Pain overriding any rational thoughts
only feeling what I want most not too
Churning in my stomach, and burning in my chest
How did this happen, I ask
Only to be reminded that there is no explanation
No concrete answer to the question I’m seeking
I just have to accept what is.
Accepting a reality of isolation, loneliness and solitude
Feeling imprisoned by my own being
Trapped in a world I can’t escape
Following me wherever I go.
My mind plagues my every thought
The inner bully condemning every part of me
Ruthless, harsh and callous
Never stopping with its relentless bashing.
Only sleep gives […]
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Bully
Well, I was wondering who of you guys is ever been bullied. So if you please would answer the following questions, thank you.
The questions:
1). Have you ever been bullied or been a bully, or both?
2). For how long have you been bullied?
3). What kind of bullying was it? (think about physical, emotional, abusing you or calling you names, follow you, ignore you, and so on)
4). What was the worst thing that ever happened when you were bullied?
Feel free to say anything else you want or to answer not all the questions.
My answers to the questions:
1). I’ve been bullied, […]
Yes. I’m a 16 year old girl. No.I don’t want to kill myself over a boy. Or a girl. Or a bully. Or drugs. Or any of the typical things i’ve seen so far on this site. I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me. By all rights, i should be a happy kid. I have a good life, I’m smart, talented and funny. So why do I want to die? Why is it that I want nothing more than to not have to exist anymore? Let me tell you why.
My mother and father both had perfect SAT scores. My aunt is the head of […]
There is someone who bullies me. Someone who teases and taunts and tortures me. That bully is me.
No matter what I do, I notice a flaw in me. I’m stupid, ugly, fat, and friendless. No one listens to me. I doubt my parents even care about me. Whenever I try talking to them, they don’t even bother to understand my problems. I can’t talk to my brother. He has autism and wouldn’t understand anything. My ‘friends’ are fake, as fake as a Barbie doll. No matter how hard I try in school, there are always people who do better than me. I hate comparing myself […]
I used to think I would find love one day. Now I just think I’m unfit for it. I’ve never had a boyfriend, or a first kiss, or anything. I would even settle for a girlfriend at this point, if she cared about me. I’m not sure if I’m a lesbian. I’m so confused. Whenever I look at other women I think they are prettier and more appealing than men… but I still am attracted to the opposite sex. Does this make any sense? It doesn’t matter though, because I can’t even make friends. All my friends last for one semester of college, then I don’t see them again. I feel like […]
Hi, my names Cathy and im 14 years old. 😉
I was cyber bullied a year ago. Never thought it would ever happen to me. Since then i have very low steam on my self. I have very strong depression. I had looked at the world very different then. I would be one of those people who would mind their own business and just be happy for who they are. But.. I don’t think i will ever return to being that girl. One of the reason to this are because…. the bully goes to my school. ;L I see her everyday, she is in my […]
Did you see her arm
Did you hear her cry
Did you see how much weight she lost
Did you see how she is slowing dying
Did you know she hates her self
Did you understand why she killed her self
You r the bully
You r the people who push me to the edge
You r the ones who make me feel alone
When will you understand?
Do i need to end my life so you can see it
Do i not do enough already
Answer this: Who would you be knowing you were the reason for a suicide?
— had to get it out
A couple of days ago I heard about Amanda Todd. It reminded me when I used to consider suicide because of being constantly bullied. Bullied by my “friends”, bullied my my classmates, by my ex-boyfriend (who blackmailed me for 2 years, saying he would tell everyone in my family what I was, what I had done and said). Then I remembered when the bully got physical. Been called names, been thrown things, been punched. No one cared back then. They would see me crying, but ‘oh, it’s ok, he’s just a teenager’. Anyway, somehow I made it through middle and high school.
Today I’m in college. […]
every fucking time my dad tries to empathise with me, when i tell him i am having a hard time at school, he tells me “walk away and stop starting shit.” i cannot believe the people that are biologically programmed to love me. do they even care? its not like i tell them shit about my life, i just say it like it is. and wen i ask them, have you ever been bullied, were you ever the bully? they reply with no so how the fuck do they expect to understand when they haven’t gone through shit. i hate my fucking disfunctional life. as […]
hi guys… Im Elico (I despised my real name so I use this…
Im gay… Hehe, though I people find it hard to believe I am one since thay say Im a ‘good actor’ or something…
I dont have friends… I guess Im a natural loner or whatever… But I waited and looked, no one was there… I trusted several people, but all where the same, some abandon me after myself confessign to them, some got simply tired as I was clingy… some, just… stopped.
Dont ask if I have a lover or whatever, Im ugly maybe… and somehow I lost interest in stuff liek that…
Family? Theyre all […]
My depression started when I was around 6 years old. Â It started when I was sexually abused by my cousin and his dad. At the time I didnt know what was wrong and what was right, how could I? I was just a little kid. All that ended when I was 13 years old. The sad part of my story with them is that their family is seen as the perfect family. All the kids in that family were well mannered, smart, went to good schools etc. I never told anyone what happened, because….. I didnt want to hurt my family, and I didnt know […]
I don’t know what It is but I feel Lonely. Maybe its because I’ve been stuck at my Aunts house for a couple months with no one to talk to. Or maybe its the fact that no ones text me or called in that time, or possibly the fact that my best friend stood me up. Ever since I did what I did, I feel like everyone hates me, every time I’m introduced to someone, I have a feeling that they know what I did.
Let me explain. I grew up with everyone teasing me  for having hairy arms, not people from school, but the people […]
over the last couple of weeks, ive been depressed, i don’t know why and i dont know how i’ve gotten this way, i sit there and cry, i feel like nothing to anyone, i give up and just want to die all the time. Most people say i shouldn’t think that, because i’m 13 years old and i shouldn’t waste my life away, suicide isn’t the way to deal with it, i’ve cut myself, wished&cried that i didn’t want to be here so many times, people just don’t understand how i feel.. about anything? No-one knows why i’m like this, i don’t even know, i […]
I want to die because my brother is a bully, and my parents don’t do anything about it!!!!!î–î–î–î–î–î–î–î–î–
If you are being bullied please kick their ass. My biggest regret is never standing up to a bully. I always said I didn’t because I didnt want to get in trouble at school but that is bullshit the worst that would happen is 5 day suspension oh no :0 not five days off school anything but that. Seriously though I would prefer a little trouble than years of regret
I have this friend, he’s awesome. And sometimes I actually let him in, emotionally. I don’t do that to anybody. I hide my feelings fairly well unless instigated. He’s getting fed up with my lack of concern towards myself. I wish I could just be like, “I’m really just venting, let me freak out. It’s fine, I’m not going to cut up.”. But alas here I am, getting all guilted up because I can’t change who I am. I’m completely worthless. Don’t try to tell me I’m not, I know the truth. I can’t literally remember a moment that didn’t end in guilt or shame. […]
Sometimes it may seem as thou i am alone in this world because it seems as thou no one else s in it with me but after watching the movie cyber bully i realize i am not alone there are other people like me out there so what i do is search the net for sites that give info on people like me and talk and relate with them and try to understand them as they understand me and make it known to my self that i am not alone in this world and even if it seemed as thou there are no people i […]
Nobody needs me. Sure my parents might love me. Atleast thats how its supposed to be. My mom and i used to be bestfriends. Now she makes fun of me. How i look or even things i do. Yeah, i laugh along with her but thats how good i am about hiding things. Its too much now. Ive told her that it hurts my feelings. You know what her reaction was? She laughed. I had a serious face. And she didn’t give a shit. I’ve done nothing to deserve this. I’m No bully. I’m that girl that if you hit her or annoy me. I […]
Hey everyone, I want people to join my facebook group for people who feel “out of place, or unloved, or ignored totally.”
Hit me upand join my group if you like
the group is called Moving Forward
and my name is Nia Braithwaite
 I am the Nia with the tulips or yellow flowers
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