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Carbon Monoxide

Trash belongs with the trash

by Koro 5/2/2017

written by Koro

I want to die…this time,this will be my 4th suicide attempt and i have done my research this time…sleeping pills first and then carbon monoxide from a stove or nitroglycerin overdose with alcohol…i will be 26 years old in June and i want to do it as soon as possible.

In short i hate myself for being a failure and pathetic trash and i disappointed a lot of people and it seems today i have disappointed the person i care for most…and i feel the need to punish myself,no sleeping,eating or drinking water for 3 days for starters,and it’s still soft.afterwards,the harder stuff will follow.

I’ve been […]

5/2/2017 4 comments

How To Kill Yourself

by xxcora 12/1/2016

written by xxcora

*This isn’t a step by step tutorial or anything it’s just statistics and scientific things you may want to know before you end it all.

Lethality: How likely is the method to cause death (where 0% is no chance, and 100% is absolute certainty)
Time: An opinion on the length of time the method will require to produce death
Agony: The amount of physical pain and discomfort you would expect from the use of the particular method (ranked on scale of 0 to 100 where 0 is no pain/discomfort and 100 is the most pain/discomfort possible)

Rank Method Name Lethality (%) Time (min) Agony

1 Shotgun to head 99.0% 1.7 […]

12/1/2016 14 comments

The closest I ever came to killing myself

by lost.soul.hopeful.heart 1/19/2016

written by lost.soul.hopeful.heart

I’ve just needed to get this story off my chest. It’s been two years, and I’ve only told two friends and my councilor. This isn’t much of a story, but when I begin to think about suicide I remember the saving thought that I had. A lot of the time we feel so alone in the world. It can be for many reasons, but I think what I learned is, you’re not alone. No matter what you want to believe to make choosing suicide easier, you’re not alone, someone will still feel grief for you when you pass. For some people that’s not much of […]

1/19/2016 5 comments

Question about carbon monoxide poisoning?

by bwhite97 9/10/2013

written by bwhite97

I was watching this movie where some guy killed himself by taping a sock over his exhaust pipe and sitting in his running car. The Carbon monoxide built up in his car and poisoned him. Is this true? Does this actually work? Any info would be appreciated.

9/10/2013 11 comments

Tonight’s The Night – My Story

by Onmywayout777 2/7/2013

written by Onmywayout777

Hey everybody, I’ve been here off and on for a month or two. First off, I’ve met a lot of really good people on here. I think most of us SP users are really soft hearted and it’s easy to click with other people here. I don’t know why I’m writing this because I’ve made up my mind and I’m not looking for support or crying out for help. Hopefully someone out there that also feels like shit will read it and maybe get something out of it.

I’ve lost 3 people this year and my cat that I had for 7 years (I count that […]

2/7/2013 6 comments

Feeling the end is coming

by xTKsaucex 12/28/2012

written by xTKsaucex

Well, some of you on chat knows me as CL and I’m just getting to the end of my tether here. And talk about timing. My mother and her partner have just announced their engagement last night and me, my sis and her fiancÃ©e only know at the moment. They’re all in their own happy worlds even though there are hardships here and there and there’s me wanting to kill myself. I got everything I need to go out via Carbon Monoxide and today or tomorrow seems like the only times when I get enough time to go through with it without being disturbed. I […]

12/28/2012 3 comments

With a little help from my strangers.

by PennyroyalTea 9/20/2012

written by PennyroyalTea

Hey, anyone who’s a littleÂ interesting in this stranger. I already wrote something saying that I was thinking about killing myself and also talking about my own life. Anyway, I’ve decide to leave the world but I can’t. I’m so angry right now. I can’t kill myself. I was thinking inÂ committing suicide byÂ carbonÂ monoxide poisoning.Â Â I can’t because my parents, aunt or grandparents could see me. I thought committing suicide by taking too much pills (my original plan). Then I felt really retarded when I notice that wasn’t as easy as I thought. I don’t want any suffer so I’m not going by hanging, wrist cutting, suffocation,Â hypothermia, electrocution, […]

9/20/2012 13 comments

Suicide, psych ward & crazy meds

by CBurton 9/12/2012

written by CBurton

So, being sick and tired of my life I decided to do something about it, or rather, try again. Not try to make it better but just to end it. After all, since there’s no meaningful purpose to my life I figured there wasn’t any point in prolonging the pain and suffering.
I had bought all I needed for “BBQ for one” (carbon monoxide poisoning) and went to the outhouse to prepare.
Here I fired up under the charcoal and had it be nice and glowing to emit maximum nice and deadly CO.
I had the coal in a chimney starter and was standing outside […]

9/12/2012 0 comment

Divinity must exist..

by CBurton 9/11/2012

written by CBurton

I’ve battled with depression over several years; I’ve tried different meds to help out, but with varying success. They can keep me up to a certain level, but once life hits, there’s no staying afloat.
There’s been so much turmoil in my life; business going bust, marriage on the verge of breaking, custody and visitation battles, verbal fights with stepkids, friends leaving me, money running out, vehicles break beyond repair or being stolen, workplace f**ked up..
I’m at the point where I just don’t see what my purpose of being here is – people and situations just constantly push back or throw spanners in the […]

9/11/2012 4 comments

So Tired

by slitwrists92 9/5/2012

written by slitwrists92

I’m so tired. . . Tired of crying, fighting, trying to find some will to live inside this black hole of mine. I simply cannot take anymore. I’m trapped inside a world of hate and I am their object of disgust. The only future left is just day after day of pain to be added to my past.

I have attempted nine times unsuccessfully. 5 od’s. Hanging. 2slit wrist attempts. And downing mr.clean. I have scars covering my arms, shoulder to wrists and my thighs and calves. *sigh* but even cutting, the only friend Ive had, has left me now. But this helium thing and carbon […]

9/5/2012 4 comments

How do you motivate yourself?

by messi 8/11/2012

written by messi

Suicide is the only answer for me, don’t bother telling me otherwise, I’ve tried and failed before but I haven’t changed my mind. I’ve been unhappy and apathetic for as long as I can remember regardless of how hard I’ve tried to push myself or the different things I’ve tried. I just want the pain to go away, it’s really unbearable at times. I think about bad times in my life, about God, about all the bad people in the world, how bad the world is, how worthless I am, and often enough I picture myself dying in gruesome ways. I end up crying, shaking, […]

8/11/2012 3 comments

Propane grill

by sicksta89 7/8/2012

written by sicksta89

Hey everyone,

I’ve decided on using carbon monoxide for my exit and was wondering if anyone on here knew the effectiveness of propane grills compared to charcoal grills. I have a propane grill already and wouldn’t really want to purchase a charcoal grill if I don’t have to.Â Any info on carbon monoxide will be helpful.

Thanks

7/8/2012 3 comments

Well, I know now, how i gonna do it..

by muerta 5/20/2012

written by muerta

few days back i wanted to quit it with car exhaust- carbon monoxide.
but now, i want to do it the hibachi style..
i even Â ordered from ebay one old japanese hibachi, just for this. i like japan, so yea.
and imagining Â the whole process, i really adore it. i dont know yet where im gonna do it, but i have few nice choices to pick from.
i dont know when, i’ll see when the hibachi arives.
sorry for my bad english. peace.

5/20/2012 2 comments

This is what happens when you can’t sing.

by Jane19 2/20/2012

written by Jane19

My tears are gone,

I have spent so much time filling the ocean,

So that the seven seas,

Become eight.

Who can answer me better than me,

I don’t know how to shout,

So instead I love myself,

Because who else would do it?

I have this infatuation,

And it whispers salvation,

Because I can’t save myself unless I am saving others,

So when my job is done,

Saving becomes a distant plan,

My brain has had time to breathe,

But how did I know that it would be snuffed in the fumes of carbon monoxide and failure,

I am high on disappointment,

Have you ever felt like Peter Pan?

I once flew to Netherland,

And it was there where I learned the […]

2/20/2012 0 comment

the mask

by drift_along 2/10/2012

written by drift_along

i get so tired of wearing this fake mask hidding my feeling and pain inside making like im doing fine and im not depressed anymore but when i get alone i cry, cry because im in pain because im hurt and sometimes cry for nothin at all im just ready to say fuck it and go threw with my plan which is to die of carbon monoxideÂ it seems like the easyest way to die no pain no nothing just death

2/10/2012 2 comments

I Tried… {Venting}

by CherryBlossom 2/8/2012

written by CherryBlossom

I tried to become a better person. To stop the things that make me hate myself so much.

I talked about this before but it’s starting to become a big problem again.

Thinking about it makes me want to vomit. I’m so disgusted with myself and the situation.

I just made it to partner 32, yay for the whore!

I was doing so well, three months. No sex. I was so proud of myself. But then they came back. And because I’ve been avoiding instead of dealing with the problem directly I crumbled.

I did say no, I did move his hand when he tried to touch me. I tried […]

2/8/2012 18 comments

Dear Daniel

by Calamity Jane 6/24/2009

written by Calamity Jane

Doesnâ€™t look like there are any Aussies here at all.. wish I could make pact. I was planning to go out and try buy Heroin today and overdose on that. I thought what a brilliant way to go, floating away on a highâ€¦ but Iâ€™m scared that I donâ€™t know where to get it and it could cost more money then I have to get enough to ODâ€¦ soâ€¦ Iâ€™ve been doing alot of research. I agree. If we really believe we want to die and the pain of living is worse then the pain you may cause for anyone you may leave behind, you […]

6/24/2009 3 comments