I cut myself for the first time last night. 7 times with a pair of scissors because I didn’t have a razor blade. As much as it pains me to say this, it actually made me feel better.
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I can no longer stand being alone. I have multiple friends…but I feel alone in this world. I feel like I have nothing anymore, even though I am surrounded by things. But no matter what I cannot do it, I cannot end it all.
I have been feeling like this for years now, and i have been cutting for at least 4 years. And I feel like a cannot be a normal person anymore. Everything I do, everything turns to ruin. I cant do anything right! I ruin peoples lifes, for instance, there’s this boy that likes me, allot. And he tells me everyday. But […]
So I’ve struggled with depression for years now. I’d say since I was about 13-14. Middle school was when I first contemplated suicide & it was after my very first boyfriend broke up with me. We didn’t date very long & things never got past first base. I’ve always been an emotional person, letting things get to me that shouldn’t.
Well over the years I’ve had my fair share of boyfriends (back to back really), and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I’ve realized I may have developed some co-dependency issues from the lack of knowing how to be alone. And to this day, guys […]
I finally wrote my suicide letter. It doesn’t say much. I don’t have that much to say, and even if I did no one would care. People don’t see me, people don’t know me. I don’t care anymore, I mostly feel sadness.
Just hoping for a miracle that would stop me from feeling like this.
i told my parents about how i have a girlfriend now… big mistake.,. did not accept it at all.. so what if i like girls and guys?
ugh… worst night ever. and to add to it. my girlfriend dumped me.. so i told my parents for nothing… i tell my friends and theyre all like “you should of waited a month before telling your parents” and im like, wow! cant you just be here for me instead of telling me the things i should of done differently…
i wanted to start being close to my parents.. so i was gunna try.. well im done trying.. my mom […]
I’ve been cutting myself more and more recently and i am becoming addicted to it. At work today all i could think about was getting home for lunch and cutting myself! So thats what i did, on my ankle, Â and it felt so much better! But it hurts like fuck now and every time i walk the wound opens up and starts to bleed again. The worst thing is i like to see the cut, i like to look at it as if it is an achievement or something! I really think i’m becoming addicted! I was convinced to through away my razors so i […]
Just want to say to all who is in hard time at the moment, STAY STRONG, you were born to make a diference in this world.
You are just so much better than those people or things that upset you, who ignoring you, who or what makes you scared… There are people who love you and who DO care for you, they may be near, or you’ll meet them later in your life (you sure will), and they need you. Think about them. Do not be selfish. You are wonderful, beautiful and this world needs you!
Believe in yourself! I DO!
Read some books, look for answers, talk to somebody, look in to yourself, try […]
I guess I didn’t notice I loved you until you held my hand. I didn’t know you loved me until my friend told me what you said. But you don’t know me. You know me….but you really don’t. You think I’m perfect because that’s how I display myself. I make sure I smile and laugh. I make sure not to show any emotion I would regret latter. You just think you love me. You don’t, truth me. Once you find out, you’ll change your mind…they all do.
But if you want to know the truth, fine:
Yes, I do have scars I hide.
No, I’m not the girl […]
Okay, nothing is working. I’m always sad even when I’m happy, I feel empty. I stopped cutting. although it sounded like a good idea, but I can’t not cut. cutting was my way to release the fucking pain I feel inside. and honestly, I want to start smoking again. I want to smoke and just forget about everything. I’m such a failure. my friends don’t want me to smoke cigarettes anymore, but they have no problem trying to pressure me to smoke cigars (no not those big fat ones that mob bosses smoke all the time) where is your logic??
So, my question to you, where […]
I am sick inside. Alone, overwhelmed, confused, and filled with hatred for myself and regret for my life. I should never have been born. I told my dad that once, and he said it was an insult to him and to my mother. The funny thing was, he said it as if he thought it wasn’t meant to be. Well, it was. They were too young for kids when they had me. They were irresponsible, and their own parents were irresponsible. And you can probably trace it all the way back to the Stone Age. Too many people who had no business raising kids. And […]
Someone I’ve loved since the moment I’ve ever talked to them is slipping away. The sad part is I’m letting him. I can’t do anything about him not loving me anymore. I’ve fought for him for 9 months, if not more. I’m done. I can’t keep waiting on him to realize if I’m what he wants or not. I haven’t talked to him since Thursday. He says he cares and would do anything for me but I just don’t know anymore. I don’t know if it was love or lust. Maybe neither Maybe all of it was just a big joke, but I just can’t take it anymore. The […]
I lost my best friend so I feel like throwing myself from a bridge
by magdalena
written by magdalena
I told him I have a feeling for him.
Now he is stepping back and nothing can change his mind.
Well, he does what he has to, I guess.
Things won’t be the same again, no one gonna come pick up when I am drunk, no one will be there to listen to my things anymore.
I lost him, forever.
I feel like throwing myself from a bridge.
I told him I will not doing something stupid but I know I can’t help.
I have no one but me to blame for this, he said feelings are things that can’t be control, he said blame […]
The thought “I don’t want to do this anymore” has been plaguing me. As is my nature, I googled it and this page came up in my search results. Mortified as I was thinking that Google has somehow gained access to my thoughts, I registered.
I am at this very awful space in my life. I have an anxiety disorder, a strange kind because it manifests itself as physical ailments. Because I am constantly sick and my doctors (yes, plural) cannot find a cause for it, I have been labeled a hypochondriac. I have a touch of OCD and when I was younger I was able […]
on the inside i feel sad and empty i feel like i am a walking lifeless soul. i moved out of my own house to live with a friend and too be in a better place yet the cutting continues and my thoughts of suicide continue. My situation is better yet i still do not feel any better. i get bullied at school and i know others are talking about me which is the hard part to deal with but sometimes i wounder if that is why i am still feeling sad. i do not think much of the bulling but it hurts. I stopped […]
I’ve had enough suffering with depression for a while. Now my best friend is going through alot of problems, and i mean ALOT. i need to stay with her and help her through it all, but it kills me. I’m always flashing back to when i was were she is now.. alone, anorexic, crying, cutting, all of it. Now i have to sit here and watch her deal with all of this, and i have to try and help her get better. Shes really stubborn as it is, but shes in denial, she doesnt see whats really going on, and she doesnt see where everyone […]
I cut again for the first time in months. I forgot how good it feels.
I know that is a bad thing but I can’t stop think about how good it feels.
Some time this week, I was planning on cutting my arm really bad and then going to the nurse and counselor about it. What do you guys think would happen? Would they send me straight from school to a psychiatric hospital? Would they just call my parents and have them start taking me to a psychiatrist?
It’s been 10 minutes since I cut last.
Big deal right?
Not.
I promised my boyfriend I wouldn’t cut anymore.
Of course I broke.
I knew I wouldn’t last more than 2 days.
Which,
I was wrong.
I lasted 3.
Hi, my name is Naana, 18 years old
Caution, I may go in different directions at times, most likely due to the fact that I have no idea how to put into format my thoughts correctly. This is my first time ever telling anyone properly, also my first time on here.
I’m stuck between two, whether to live or to choose my death. It all scares me and I question why me? I won’t say I’m not doing this for attention, because deep down I want to know at least someone knew I existed and cared; Knowingly I know I existed for my family, but I can’t […]
I’ve been really thinking about everything that’s happened to be and what might happen to me lately I kinda just want to get everything that’s happened to me out there. I’ve never actually told anyone my whole life story before. I don’t expect this to get me any comments or any views for that matter, I just want to get if off my chest. It kinda explains why I am who I am. Well, I guess I’ll start from the beginning:
When I was 2 months old my mom found out my dad was on some serious drugs. He actually dealt drugs. Every kind you could think of, he had. As soon as […]