I have made the decision, again. Not tonight, but soon. Somehow it beings me calmness, knowing it will all be over soon. I think of the people I run into – friends, coworkers, acquaintances, strangers – and how these will be my last interactions.
I am tired of struggling. I am no slave but I don’t feel free. I’ve struggled for so long and I don’t want to fight anymore. Strangely this brings me some peace… I have stopped crying for hours. Instead I am calm and calculating. The tears may come back but for now, I am holding on to my secret like a companion, […]