I’m alive again, so damned alive I’m crying. It’s so funny how I laughed when I felt my worst, and now I’m crying. When she’s talking to me again. She doesn’t hate me. She’s okay with talking to me. I can fix everything I ever did. I’m not alone anymore. This is incoherent, and maybe it should be. I’m high on life and happiness right now, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Thank God for Sammi, without her I never could have done this. Thank You, Hazy. Thank You, Rocketman. Thank You, Trix. Thank You, SeeSmith. Thank you all for being […]
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Well, hello again. Not completely sure what I want to say to be honest. I guess, firstly, thank you to those who read my last post, and to those who commented, I’m sorry I didn’t reply to any of you. I wanted to but I didn’t feel up to it for some reason. Anyway, yet again I have something I would like to share.
So, my parents went away on some trip for 4 days. My youngest brother and I got to stay home alone, whilst my other brother went to our grandparents. Anyway, my little brother (let’s call him John for now) and I had […]
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbZiSU2YoUI
I found this site while i was searching up ways on how to die on overdose of sleeping pills. I’m so tried of everything and my whole life just isn’t worth fixing or believing in. Everyone else has given up on me already. Or my parents just want me to be an entirely different person than who I really am.
I wrote my suicide note during my lunch period at school, which shows that I have zero friends that I can talk to about this. They try to understand me. But there’s not much to understand.
The truth is that I just don’t give a […]
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So this is going to be long and grammar has never been my strong point. Plus I cracked my screen really bad so it’s hard to type. Maybe getting it out will help, maybe not. Either way I have to try something to help.
I Had a rough childhood starting when I was 6 was when I first remember wanting to die. I never fit in.
Continue on and I never had any friends. Not once did a boy ever show interest in me (even the cute kindergarten crushes). I always felt broken.
When hen I hit puberty I gained a lot of weight and my mom decided […]
Depression
A lifelong companion, you’ve always been there
You have no compassion, you don’t really care
I take a sharp blade, try letting you out
The harder I try, the more tentacles you sprout
If I scream out in anger, will you leave me in peace?
Are you done with me now, please when will it cease?
Too many long years, just existing alone
I didn’t choose this body, but it’s mine to atone
If I call out softly, will you come rest in my soul?
I think I’m now done, with digging my hole
Mike Rowedick
Sorry to bug you guys, but I’m going to share my story real quick.
I’m an 18 year old girl diagnosed with depression and mild OCD. I may or may not be going to therapy soon, as I’m broke and my insurance does not cover it. I’m kind of hanging on for now and I’m not at immediate risk of suicide. But lately it’s been really difficult and I’m honestly surprised I’m still alive. I’ve been taking Lexapro since August, which has helped a little, but I’m still miserable.
As a kid, I never really had friends or family outside of my home. I wasn’t bullied really, […]
First of, I’m new to this I came across this when I was looking for easy ways to die. I see myself as pretty messed up in the head. I had a mental breakdown when I was 17 after suffering horrific abuse and exposure..I was sectioned and before that was told by a nurse that if I had fallen asleep I would of died. I’ve always felt that no one cares about me as I’ve had my own mum tell me I was a mistake and my own nan has told me I was a 2 minute wonder baby. My depression is clinical and can […]
I don’t know what to do. I want to so bad, I want to just quit, but they called me selfish, they called me an attention-seeker and that’s just made it worse. I’m done. I’m giving up, giving in. I don’t care anymore. Why should I care what they say if I’m just going to die anyway? I’ve thought about it for three days now so don’t fucking tell me I can’t.
i just have to remember ill be gone soon enough. i dont have any money so they wont care, just one more person they dont have to worry about. im so fucking stupid i should have done this sooner but i was to scared. when im alone i feel ok, but when im around other people im constantly being reminded that in im a piece of shit. im not worth anything to any one even if i did have a job and alot of money they still wouldnt care about me, its to late. its time to give up now. im still scared but […]
Goodnight sweetie.
Are there any monsters?
Nope.
In the closet?
All clear.
Under my bed?
Empty.
In my head?
Of course.
They want me dead.
I know.
Am I bad?
Of course not.
Then why am I sad?
Because.
Because what?
I don’t have an answer hon.
Well I’m all done.
Done with what?
The battle is over, the monsters won.
What do you mean?
They’ve already killed who I was.
Im quite , i hear them talking & laughing wishing i was able to do the same , but i cant im afraid . They talk louder i try to quite down the voices in my head so i can listen i hear them talking about a video they watched of this girl that attempted suicide & they were dying in laughter saying shes stupid and why would she do that its all for attention but honestly its not . Thats been said to me & all i could do is stay quite because noone listens to me anyway , if it was for attention […]
Hello loves! Here is your positive post challenge of the day…it’s simple, but in my opinion, very powerful. Compliment yourself. Look yourself straight in the eye and tell yourself that you are strong, courageous, beautiful, etc. Then, after you have done that, compliment someone else. It could be a loved one, your pet, a stranger, anyone. Good Luck 🙂
I have been researching suicide for many years and you get the usual shoot yourself, jump in front of train or suffocation etc etc etc, however starvation is one that’s new to me and one a can totally get on board with.
I have tried suicide methods before and taken a lot of methods into consideration before shooting them down . For example my ideal method would be to shoot myself but I just don’t know the kind of criminal people that would provide me with such a thing. I’ve taken the train into consideration but my local train station is an end point no trains […]
Someone I love nearly died a week ago from today. I had a person that I developed a friendship with the past year and a half. They helped me out a lot, and quite honestly they surprised me. But when I was in the emergency room and I called them and texted them that I needed them I got no answer. They never bothered to see how I was doing or what had happened. But they had the time to get on social media but couldn’t bother to reply to me. I almost lost someone I loved and I was alone there was no one […]
I’ve made a post a few days ago about my problem. I don’t know if it’s possible to view someone’s posts, but you are free to see my previous post if it’s possible if you want to know what my problem is. It’s loneliness, in a nutshell. A lot of the replies were indeed encouraging, especially those from people who could relate. My problem is that I’ve never even had a chance to be with a girl. I’m extremely shy and it took me 21 years to be able to just talk to girls, and now I lack the experience necessary to find a girlfriend, that’s […]
Its the end of the line for me Ive run out of time and bleed from my soul my heart has grown cold from the the things I have done singularity is me, alone, one.
This culmination of events is my ruination, my decent. Into darkness I fall as the devil calls. I will burn for this, I deserve this.
I’ve done so many drugs the past couple months I don’t even know what’s going on anymore.thing is I think I replaced cutting with doing all these drugs. I don’t know which is better
This is it… I’m done with pretending, I’m done with false allegations, lies that intend only to harm me. I have almost come to a sort of peace with death, that this is maybe a way to expediate the inevitable. I was born pure but was broken early, broken over and over until there was no possible recovery.
Death is my recovery. I know it’s time. The crying and pain has lessened and a sense of calm has washed over me. I feel so ready and sure. It is the most sure I have ever felt about anything in my life.
The planning stage is complete. I […]