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This is tiring now…

by Romanticide 10/21/2015

written by Romanticide

I’ve been feeling suicidal for the best part of 3 months now, but the last couple of weeks have been extremely difficult.

I feel like the thoughts are controlling me rather than me being in control of them.

Before, I was thinking, oh i’ll do THIS and THIS is when i’ll do it etc etc.

But recently I’ve been struck by impulsive thoughts where I feel if I drift off for that second too long that I’ll jump in front of a car. I parked my car at work yesterday morning, then found myself stood against the wall of the car park leaning over wondering if I jumped […]

10/21/2015 5 comments

If you love me you’ll kill me

by MissDysphoria 10/15/2015

written by MissDysphoria

I find myself waiting for the crosswalk light to turn to go, watching all the speeding cars fly by. I like to stand as close to the edge as I can and just imagine the feeling of stepping out into traffic, and the feeling of the impact of the first car to hit me. the only thing holding me back is the possibility of some how surviving that…and all those people watching…me. I was told it only gets harder from here. Right now is harder than I can stand, just kill me now, I hate life.

10/15/2015 1 comment

Apathy

by Romanticide 10/11/2015

written by Romanticide

…is all I feel now. Which is ironic really seeing as its pretty much “feeling’ nothing at all.

I Have been depressed for many years, and suicidal through periods of this time. However I now feel so close its almost like I’m not even in control anymore.

I was in a car accident last week (not a deliberate action might I add..) but all I could think of when I moved my car to a safer place by the side of the road was “I wish I’d died”. There had been an accident right before ours so there were ambulance and police there already who saw the […]

10/11/2015 8 comments

Sitting duck

by lostwander 9/24/2015

written by lostwander

after spending five minutes in my garage, with the car running do you think I’ve poisoned myself enough or should I sit here till I pass out

9/24/2015 5 comments

Maybe I need a good friend or a fun adventure.

by kahlia 9/24/2015

written by kahlia

Or maybe I just need to drive my car into that tree off of the highway.

9/24/2015 2 comments

A Constant Disaster

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

As of right now I list a lot of things that are going wrong with my life. I put in my two weeks at a job I hated and when I put in my two weeks they started telling me not to come in everyday so I’m getting no hours, I still haven’t found another job despite applying at tons of places and I’m financially screwed. I was forced to move back in with my family in order to get away from the latest in a string of abusive relationships. I owe my college over $3,500 for dropping out and can’t go back to school […]

9/17/2015 6 comments

by remington 9/16/2015

written by remington

Hi I am Adam here is my story.

Growing up I never really had a father or even father figure in my life which is pretty shitty but I am sure it happens to a lot of people. My mom and dad divorced before I can remember so it’s always been me my mom brother and sister. I was about 7 my brother 10 he had just broken his collar bone so his arm was in a sling we had bunk beds and I had top bunk I had jumped down and accidentally hit his arm which was an ACCIDENT but my dad being the […]

9/16/2015 2 comments

trying to sleep my probles and pain away.

by Delisnak 8/28/2015

written by Delisnak

sounds ridiculous but i tried. when i sleep i dont worry about all the pain and regret its just blackness. went to sleep just woke up hoping i could never wake up. all i do is hope for death i dont have the courage to do it myself. I’d gladly get ran over by a car on “accident” any day.

8/28/2015 6 comments

lack there of

by lostnforevergone 8/24/2015

written by lostnforevergone

I am tired. Have not slept much in days or weeks or months. Seems like i keep reinjuring shoulder/neck injury from last accident where they hit my car. I am just tired of it all, the memory loss, thr cognitive and iq drop, the injuries, constant nightmares and not sleeping. I just want it all to end. I cant get medical, dental, or psych help here, for psych they don,t preform any tests written or physical so i dont know where i stand withe cognitive function loss and iq loss. Dont know whats going on […]

8/24/2015 0 comment

Put Me Out Of My Misery

by Yours, Forever and Always 8/22/2015

written by Yours, Forever and Always

I don’t know whether to cry or laugh. I’m so god damn done. I’m done with living and feeling like absolute shit.

Yet, I can’t even kill myself. Or cut myself. That used to be my escape and now it doesn’t help at all.

Today, I kept jerking the car, knowing my step father would feel pain. And I wanted him to. I wanted him to feel a fraction of what I feel everyday.

And my half sister wouldn’t just shut up. I screamed at her. And I would’ve kept screaming at her but my step dad told me to […]

8/22/2015 2 comments

Generator in car

by rubdoo50 8/20/2015

written by rubdoo50

I want to run a generator in my car. Anyone know if this will work?

8/20/2015 6 comments

Crossroad

by quaero 8/5/2015

written by quaero

“To know the truth, you must risk everything.”

“Because you have been down
there, Neo. You know that road. You
know exactly where it ends. And I know
that’s not where you want to be.”

I think Neo didn’t make his choice when when he took the red pill over blue; he really made his choice when he chose to stay in the car with Trinity rather than getting down and going back home.

8/5/2015 1 comment

I can’t take this pain.

by brokenbleeding_angel 8/3/2015

written by brokenbleeding_angel

I can’t take this pain anymore. I’m a young adult not even able to drink and my family disowned me. My boyfriend broke up with me and is already seeing someone else even though I still love him. I have no home and my only hope is to become a stripper to pay the bills and I’m not sure that’s even going to cut it. I don’t have a car either. I feel like I’m suffocating with nothing going for me. All I feel is so much pain and agony I can’t breathe.

8/3/2015 1 comment

Really sick

by whythisnightmare 7/31/2015

written by whythisnightmare

I don’t know if anyone on here remembers me. I had another name a while ago but for some reason couldn’t log onto it anymore. I was WHyyyyy. Still alive and I don’t know why. This is a nightmare. I have lost my soul and a lot of money from my gambling/poker addiction. My personality and everything is gone. No strength left. I have a plan to drive my car off a 400 foot cliff. It seems like such a long time ago I was this sick, but its only been little over a year. Life is wayyy to long and way to hard.

7/31/2015 4 comments

Failed Suicide Attempt

by ChemicalCouple1 7/30/2015

written by ChemicalCouple1

I’m 19 years old. My name isn’t important. I live on a farm, with sheep and crops, and wheat, and machinery. I’ve been depressed and anxious my whole life. Even when I was 14 years old, I was self-harming. I hadn’t self harmed or attempted suicide in 5 years. But to day got the best of me.

I walked to my partners car and opened the boot, before pulling our one of the ropes. He keeps them there encase be gets bogged so […]

7/30/2015 4 comments

I just wanna die sometimes..

by never.good_enough 7/18/2015

written by never.good_enough

Sometimes I wish I could die in a car wreck or something, so my family members won’t blame themselves. I’ve seen quotes that stand up to the fact that we give people signs that we are not ‘okay’. We give them so many signs they are just too oblivious to the truth to see it. I don’t have to cover up my cuts, I mean yeah I put a little powder on them, but that is practically nothing. It doesn’t make them disappear. That doesn’t take the pain and misery away. Doesn’t take away all the depression. I love my family to death but currently […]

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Adventure Distractions

by knewphish 7/17/2015

written by knewphish

So, gamershell.com offers free demos. One can purchase whole game often on Amazon, race car simulation (Need for Speed Series) and anything flight sounding, especially the helicopter demos and games are a good thought changing environment. Have a minimum XP 32 bit system with video and sound upgrade or a good laptop in 32 bit operating systems to try these simulators out.

http://www.gamershell.com/search/?q=starshatter+demo

Find Vietnam Med Evac and Search and Rescue 4 and Space interceptor.

Microsoft Flight Simulators go back to 1998, a good one and through FSX, ten. I like FS2002. Add on any free airplane from simviation.com free.

So good luck dragging your ball and chain today, […]

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7/17/2015 1 comment

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Hey look at him

by Rotted_Flesh 7/5/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

“he has a big nose, his eyes are too far apart, he looks weird, his hair is fucked, he’s too fat, he’s too short, he’s not muscular enough, he’s not cool enough, he doesn’t have a good enough job, he has a shitty car, he has a shitty apartment, he doesn’t have enough friends, he doesn’t have enough hobbies, god his life must suck.”

– The Human Race

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7/5/2015 3 comments

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Slipping again

by vj288 6/29/2015

written by vj288

I’m looking at suicide methods again for the first time again after a while of being good. Over the last 5 years I tried to kill myself over a dozen times, climaxing last fall when I drove my car into a telephone pole going 70 mph, which left me completely unscathed. At that point I felt like I had exhausted all suicide methods I was willing to try, and was then trapped in the living world.

I guess I still feel that way. I don’t have the nerve to do something that could result in prolonged pain or a life of suffering after failure. Can’t hang, […]

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6/29/2015 0 comment

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helping someone with depression/potentially suicidal person

by someonewhoexists 6/27/2015

written by someonewhoexists

I guess everybody has been in a situation where they didn’t know what to do. I have been in many, too. But this is something only you, people who are going through similar things, can help me with.

This post isn’t going to be about me, but about my aunt. My aunt has lost her son (my cousin) 2 years and 7 months ago if I’m counting correctly. He was only 17 years old at the time and he killed himself one night, somewhat out of the blue. The whole situation and his full reasons are a mystery – he didn’t leave any suicide note, he […]

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6/27/2015 2 comments

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