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Confusion

Conflited Girl

by sbkstep43 3/19/2013

written by sbkstep43

Being a science major in high school …..its hard….i cut but i know im anaemic ……i dont eat even i know i may get an ulcer …i pass out at nights because i am so weak yet still i do this every day …

Enough of my confusion….the next poem name is Words.

Scars around your body

Blood flowing from your heart

to your vein through your skin

Splint in two by the red ***

Bruises internally . each word they said

scars your soul to hate this day

Words of regret, Words of mistakes

Words to make you not want to see another day

Knife to your heart, Blade to your soul

The last breath […]

3/19/2013 2 comments

Lock . . .

by me-inside 3/12/2013

written by me-inside

Lock the key to my heart. Never again will I let my pain start. Its now just healing, no sorrow to show, that love can hurt. But I will grow into the women that I know. Sometimes love will let you go…Hold your breath, forget,forgive. And it will show he’ll miss you dearly when you go. Be the person your happy to be. Until death takes part, when you’ll be let free. Freedom does last, it does show. Everyone has their opinions, so just let it go. Tomorrow is another chance to show to just have fun being me, until ill let go. Sometimes I […]

3/12/2013 0 comment

A really big mix-up

by I.cant.breathe! 3/3/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

okay so I just got on today and realiized that my friend has been using my account so I need to clear some stuff up. my name is jacqueline or jackie and this is MY account, i don’t have cancer. my friend has the same name as me (jacqueline) and she uses my account. she has the cancer which is like heartbreaking. and i just needed to clear that up, I on the otherhand was just realeased from the mental hospital cause of my suicide attempt. i just needed to get that all straitened out. and me and her are still going to share […]

3/3/2013 2 comments

no longer suicidal

by truthbetold 2/15/2013

written by truthbetold

I hadnâ€™t posted in a while .. had to pass by to let yâ€™all know Iâ€™m doing better

Of course, this didnâ€™t happen overnight .. It required commitment to one decision, a lot of willpower and taking action based on that decision

Around mid-october, I took the decision that I wasnâ€™t going to kill myself .. I was tired of thinking life could be worth it one day and to hell with this world the next day, I had to pick a side to put an end to the confusion .. It was one tough decision to make because it went against a burning desire to check […]

2/15/2013 11 comments

I am tired

by bbbaron 2/6/2013

written by bbbaron

I had a long day. It wasn’t horrible, just more of the same… waking up feeling horrible (a little extra bad today), dreading going to work… having to face negativity, Â making mistakes, and feelings of Â incompetence. Â Biting myÂ tongue. Trying to find a balance between politeness, diplomacy, and getting my needs met.

I was very late,Â under prepared, stressed, and embarrassed. No one else seemed to care too much… aside from the usualÂ curiosity and confusion over my poor attitude. I hate looking inept but I am. I am sick, tired, fighting with my head every day… I am so tired. Went to class after work. I couldn’t focus. […]

2/6/2013 13 comments

So, hey.

by eyegoespop 2/3/2013

written by eyegoespop

Hey I’m new to this but there are some things I need to get off my chest. I’m sorry if I offend anyone or just generally upset/piss people off.

So I’ll start from the beginning.
From a very young age I didn’t really have a “normal” family. My parents divorced when I was a few months old so for a couple of years it was just me, my mum and my brother. My dad was always in my life, more so now than he used to be, but still he was around. When I was about two we moved in with my stepdad. He has two sons […]

2/3/2013 2 comments

OuTcAsT

by Nothin2Live4 1/23/2013

written by Nothin2Live4

I’m a product of fucked up rage
Higher masses breed hate and discrimination
Only to further strengthen my cage
They feed the mindless mases lies
These are the screams of the outcast trying for a revolution
Mindless masses bore masscarades of confusion
YOuths lose reality in the game of life
Telling themselves to win one last fight
A fight to take their lives
A fight to whisper in the ear of th e higher masses
In turn they scream of a nation under God needing to arise from the ashes
This is the new holocaust
The outcast are now the ones persecuted
This is not […]

1/23/2013 1 comment

questions in my head

by mihr 1/12/2013

written by mihr

if i leave him will anyone hold me? will i feel love? will i break? will he cheat on me? does he still love me? if i die would there be never ending black and would anyone care? more importantly would he feel guilty? would he feel guilty that he raped me and called me those things or would he be angry and think it was the result of my dad, or any other abuse? why am i still here, why am i with him? if i die heaven will take me anyway despite my sins, maybe hell will consume me and torture […]

1/12/2013 0 comment

Confusion..

by grimlynotperfect 1/11/2013

written by grimlynotperfect

Im so confused beyond belief..

I dont Know how to feel about this situation..sad?angry?hurt?

I feel like i dont want to talk to anyoneÂ not even go to school..

I don’t want to face anyone without you telling me what is wrong..

you were the person i looked forward to seeing..

I messaged you..you dont answer..

you’ve been gone for ages,and im worried..

you see the messages but you dont reply..

I want to know if you’re okay..why you’ve been missing school..

I dont know if you have the same feelings i do for you..but others are telling me you do..

but how can i know when your gone..when you have seemed to disappear..

I guess […]

1/11/2013 0 comment

Strength to Commit Suicide

by adrian.roxas13 12/22/2012

written by adrian.roxas13

Why some people can commit suicide?
Why some people want to commit suicide but can’t do it?

Suicide is really an awful thing to do but the feeling of the person who want to do it
is more awful becuase it is full of pain and suffering. They say too much of anything
is bad for us human beings, too much stress can lead to depression, too much vanity can
lead to anxiety and too much pain can lead to wanting to commit suicide.

We all know that there’s no perfect life. There are a lot of troubles, conflicts and
problems that we will face throughout our […]

12/22/2012 1 comment

My two best friends

by Dawn 11/23/2012

written by Dawn

I can’t stand to see what is going on with both of you. I love you both so much but I’m changing and so much else is changing and I don’t know how to talk to either of you anymore. I don’t know how to help anymore or comfort you. I do love you both and I would do anything to take your pain and confusion, but I can’t…. I’m so sorry. I guess I have to give up… I don’t want to make you feel worse and I can’t make you feel better anymore. I’m sorry. I’m going through stuff too. It’s not as […]

11/23/2012 0 comment

Just some feelings I guess

by Cullydown01 11/5/2012

written by Cullydown01

Hey. I’m 17 and find no happiness in life. I don’t know what else to do so I guess I’m just making a post on here. Uh… I guess it all started when I was a little Kid and my parents got divorced. I don’t know I just always thought of them as the perfect couple. I mean I always had huge suspicions that my mom was cheating on him when I was about six or seven.. turns out she was, but what was I supposed to do? My brother just called me a liar and he got mad whenever I tried talking to him […]

11/5/2012 3 comments

Sometimes silence, can’t be undone;

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

sometimes silence can’t be undone.

I sit quietly and close my eyes.
I hear the world about me whir and buzz from a distance.
TV announcers raising their voices
debating this and that, arguments and choices

I wonder about the relevance
Of the questions of mice and men
inquiries abound, relentless in their prevalence

I grasp at them desperately, floating mid-air.
Always above my head
They fly by, with me unnoticed.

They tell me, that the answers to all my confusion
are just a step ahead, just a wisp away
But always my battles, end with Pyrrhic victories
Losses more than gains, condemned to mere memories

And…just
Just;

Just when I […]

10/31/2012 0 comment

My Desires for the Blue Mermaid

by jamesm0792 9/20/2012

written by jamesm0792

Hello.

I think I’ll start with introducing myself so that, you know who I am and you won’t have to put it all together in confusion.

My name is James, but I like to be called Jamie. It’s more fitting and all of my friends call me that.

I’m 16 and enduring my Junior year of high school, Â so far the hardest year of my life.

There are many things that make me sad, which seems to be the case for most sincere people on this site, so I’ll just break my rant up into parts according to what’s going on.

My Brain

The thoughts that I have are so unorganized, […]

9/20/2012 4 comments

Can I just kill myself?

by midnight 9/20/2012

written by midnight

I can’t take it anymore! All that’s left for me in life is a gun. I’m never going to acomplish anything in life, and even if I do, I won;t even begin to compare with my dear sister’s acomplishments. I don’t see the point in living if all that goes throught my head is depression and confusion. Confusuin to what I am. I know I like other girls, and my friends have accepted that, but am I bi or Lesbian. Bi is one thing, but would they accept lesbian? Not only that, but this is my last year of freedom. I’,m pretty much out at […]

9/20/2012 4 comments

Falling and Broken

by DawnKnight 8/28/2012

written by DawnKnight

Every day I wake up without the woman I love next to me in bed. She left my bed because of some slight that she will not talk to me about. I work hard to supply our family with a good life but it never seems e-nuff for her. We have not made love in almost a year now. She can not work because she has hurt herself at work that was three years ago. So I take on all the overtime to make up the money she does not bring in any more. Then she hit’s me […]

8/28/2012 5 comments

Children of Constant Sorrow

by DogBoy 8/2/2012

written by DogBoy

We are children of constant sorrow living in a fallen world, for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the
rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high place.

“As I walk this land of broken dreams
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
filled with sadness and confusion

What becomes of a brokenhearted
who had love that’s now departed
I know I’ve got to find
some kind of piece of mine, baa-aaaaby

The roots of love grow all around
But for me they come tumble all down
Every day,heartaches grow a little […]

8/2/2012 0 comment

New uderstanding

by balancedhope 7/30/2012

written by balancedhope

I went crazy yesterday.

Â Mom brought home the one who irrates me so. We had an agreement that I would get advanced warning we she was bringing him home. Yesterday she had left a message on my phone. I had be working in the barn and hadn’t had my phone with me.Â There’s a longer story but I ended getting upset and lost my ability to talk and think straight. I tried to contain myself/felt an explosion inside. Ended up mucking up two of my belongings(silently with no audience-it was the best I could do).

Today, he’s back again. Today there was not even a call before. […]

7/30/2012 0 comment

Save me..

by Cassie 7/2/2012

written by Cassie

Save me
But I don’t trust you
Save me
But do I care?

Miles deep is my sea
Filled with hopeless confusion,
Invisible demons,
Dancing to their own wicked tune.

Or at least, that’s how it seems.
I could never begin to describe it to you
This hell, this pain,
Depression so unrelenting

I want nothing of this world,
It wants nothing of me
It’s only demand.. is truly so simple
To live. To love. To breathe

So why does the thought bring tears to my eyes?
Why does the sunrise make me weep?
You say its all worth it in the end
Just try your best to […]

7/2/2012 1 comment

I give up

by so.lost.so.lonely 7/1/2012

written by so.lost.so.lonely

I just can’t do this anymore! Every single day my urge to kill myself gets stronger, all the pain just keeps building up and I can’t take anymore and I break down. I have nothing and no one. The only person who ever understood me passed away a few weeks ago and all I want is to join him. I have been trying so hard for three years to turn my life around but it’s only gotten worse. Every night I cry myself to sleep because I’m scared, scared to wake up the next day to even more pain and confusion. I’m terrified of myself, […]

7/1/2012 1 comment

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