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Imperfection

by mylifeisamess 10/6/2016

written by mylifeisamess

Imperfection

What is perfect to me?

I always thought that being a perfect person was to one, just be skinny. That was the main point, to be skinny. Everyone loves skinny girls, right? No one loves fat, but apparently that’s all I have. That’s my blanket around my bones.

I look at my reflection every single day and just examined myself, and my flaws. I stare at how my hips are wide and how fat covers every inch, also on how my shoulders are wide and broad. I look at my small breast and my fat thighs. […]

10/6/2016 11 comments

This just doesn’t feel worth it anymore

by moniquec 8/22/2016

written by moniquec

I’m old now. I wasted my youth being too scared to go out and have fun. Instead i worked at a crappy department store using my money to help my family out of endless drama until I was thinking about killing myself every day. So I re enrolled in college with big plans to be a art teacher. Today I failed the $90 Praxis exam for the 4th time. I was not even close. I’ve missed the deadline to be screened into the education program again and will have to wait another year. This is the only thing I’ve ever tried to to for myself, […]

8/22/2016 4 comments

I don’t understand

by Ashley 5/26/2016

written by Ashley

Why me? Why do I have to be that one person who is the friend that could go missing and NOBODY would notice or care? Why is my bestfriend so much better than me? Why do I have to be ugly? Why do I have to be FAT? I workout so much, for no results. Why don’t I have any good qualities???

WHY?

5/26/2016 4 comments

READ THIS POST

by Papermoon 5/2/2016

written by Papermoon

You’re most likely wondering why I so boldly asked for you to read this post. Well, I did so because I have something to say that I believe will benefit you, no matter if this site applies to you or not.

I’ve had an unbelievable amount of personal experiences in my life that in reality could have shattered me from the start but instead, here I am writing this […]

5/2/2016 4 comments

Protected: You can never seem to win.

by whiskered-fish 11/29/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/29/2015 10 comments

Please help me

by unhappylife 6/23/2015

written by unhappylife

Recently I’ve been getting bullied and I have been cutting.
I want to kill myself but, every time I try I just think about my family and friends and how it will reflect on them.
I don’t know what to do because I’m only 12, could anyone please give me some suggestions.
I went and saw a councillor and I have told my mum but, to be honest it hasn’t made any difference.
I also reported the guy to the school but, still no different.
It all started by him going out with me then dumping me for someone else. Then one of his best […]

6/23/2015 3 comments

Skinny

by Weigh2Go 5/20/2015

written by Weigh2Go

I want to kill myself. I think that if I was skinnier I wouldn’t wanna die anymore. I have always had the goal to make it to the size 0 jeans. I don’t see it ever happening. I am too fat. I don’t have enough willpower. I wish things were easier for me and I could just drop 2 sizes. I wanna be skinny. I wanna be Skinner more then I want anything in the world. I am not okay. I’m also not thin enough to have an eating disorder so I don’t know what I am doing. I have been like this since I […]

5/20/2015 2 comments

Unfixable

by Doesnotmatter 4/26/2015

written by Doesnotmatter

My problems are not fixable. I used to always believe that if life became untenable, one could just “run away.” If you’re really at the point of ending it, why not try escaping it, first? But now I see “no matter where you go, there you are.” My body has failed me. My health is unmanageable. Doctors have failed me. The entire medical profession has failed me (and yes, I know that sounds hyperbolic, but sometimes hyperbole is the only refuge).

A failed hysterectomy… a surgical “accident”… a booboo… an “uh oh, it slipped… shit happens…” has left my life in shambles, and as the problems […]

4/26/2015 2 comments

Bulimic Head Case

by donttrytofixme 11/5/2014

written by donttrytofixme

I’m bulimic. Yes I use laxatives, enemas, diuretics, I self induce vomiting and I binge on food. So what! I’m so sick and tired of everyone making it in to a big deal saying I don’t need to lose weight that I’m not fat I am they are just trying to keep me fat so they feel better about there below par bodies. Its not my fault they are determined to drop weight. And I’m sick of them trying to “warn me” that it would kill me. If I wanted to live FAT then yea I would stop but no I want to be perfect. I wan to […]

11/5/2014 3 comments

Polluted.

by Alex 11/2/2014

written by Alex

I’m slowly coming to honest terms with myself; that despite all the effort, I can’t fix this whole thing. This weight problem. It drags me down both physically and figuratively. I feel cross with myself all the time: why can’t I successfully diet? Why can’t I stick to a plan religiously? The universe doesn’t want me to be happy, and I’m not going to fight back anymore. It’s sickening, how polluted my mind is. Fat. Food. Carbs. Weight. Fat. Not good enough. Disgusting. I don’t know how much longer before wanting to die becomes needing to die. I can’t fucking wait for […]

11/2/2014 2 comments

Pills

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone […]

10/8/2014 9 comments

Hiding scars

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]

10/8/2014 6 comments

i just think I’m fat ??

by {{ stay strong }} 8/26/2014

written by {{ stay strong }}

i just think I’m fat,but too much of a wimp to not eat at all.

8/26/2014 3 comments

Do i even deserve to live

by LonleyAphrodite 8/4/2014

written by LonleyAphrodite

Ok first off, yes I’m fat. But being told from a guy that your fat, useless and ugly really hurts. I’ve been called down all my life by my mom and other family member, people at school . There’s not a lot I can take in life. I’m very self conscious. I think about my image all the time. I’ve never felt like this until I started getting called down. I never thought I was ‘fat’ I knew I had a little more weight then skinny people, but I’m not extremely fat. I just have a little extra meat. Now I think if myself as […]

8/4/2014 23 comments

When I’m at the edge..

by Depressedgirl14 5/26/2014

written by Depressedgirl14

Hello. I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to die, but there always is something that stops me. I’m useless, worthless, good for nothing, stupid, ugly and fat, fat, FAT. People are really harsh on me. They even told me to go die. At the very moment i have already cut about 20 times. My parrents know about my cutting addiction, but they don’t give a fuck. I want to torture myself untill I die,but that isno longer enough for me. If anyone knows any good ways to leave this world or help me overcome this shit, please. I beg you! Help!

5/26/2014 0 comment

Lonely

by lonelygirl0225 3/23/2014

written by lonelygirl0225

I feel so alone. It’s like IÂ have the perfect boyfriend, friends and family. So why do I consistently feel this urge to harm myself. It’s been 6 months since I’ve cut and smoked. So why do I still feel this way. Why can’t the thoughts disappear. I want it all to end. I don’t always want to cut myself. I want to stop being so tired and sad all the time. I hate it. I hate myself. I’m not skinny enough or pretty enough. I just want to feel okay again.

3/23/2014 4 comments

im just……..nothing

by Ashley 2/18/2014

written by Ashley

Breathe me- Sia

I dont know how or why im still alive. I have no use here. Im a stupid worthless piece of shit and noone cares. Im never good enough for anyone. NEVER! and i never will be. because ill always be who i am and i cant change that. but i can change whether im here or not. I dont understand how ive held on this long. Its crazy, all the crap i put up with. But then again, here i go being selfish. There are people who put up with alot more. i dont have it that bad, im just a whiny […]

2/18/2014 2 comments

Nothing can make me happy…

by lahuesera 3/12/2013

written by lahuesera

Lots of things had happened and all they turned me into stupid depressed teenager. I used to cope with the problems and I was fine, but now things are worse. Nothing can make me happy. I have only one real friend but although he tries to make me happier, he can’t. The others laugh at me, tell me I’m fat, stupid, ugly, idiot, etc. My family doesn’t understand me. They thing I’m ok, but I’m not. I just can cope with all my problems. I tried to stop self-harming, but I couldn’t. I didn’t eat for days, but I got ill and it didn’t help. […]

3/12/2013 2 comments

by kansasshearer 2/3/2013

written by kansasshearer

Anorexia.

Am I really fat?

Or is that just ED?

Body Image.

Am I really ugly?

Or is that just in my head?

Self Harm.

Cutting is always on my mind.

I know it’s bad, but I can’t stop.

Help.

I try to tell others to be strong.

Meanwhile, I’m breaking down.

Death.

I enjoy watching strangers beingÂ tortured.

I’m sick in the brain.

These are the reasons why I am insane.

Recovery.

Everyday is a struggle.

Must not turn back. I’m too strong now!

2/3/2013 0 comment

I Dont Want To Feel Ugly Anymore

by BrooklynBoxx 12/8/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

I don’t wanna wake up in the morning and look in the mirror to find another revolting reflection.

I dont want to have to change seveen times because i look unattractive in over half of my cloths.

I dont wanna be afraid to wear a bikini anymore.

I dont wanna worry about if i rain out of make up because if i didnt wear it i’d look disgusting.

I dont wanna constantly feel the need to look in the mirror not out of vain, but to make sure i look […]

12/8/2012 4 comments

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