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by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/16/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

Normally I have some sort of poem, writing, or abstract art of words.

Today is different.

I’ve not spoke to her in 3 weeks. Last time was an argument over childish ideology.

When her ringtone started on my phone, I thought I was dreaming. I thought a cruel joke was about to ensue and drape me in yet another dissapointment.

I was right. The slight elevation of her voice rang a seldom felt and more distinct chord within my soul.

First was elation. Delight. Joy.

Last was the truth. The tragic truth of deceptions.
The voice of which I once had no other reason to wake up to, shattered my progress. […]

5/16/2016 2 comments

Stubborn

by thehusk 5/13/2016

written by thehusk

Given that death is inevitable for all, the pertinent question would seem to be: what do I want to do in whatever time is left.

There are things that I would like to do in my remaining time. But none of them are tangible, based in my real life. They require me to be other than I am. And I do not know how to be other than I am. I do not know how to give up being myself. I am addicted to it. Attached to it. Neurosis, unhappiness, unease is the way I define my reality. I cannot give it up. I cannot accept the […]

5/13/2016 6 comments

I’m a sad teenager, what more could I possibly tell you?

by Cro0kedYoung 9/24/2015

written by Cro0kedYoung

Im new to this forum. I recently found it and Ive been searching for something like this for a while. Im sad. Very sad. I mean, I see a few good days but overall Im sad. I dont want to be sad, no one does, but I dont know what to do anymore. I know that these past few weeks Ive been contemplating something I never thought Id want. Suicide. I always thought that would never be an option for me due to family things that Id rather not discuss here but It seems to be on my mind a lot.

Maybe I need a friend […]

9/24/2015 12 comments

all my fault…

by Delisnak 8/18/2015

written by Delisnak

its all my fault… hes at his breaking point and im sure hes goig to leave. tired of my bullshit. i got upset over the past trust is gone. heart is caving in knowing he must be dying. all my fault… he has a rage he cant control and might hurt himself or someone else. i always hurt the people around me. im a fuck up. now hes hurting and i cant fix it. all my fault… promised him i wouldnt cut and almost broke it. my fault… we’re both hurting becase i was being childish.ill take every hit from everyone who has hurt because […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

Back here again ….great

by gonna die 5/30/2015

written by gonna die

Relized i dont have any friends and that no one cares about me. Religion always makes me question myself. I like a guy who will never like me back. Parents fighting constantly. Mother always dramatic. Dad always to childish. Cousin acts like hes all grown up. Everyone forgot my birthday even my parents until i told them. Might have cancer. Cutting myself. Tryed getting help but it didnt help in anyway . homophobic friend. Ughh… Why so many problems? Why isnt there a end?

-Brian

5/30/2015 1 comment

My last words

by todayist88 5/8/2015

written by todayist88

The last two month’s have been the worse month’s of my life. I have destroyed my master’s degree, relationship with parents and have no friends around me, all for stupid, pathetic, childish reasons and obsessions. Will my end be suicide ?: I doubt it. However, I will be running away, at least. I was obviously born with a defect. I seldom know what else to say– I have merely destroy my self; another dust in the wind, taken away, thrown into the depths of nothingness.

Goodbye everyone.

5/8/2015 4 comments

Still there

by comomequieranllamar 4/13/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

So today I was inviting people to something on facebook, and I just saw her face among my friends.

That sweet girl who used to be my friend on highschool and killed herself some years ago.

It’s kind of weird having her on facebook. It makes me feel… I don’t know how. Specially seeing her childish face when everyone else has become an adult.

It’s like if a piece of world had stopped moving. And there she is, being 19 years old forever.

I remember that I saw her a month before her dead. Even if our friendship didn’t have a good end and we hadn’t […]

4/13/2015 2 comments

It’s not a competition

by _NameLess_ 3/22/2015

written by _NameLess_

It makes me upset when I, or others post about things that are bothering us and are kicked around by some hateful comments. I hate that. For example, “Try living my life for one damn day I don’t cry about it on some shitty website 24/7 for attention. Get over your lesbian self harming self.”. We just need to vent. If people really are on here because they consider being miserable some sort of giant competition, what do you possibly gain out of it? I’m just on here to vent when I feel really shitty. I should find a different forum. This is so childish.

3/22/2015 5 comments

I sometimes cant even believe my own thoughts…

by serenityseeker 3/14/2015

written by serenityseeker

Here I am, don’t rock me like a hurricane, just hear me out. I have been dealing with some of the most difficult shit that I have ever had to deal with in my entire life and I am completely done with all of it. This life and this bullshit seriously arent worth the endless hours of agony and the energy that it takes to continue on.
At times I don’t even know who I am anymore. From one minute to the next it seems as though I am forced to deal with more drama, insanity, and childish crap than a middle school principal.

I […]

3/14/2015 0 comment

Confused

by woahshar 12/11/2014

written by woahshar

hey guys. My mom and I haven’t been talking for a week now because I did something stupid. I lit a paper using a lighter because I liked the smell of the burning paper. I did it while sitting in the toilet. My mom smelled the smoke and she started yelling at me. She said things like “it’s bad for your heart and your brain.” “That’s probably why you’re so stupid.” And then the next morning, she told my dad and then my dad scolded me and said that I was stupid and that I’m an addict. And also that my brain is probably damaged […]

12/11/2014 9 comments

past life lessons & old souls

by kateralia 9/24/2014

written by kateralia

Anybody here believe in reincarnation or past lives or the zodiac? I know its more common these days to find others who believe in the same, but of course everyone has their own opinion on it.

Anyway, I believe I have had past lives & many times I have been told I am an old soul. One old friend once told me that the zodiac sign that you are born under, says how old your soul is & how many life lessons are still to be learned. Each life you live there is a lesson for your spirit to learn & once you learn that, […]

9/24/2014 16 comments

This is what it took

by alina_01 9/1/2014

written by alina_01

It took 3 months for this day to come. For me to feel sick to my stomach and to realize how badly I have fucked up. I had mentioned before still hooking up with my ex and hoping and then feeling nothing. Well the day is here when he has finally blocked my number and deleted his email address that or blocked me there too. I’m not trying to be childish and stalk him or whatever. I genuinely have something important going on and needed to ask him about it. I don’t usually txt him or even call him for that matter, but now I […]

9/1/2014 1 comment

Walls

by PurebredMutt 5/25/2014

written by PurebredMutt

I’m just thinking and looking for other thoughts on something. The “something” is a quote: “Sometimes you put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” What comes to mind when I read this and mulled it over a bit … typical nonsense Hallmark-esque crap. Maybe it’s just me, though, which is why I hope to hear some different perspectives. It seems childish to “put up walls” just for the sake of finding out who gives a shit, much like “playing hard to get” in dealing with a potential romantic interest. If I’m putting up walls, […]

5/25/2014 2 comments

Emotions.You can’t help but…

by KIRA 4/10/2014

written by KIRA

My mind? I’m intelligent, you’re smart too!, we’re smart.
But our knowledge, sometimes it’s worthless.We know there’s no hope, we know the situation is bad, we know no matter how many times we try it won’t work, we know the things will get even worse.We know.But the feelings…the feelings…we’re almost breathless, crying, slappin’ our own faces, screaming, preparing ourselves, methods already chosen, we got the stuff, almost doing…
But even in a rainy day, when everything is going wrong…I dunno, when I feel certain emotions I completely forget about suicide.When I see something cute, when I hear an inspiring art, when I hear babytalk*, I […]

4/10/2014 1 comment

Last words

by BrooklynBoxx 12/19/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

He called my name

I walked away

Now im wishing i would have stayed

We walk around

Both looking at the ground

Scared to catch the other staring

But we both move on with out a sound

Remember the first night we kissed

I hope im not the only one who misses it..

I’m stupid for still loving you

My hopes are childish like i am

1 year younger, worlds apart

Here i sit with a broken heart

You said you wanted to ask me somthing..

Now im wondering what

But i lost my chance to hear it

By my own stubborness

Forgive me

For loving you

More then you could ever love […]

12/19/2012 4 comments