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Breaking Point

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/14/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

Alone in my room. Seclusion of my mind. Distortion of my life.

Emptiness surrounding me. Darkness shrinking proximity. Sanity is slowly progressing towards the farthest realms away from me. Out of my grip.

The sun is warm. The moon is pale. Rain is moving in.
Another form of discontented absolution. I pray to never feel the warmth of the sun and its lies. I pray to never understand the darkness and the truth it’s proving.

I’m straddled on a chair. The rope is synced to a sturdy place. The rope around my neck shows comfort and truth. Soon I will join the ranks of fallen.

5/14/2016 1 comment

Aftermath

by Seana 12/9/2013

written by Seana

After I lost my friend, I didn’t know what to do or who to turn to, I wound up joining the wrong crowd. I was always a little bit of a drinker, I mean I liked the taste. But I got a little too tipsy one night, and I wound up sleeping with this guy whose last name I still don’t even know. I wound up getting pregnant after that, but I tragically lost the baby before I could even tell anyone, including my family. I wound up spiraling down into depression and “cutting” and I was just in a funk. As soon as I […]

12/9/2013 1 comment

Numb….again

by Ashley 9/25/2013

written by Ashley

I don’t know if anyone remembers my last post, titled numb. Basically i explained what happens when i go numb. I cut off all feeling, i am in a haze, it takes so much energy to pull out for 30 min. so i can act okay. But i sink deeper and deeper until i cut, and then i’m fine again. i haven’t cut since March, and I’ve been okay. Until now. I’m starting to fall again, and i don’t know why. The only person i can talk to is my friend Skye, because she the only person i know and trust at my new school. […]

9/25/2013 2 comments

after so many years

by AliceNwndrlnd 7/13/2013

written by AliceNwndrlnd

I am still alive. now at the age of 21 looking back on what i have been trough and it starts making sense again.
I reached to the breaking point again and remembered this site from long ago and was thinking i should spill my thoughts here.
I never told much about my self from the few posts i made here and now i feel is the time to reveal some details about myself just so things would seem more clearly.
so what to begin with? since when i was a little kid our family had lots of problems. we never were a big family, […]

7/13/2013 5 comments

lost

by mkroler 6/5/2013

written by mkroler

does anybody know how to be happy because i havent put on a real smile since the winter. i want to know what happiness feels like again, im lost in my own depressed, suicidal world and i dont know how to get out. im about to reach my breaking point.

6/5/2013 9 comments

At My Breaking Point

by Olivia Katelynn 5/22/2013

written by Olivia Katelynn

Im so done. i cant do it any more.

I cant take all the sadness and the depression.

All the loneliness and disappointment.

Im tired of being the kid who gets laughed at.

Im sick of being nothing but a joke.

I just want to give up. Im ready to give up.

But im still scared.

I hate my life.

i just cant any more.

5/22/2013 1 comment

Lock . . .

by me-inside 3/12/2013

written by me-inside

Lock the key to my heart. Never again will I let my pain start. Its now just healing, no sorrow to show, that love can hurt. But I will grow into the women that I know. Sometimes love will let you go…Hold your breath, forget,forgive. And it will show he’ll miss you dearly when you go. Be the person your happy to be. Until death takes part, when you’ll be let free. Freedom does last, it does show. Everyone has their opinions, so just let it go. Tomorrow is another chance to show to just have fun being me, until ill let go. Sometimes I […]

3/12/2013 0 comment

When the problem is a person.

by Hopeless in Hell 2/12/2013

written by Hopeless in Hell

Trapped in the home of people who refuse to understand, who think my depression is hiding something, who think I’m lazy rather than my depression is debilitating.

I could take every type of med, go to every type of therapy, I could have sunshine coming out every orifice. It would make no difference.

Why? Because my problem isn’t me, its my mother.Â My mother is a cold, venomous,Â uncaringÂ nag. She does not believe that depression is a mental illness, but instead views it as a weakness of the mind. She has mild dysthymia at worst and thinks she is the authority on depression. I doubt she has experienced a […]

2/12/2013 4 comments

breaking point.

by loveisdifficult 1/24/2013

written by loveisdifficult

I’m sick of crying. I’m sick of fighting.
I’m done with living and I’m done with breathing.
I cut myself to feel alive, to know I’m still here.
I’m crying myself to sleep, hiding my pain from everyone.
I bottle it up inside and now it’s getting to much.
The only way I can help myself, would be to cut deeper, harder.
Make sure its sharper and pointier. So the pain is hard to stand.

I’m over life.

1/24/2013 3 comments

Ranting and raving

by Tormenting Dreams 12/19/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

hey guys, have you ever been made aware that you were going to lose someone and the person you were going to lose didnt want to talk about it or didnt want you to help them?almost like they wanted to die, just give up and die. and you cant really talk to anyone but that one person. and because they dont want to talk about it ect. you bottle it up inside, and its like a wounded dragon who cant lick its wounds. so eventually it lashes out to make people feel or aware of what your feeling, and of course you look like an […]

12/19/2012 2 comments

Trapped inside myself

by SertralineDream 11/30/2012

written by SertralineDream

Ive been thinking of suicide lately and this is not the first time i have attempted before and failed, i really thourght i had got myself over the worst of it after that until recently. Me and my gf split after a long period of being in a kind of together but technically not situation after i messed up an hurt her (wasn’t the worst thing i could of done but it was bad) all the guilt of hurting the person i love the most has kickstarted my depression and i did try to deal with it but im getting nowhere, i dont feel like […]

11/30/2012 0 comment

Numb

by Ashley 11/9/2012

written by Ashley

I feel like something is wrapped around me suffocating me but I can still breath. I can barely walk talk Hear see I can barely move at all. It takes everything I have to put a smile on my face and move and walk around at school but that takes alot of energy and I can’t keep that up for more than 30 min. at a time. I am not hungry. So I’m not eating. And yet I am still a fat b****. What I described above is what I feel: numb. I feel numb I feel broken I feel like there isn’t much […]

11/9/2012 4 comments

No cell phone

by forlorn1 10/12/2012

written by forlorn1

The ONLY person who actually made me forget about eveerything that made depressed. The only person who could actually make me feel good. The only person who I enjoyed talking to. The only person who I looked forward to talking to, is now “taken away from me”. Our only way of communication was through texting. My mother, who I now despise deeply, decided to take my phone. I feel like I am at my breaking point. I feel like I won’t know how to deal with this on my own. Yes, it’s sad I relied on this person for my happiness, but that’s just how […]

10/12/2012 3 comments

Short intro

by jael85 9/15/2012

written by jael85

I’m Jael, nothing special about me. Had a rough life since I could remember. Parents left at a young age and I was passed around like a broken toy. Eventually I was raised by a family friend. I haven’t seen my parents since.Â They never wanted me anyway.

I have had issues with guys forever. I was molested most of my life by this family friend. Yes you could say my head is a bit fucked up now. Many things have happened (not sure how much to share)Â and I have reached way beyond my breaking point. This world doesn’t need me and no one else does […]

9/15/2012 1 comment

Responsibility…

by Tammie Louise 9/12/2012

written by Tammie Louise

I hate how much responsibility is put on me, my Grandpa is in hospital at the moment and I have to go see him every afternoon after school and all day on both Saturday and Sunday… I’m 16 and I’m failing grade 11 because I get home from the hospital at 8:00 most nights and by the time I Â finally get home, I’m soÂ exhaustedÂ and I have no time to do my assignments or see my friends and I’ve only seen my girlfriend 4 times in the past 2 and 1/2 months… And all my family do is make me feel bad about not wanting to […]

9/12/2012 5 comments

It might be the only way

by sm9500 9/7/2012

written by sm9500

I really don’t want to commit suicide, but in my case, I think it may be my only way to avoid a life of complete suffering for many more years.

I’m a single, middle aged woman, no children or spouse. Â I have siblings whom I no longer can have a relationship with, for valid and good reasons. Â While I have friends, and I appreciate them, they have their own families and their own lives, I cannot count on them to alleviate the loneliness. Â I’m incredibly, incredibly lonely.

But, I’ve always been a “fighter” … until now. Â I’ve gone through trial after trial through my years on this […]

9/7/2012 5 comments

Falling.

by fallenangel33 8/1/2012

written by fallenangel33

I’m falling down, sinking in, my spirit is breaking and my world is caving in, until i reach breaking point and fall to the point of no return.

8/1/2012 3 comments

it is what it is

by truthbetold 8/1/2012

written by truthbetold

I bought a rope and there’s a bridge not far from where I live ..
I’ll be waiting for my intuition to tell me it’s time to go through with it

I’m tired of living just because others want and expect me to

I’m tired of living to preserve my relatives precious bubbles .. I’ve almost reached my breaking point

I’ve been trapped (1) in a body and (2) in this world for too long

I’ve lost interest in figuring out what my purpose is (assuming there’s even one)

my presence on here must be an error, I have no choice but to fix it

once I’m dead: no more struggles, […]

8/1/2012 9 comments

An intro – seems like so many days run togethor

by donotgiveashit 6/21/2012

written by donotgiveashit

This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]

6/21/2012 3 comments

Shock, horror, I’m down.

by lovelydyingdreams 6/16/2012

written by lovelydyingdreams

I’m Hannah. It’s my first time on this website, or any suicide forum for that matter. I found this website researching certain things about suicide. I’ve made several suicide attempts for over a year now, and I’m dead set on succeeding Â it this month. I don’t see a reason for living anymore. I’m useless. I’m so depressed that I don’t have the motivation to get out of bed, or eat, or speak, or even open my fucking eyes in the morning. It just all so pointless. The hurting, and suffering, and hoping. I grew up with an alcohol dependent, abusive, work obsessed father, aÂ narcissistic, jealous, […]

6/16/2012 10 comments

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