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I am terrified

by marine105 9/1/2014

written by marine105

Right now, as of this moment and the myriad of moments preceding this one, I am terrified.

Why? I don’t know.

I suffer from a fear that I cannot name or pinpoint.

It’s not a fear of something real. It’s not a rational fear, proportionate to the degree of danger I’m facing.

It’s an all-consuming entity, enraptured with me and enveloping me in its inescapable grasp.

I work a job, something that I’ve been able to manage (to some extent) for about a year and a half now.

I’m about to start a new work schedule, and I’m working a bit more than I’m used to.

Even though I know I can […]

9/1/2014 5 comments

Dark and cold

by HereticBlood 8/31/2014

written by HereticBlood

I’m not so sure I understand much anymore…. All I know is I feel like it can’t get much colder than this… Can’t sleep, can’t eat, and I’m wondering how I’m even able to breathe… Someone please please tell me how to get out of this hell I’m in… Or maybe just how to stop the flashbacks?….anything…anyone :'(

8/31/2014 6 comments

Hurting

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I cry, but I shed no tears
I’m hurting, but I’m not bleeding
I’m dying, but my body’s surviving
I’ve been broken, but my scars don’t show

I’m withering away, but my body’s still ageing
I’ve lost sight of a future, but I am not blind
I cannot voice my angst, but I am not mute
I feel numb inside, but I can still feel my heart beating

I’ve lost my motivation, but I am still walking
I cannot breathe, but my lungs are still functioning
I cannot feel, but my pain still taunts me
I’ve lost the war, but I am still fighting my battle

8/25/2014 3 comments

I’m 20 years old. This is my goodbye letter.

by deadford34 8/21/2014

written by deadford34

if you’re reading this it’s because I finally found the strength to do what I have threatened and wanted for so long. Think what you want, that I’m a coward or I’m weak. I can’t handle the thoughts or the pain of this. She was my entire world and my savior. I fucked it all up. I can’t forgive myself. I can’t forget. I can’t move on. I can never love someone else and now the only one who truly loved, accepted, and knew me is gone because of me. I don’t understand how she can move on. I can’t stand the thought of her […]

8/21/2014 4 comments

The silence is deafening

by candygrl 8/19/2014

written by candygrl

The silence is deafening at times, my heart is filled with pain, sorrow and loneliness. Heartache has once again settled in to stay for awhile. How many more times should I try love again, over and over, really whats the point? They say to have loved and lost is better than not to have loved at all! I say fuck love!!

So the new me.. Im not leaving home unless I have to, Im not speaking to anyone unless necessary. Im just going to stop caring about everyone including my family. I guess this is a forced silence, well not forced, chosen. Im choosing to stop […]

8/19/2014 12 comments

“Why”

by KaitlynRose7 8/18/2014

written by KaitlynRose7

Why is it that society believes that the boys & girls with scars on their wrists are lower than the girls who wear tank tops & have perfect hair? Where ever morning instead of putting makeup on they paint a smile in sharpie? Not every child gets the advantage to have the perfect family , an I love you every morning or a little note from mommy in their lunch boxes. Society lives off of pain , standards are higher than gas prices . Everyday another boy or girl kills themselves or self harms. We got peeople yelling for help? But society labels them as […]

8/18/2014 1 comment

by Bisban 8/16/2014

written by Bisban

Hyper beam, inspiration

The dying hell of Leech

Calypso

Are you the dead queen

Does this, have an end

The words

The lyrics

I don’t even exist

I see a wild Ratatat, smiles

I just want to breathe and be strong, Calypso

My … reality

Robin Williams, angel man

Would of saved me a million times

How I exist, nobody knows

I’m just Leech.

8/16/2014 8 comments

Poem

by apple21 8/15/2014

written by apple21

The darkness is death – we can speak, but we are not heard. We can scream but they turn their backs. We can run, but we cannot catch them. It is the dream where arms and legs won’t work they way they should, and the air is too thick to breathe. Loved ones walk a mile ahead, forgetting to stop as we fall behind. This is the reality of the darkness. We are buried alive inside ourselves. ”
– Dana-Christene Umanetz

8/15/2014 1 comment

The Eternal Morlock And The God Shoobinsky

by Bisban 8/10/2014

written by Bisban

There once was a humanity that came to be by nature.

The ape to caveman, man. Does the “Squatch-man,” exist.

Can you breathe in into my soul, but I have none.

The gorilla, the vast body factor.

Nature genocide, but we still have big muscle.

Our history is a beautiful, obliterated and burnt story.

The scrolls of time, erased.

The monster persist, in all-ultimate. (Devoured).

The child. The jewel.

The kingdom of Buddha.

The animals.

Babylon, welcome.

Welcome to the project.

You’re either in, or you’re out.

I need to run back, to the native land.

We will sing. We will chant.

The drum to the gold empire.

The “Arc,” was a tremble.

“Hoo – Yah!”

Hypno, never comes back.

8/10/2014 0 comment

sorry babes.

by existence 8/8/2014

written by existence

For a long time I’ve been hanging by a thread. Only here to make my daughters life worth something. Tied here because her dad died of bronchial pneumonia whilst I was pregnant.
Now because I cannot even put food on the table for her, I am having to look for someone who is capable of doing so.
I will be so calm, happy and relieved, at the same time scared, worried and sick that my daughter will have to endure this life with someone she doesn’t know and without both of her parents.
I tried to get a job, none pay anymore. Job centre has […]

8/8/2014 3 comments

Mistakes.

by sadcigarette 8/1/2014

written by sadcigarette

My mistakes consume me.

When ever one crosses my mind,

It crushes my lungs till I can’t breathe.

It replays in my head till I go insane.

It makes my stomach lurch, till I loose everything I ate.

The pain on other peoples faces spin around me till I hurt myself just as much as I hurt them.

Then when it all finnally fades away, I get reminded again.

And the cycle repeats.

8/1/2014 5 comments

Breaking Inside

by Disenchanted7 7/22/2014

written by Disenchanted7

About a month ago I OD’d on heroin and wound up in the hospital. Ever since I’ve been getting what I think are panic attacks, where I feel like I can’t breathe and that I’m about to suffocate. Even in A&E the psychologist didn’t take me seriously but I am seriously messed up… I’ve been waiting 2 months to see a psychiatrist after stating I was suicidal because she cancels the appointments but I can’t sleep for days, I have auditory hallucinations (hear people say things about me when they’re not), extreme paranoia and I’m afraid to leave the house. If that ***** has the […]

7/22/2014 5 comments

Fate worse than life

by I.cant.breathe! 7/21/2014

written by I.cant.breathe!

I got dragged down
By the current.
I know how to swim
But why fight it.
Faces and places
Come to haunt me
Along with things I’ve done
Im going to hell.
A fate worse than life?
There is none.
How do you breathe
When the air is your poison.
I fight hard for purpose
But I do not have one.
My legs fail me
Because there is nowhere to run
When your demons trail behind you.
I cant breathe
Im choked by my sins.
a fate worse than life?
There is none.

7/21/2014 1 comment

The Chase

by Aryl 7/9/2014

written by Aryl

There are some things that I cannot let go of.

I want answers from those who will not give me any.. not now, not ever.

Desperation washes over me whenever I think of ‘back then’ and the truth is that I’m not sure that what I remember is what happened because I was so young at the time. All I want is for those who were involved to ‘fess up for once in their lives, but I know deep down that it will never happen.

So, for the past few years I’ve been trying to forget.

Each hour now pasts like a dream – so detached from reality – […]

7/9/2014 1 comment

Hardly.

by hellblau 7/7/2014

written by hellblau

You think your days are uneventful, and no one ever thinks about you. You think your days are ordinary, and no one ever thinks about you. But we’re all the same, and she can hardly breathe without you.

7/7/2014 0 comment

escape hell

by Bisban 6/7/2014

written by Bisban

the last strain is called comatose.
I do not want to get too close to the radiation.
a falling astral sound of the heart.
I only pray to one.

Icarus. Can you ever be born again.
I am the only that dies in this world.
I won’t walk again into the shop.
God. Is not just a word.

God, is the Almighty. Turning the word into capital.
The new age. I befall, stricken. Damnation secretly lives.
In front of our eyes. Inside our hearts.
But I just want to breathe. A trio, and all that I can’t do.

My salvation. Under the ocean. Descending.
A magician, there is […]

6/7/2014 0 comment

humility seeks tranquility

by Bisban 6/6/2014

written by Bisban

the music of doom always appears.

my heart outside my mouth and I can’t breathe.

and everything more tries to kill me.

no one hears when someone really dies.

I will forever walk in doom. my fate of infinite curse.

I can’t even feel the music that I listen to. Spirit of death, I am only an echo.

the maximum jewel evolution is inside the black beast.

I want to scream, so loud.

wishing I was alive in the first place.

Naruto wouldn’t have left me behind, I don’t think.

To the world. This light never made it through the tunnel.

Help me, to go die in peace. White Lighter, awaken.

Oracle. Save me or let […]

6/6/2014 0 comment

Set me Free “Angel”

by LovingLife 5/29/2014

written by LovingLife

This pain is unnatural, a form of devious evil. It laughs with its twisted and corrupted face. Tears are trying to draw the pain away, create a smile – which fails.

Will I die soon, is it coming closer, will my heart give in to the pressure. Physical pain; please leave – set me free.

Remove my wings but let my worn out body breathe and ascend again.

Let my demise be painless, until you plunge me down.

Into the abyss.

5/29/2014 1 comment

by LetItGo 5/27/2014

written by LetItGo

It’s a shame that it had to be this way
It’s not enough to say I’m sorry
Maybe I’m to blame
Or maybe we’re the same
But either way I can’t breathe
Either way I can’t breathe
All I had to say is goodbye
~Secondhand Serenade; Goodbye

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It’s not like that at all
~Avril Lavigne; Wish You Were Here

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye
~A Great Big World; Say Something

I’m sorry I wasn’t enough
For you, for my friends, for anyone
I didn’t know much […]

5/27/2014 0 comment

my life as i know it

by whereareyouolga 5/21/2014

written by whereareyouolga

I have difficulties expressing myself through writing. so I’m just gonna do it like this.

– I panic inside my body cause I feel claustrophobic. My body aches all the time and I have a constant headache and chest ache.

= I. just. want. out.

– I have no interest in a future what so ever. I don’t want to study, meet new people or get married and have kids. I have not had a moment in years and years that I could feel happiness and joy.

– I am not interested in anything. No hobbies that can take my away from the pain just for a […]

5/21/2014 2 comments

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