expectations and hopes, its made me look at things or losses as unavoidable but necessary. Where it used to cause me grief now i have a sense of understanding why things happened that way. Why people reacted to me and my condition. With that i no longer dwell […]

7/31/2015 2 comments

How I would feel someone gave me Numbethal

by wndozh8er 7/28/2015

written by wndozh8er

first off, I’d get on my knees, cry tears of joy and thank the people for giving me my gift. They would be like true angels to me. My body would relax and I would feel at ease. I’d lay down, and drink the stuff without hesitation, and then drift off into the miracle of eternal nothingness.

I seen so many videos on euthanasia. I’m happy for these people and wish I could be there to have what there having. The solution is pure magic. Peaceful and painless. It’s fucking beautiful!

7/28/2015 2 comments

Onision – Now very Unsure

by lulereign 7/28/2015

written by lulereign

I really don’t know what to feel about myself at the moment. I’m not sure how to word this, but I just go ahead anyway. I’ve recently been watching Onision videos since he popped out on my Recommended List.

I checked out his videos on cutting on a whim, and frankly speaking, he’s super blunt. I’m not going to lie, the way he says it all, about how cutting is ‘attention whoring’, and that cutters are ‘stupid, and crazy’ kinda hit me hard. He says that I should be grateful that I have a roof over my head and a good education and all the opportunities […]

7/28/2015 5 comments

I’ll be the poet and you’ll be the poetry

by Rotted_Flesh 7/22/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

Your love left me long ago
But I buried the bricks of this house that your sadness once built,
Though you branded your name into my heart, so I could love no other
I still feel the long lasting burn of our last night,
Your silhouette,
It still has the same effect, but of course you dont know that though
Departed, no grace, should I let you go?

We never could find eachother in the dark,
I guess we were hiding from each others past,
I guess we’re hiding from one another,
We don’t need to run anymore
I dreaded even heaven when it comes to […]

7/22/2015 0 comment

Vocal Valhalla Will Be My Nirvana

by kills 7/20/2015

written by kills

Tonight. Tonight of all nights I feel it. It haunts me. The presence. My trachea’s shadow. My personal emotional python of darkness asphyxiating my throat chakra with deep blue sorrow. I’ve felt it my whole life. Hence eternal. But on day seems like eternity trapped in this anatomical sarcophagus. Living, breathing; I don’t know what that’s like. The deeper it gets the less control I have over any of it. Scared doesn’t cut it but then again, terrified doesn’t slice it either.

Like a furball of the most vile, putrid emotion all encased, locked and trapped in my throat. Unable to express so it depresses […]

7/20/2015 4 comments

I Am That I Am

by ifuckedthequeen 7/18/2015

written by ifuckedthequeen

I am that I am. I am the epitome of potential. I am possibility incarnate. A wildest dream made manifest. I am living breathing destiny. I am a shooting star that has crash landed in this body. I am Smaug’s hidden treasure. The arcenstone has nothing on me. A legend in the making. A diamond with no need to bluff. Nebula’s for eyes that encapsulate a universe of unlimited infinitum. A gift of sardius stone blessed with third eye sight to peer into the great beyond. Angel wings to lift me above my woes and worries. I am the result of an infallible thought. Created […]

7/18/2015 8 comments

That Gaggle of People Standing By!

by knewphish 7/17/2015

written by knewphish

Suicide Project, that place to be…. or else what? Judges, just the thinking hurts. Ouch. P.T.S.D.

https://youtu.be/LRhNXrzMfew

Yep, leave you a gaggle of people standing by. Feel pretty ducky in this world, in a chicken suit. Tornadoes, Tsunamis, atomic plant melt downs, yep, there is a lot of gaggle-ing going on, you rubberneckers. Most go to these races hoping for a champion and often a wreck.

We need our own city to propel ourselves or the spirit must overcome the body to get day by day in an anxious mind.

Be a solider, 22 a day are hurting themselves irreversibly.

So put that most awful gaggle of people you might […]

7/17/2015 0 comment

First time I cut myself

by Holden 7/16/2015

written by Holden

Like 1 and half hour ago I tried to hang myself for the second time. I got home from work and I started feeling that fucking pain again and I felt in that fucking despair where I just see black. I just couldn’t stand beeing alive. So I went to supermarket and bought a botle of wine to relax a litle before doing it. So I tied the rope around my neck and I tried to hang myself from the bedrom’s door. I was listening to Lady Starlight and I was dreaming that soon I would be in the sky, shining like a litle star. […]

7/16/2015 4 comments

Being pre-everything trans teen

by Skeleton100 7/15/2015

written by Skeleton100

drowning in your flesh

rotting in a cage

constant fear of mirrors

nausea when you look in one

dreaming about slicing off bad body parts and sewing on good ones

inability to look at a cis-person

feeling like a turd when your mom tells you to suck it up and quit begging for attention

envisioning yourself as a good-looking ideal-bodied person and feeling like the shit…but then the fantasy collapses and you’re back to square one with your awkward wrong body

It’s pretty unbearable. I can’t even get hormones for probably several years since my parents aren’t too supportive. I have an appointment with a gender therapist in two months, and that’s only […]

7/15/2015 1 comment

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