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Fear

Fear of Reality

by thehusk 12/7/2015

written by thehusk

The way I perceive reality is troubling. I don’t know if it’s that I have an unrealistically bleak outlook, or that I’m too emotionally weak to accept the truth. But it’s hard to get my head around.

It seems to me that humans are evolved to seek advantage in whatever way we can. We find our place within the social structure, and then develop ways of pursuing power and status. These ways can be hugely diverse and obscure, but what links them all is some demonstration of fitness. Maybe we cultivate our appearance. Our sense of humour. Athletic prowess. Our knowledge. Or our artistic talent. Our […]

12/7/2015 1 comment

I’m Trying

by followthesun 10/6/2015

written by followthesun

You know I’ve realized something

The more I think I’m bettering everyone else off, the more damage I do

For myself, but mostly others

They never get to feel what I feel

They never get to experience the love I have for them

I keep distorting everything I think life is supposed to be full of

And in order for my love to be shared I have to be here

I’m loving no one if I decide to leave

As badly as I feel, and as much as I believe the world won’t notice my absence, I won’t leave here until all my love is […]

10/6/2015 2 comments

trying to keep up the fight

by v.c.333 9/24/2015

written by v.c.333

https://youtu.be/JGOY2ZHIRks

9/24/2015 2 comments

..!

by mranony 7/19/2015

written by mranony

I have nights when there’s this sudden visit of fear. I’ll cry my eyes out. Shaking. Wanting to call out for help but can not. Then it’ll suddenly stop but it’ll leave me staring into nothingness. Just blank. Then I’ll either fall asleep or stay awake all night thinking of things. I have an idea what is this fear called but I can not say it out loud because I feel ashamed of it. For fearing it.

7/19/2015 5 comments

Years later.. The pain is worse

by xXBloodyRoseXx 7/7/2015

written by xXBloodyRoseXx

It’s been about 5 years since I’ve been on this site. 5 long, long years..

I thought things were good, that everything was going to be okay. That it was okay, I made it through the hard part and I could live a happy life now. . . But I was sadly mistaken. . . The pain from five years ago, was only the beginning. . .

I left New York, shortly after I graduated high school. To be honest I thought it was a miracle I made it out of that hell hole. Senior year was pretty good I must say, made Honor roll and was […]

7/7/2015 6 comments

Fear

by Black_Heart2001 7/5/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

They once told me that when every human is born, they are afraid of death. That our natural instincts tell us to live. For some reason, I was born different. From as far back as I could remember, I was never afraid of dying. When I was young, if a car was racing towards me, I would calmly step out of the way without ever feeling anything. If I was in the ocean and I couldn’t stay afloat, I would simply think about how my life didn’t matter anyway. But as I grew, that indifference to life and death morphed into something different. It changed […]

7/5/2015 4 comments

Fear

by Ariadne_Minos 6/25/2015

written by Ariadne_Minos

I wouldn’t be here if I wasn’t so terrified

I would have left long ago

But I am scared

I am scared of what waits for me

Who is right

Or are my nightmares real

And that’s what waits

6/25/2015 1 comment

Torn apart, picking up the pieces that fall shortly after.

by M00n 6/20/2015

written by M00n

Hi, I don’t really know what to say, I feel like I’m going insane and more suicidal every day, No one to talk to, No one to lean on for help… It is now summer after finishing my exams which went horrible. My parents said if I failed them I would have my phone taken from me. I tried my best I really did, During the exams I tried my best but felt so anxious and paranoid during sitting the exams and when I went out for a break for lunch I would feel much happier, no one staring at me no more twitching due […]

6/20/2015 2 comments

Anyone Else…?

by StupidUsername 5/21/2015

written by StupidUsername

For the people who have anxiety/panic attacks;

Does anyone else feel like they are just being dramatic when they have a panic attack or get anxious? Like you are making the feeling up and it is actually nothing even if you know it really is something? Is anyone else told to,” stop being a drama queen,” Or,” …and don’t give me that anxiety or panic attack crap..” or anything else like that?

I have a fear that I am just being dramatic when I feel depressed or panicky. Because of this, I feel like I have to deal with my panic attacks alone. Which is why I […]

5/21/2015 16 comments

by wolflit 5/15/2015

written by wolflit

OK, so I really need to just talk. This isn’t a suicide note or me asking for help to die, it’s just that my emotions are overwhelming and I need to get them out. Lately I’ve been terrified and scared and anxious. This post is going to get a little out there, but…..I am a survivor of every type of abuse with the exclusion of incest. I recently started having massive trouble with PTSD. I’ve also recently been diagnosed with bipolar depression. I am massively into BDSM. So much so that I have a Master and I am a slave. My Master doesn’t know I’m […]

5/15/2015 3 comments

Fear

by thehusk 4/29/2015

written by thehusk

My life is defined by fear. What am I afraid of? That I will never feel happy, peaceful, or content. That I will never experience love, or form any kind of real connection with another person. That I will never see this world, or my life, as truly meaningful.

Why do I fear these things? Experience. It’s been so many years since I felt ok with reality. Since I got a good nights sleep. Since I had a good day. I can’t imagine anything that would make this life seem ok. I can’t imagine anyone ever being able to accept me as I truly am (pathetic, […]

4/29/2015 1 comment

Carelessness

by permanent slumber 4/13/2015

written by permanent slumber

For all of my teenage years, I’ve been bullied, hated and downright depressed.

I am 19 now and have already lost all reasons for me to be on this planet. The only thing that was giving me any sense of purpose left me a couple of days ago, my girlfriend. However, this feeling has been going on for a much longer time. Only now do I wish I was killed by something.

So here I am walking around simply not caring if I were to be alive tomorrow or not. I have no job, I had been fired from my last one with no reason at all, […]

4/13/2015 4 comments

Life is not fair / unfair. there is always winners & losers. I’m a loser, so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?

by niki 12/17/2014

written by niki

Life is not fair.
Life is unfair.

there is always winners & losers.
there will always be winner & loser.
so why can’t I / losers just commit suicide?
rather than they keep living chasing & fixing all their way too many losses, which is probably too late anyway too.
and usually losers can’t win / can never win against winners anyway .. even the “start” is already too late!!

This is the harsh truth / fact / reality .

Reality / Real life / Real world is very LIMITING / LIMITED in what we can & can’t do !
We are limited by money […]

12/17/2014 1 comment

Imagination better than reality? Why Imagination is better than reality? Why is Imagination better than reality?

by niki 12/12/2014

written by niki

Why Imagination is better than reality?
Why is Imagination better than reality?
Why is fantasy better than reality? Why fantasy is better than reality?

What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.

for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Interstellar, etc etc, they are much more interesting, full of POSSIBILITIES & varieties / variations, and better than reality / BORING reality […]

12/12/2014 13 comments

Fear

by IndigoMasquerade 12/6/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

It doesn’t matter how many jobs I’ve applied to, or how many interviews I have attended in the past three weeks. I don’t have a job yet (yes, I’ve researched and rehearsed and planned a lot of interview questions and first impressions) and I won’t in time. My car note, my father’s birthday, Christmas, and rent….and I have zero, and I somehow am even failing to sell anything but one single textbook, which was only $50 that went towards my car note. I’m very scared. Especially since losing my car means I have no way of getting to jobs.

12/6/2014 2 comments

Why?

by CalmPanda 11/24/2014

written by CalmPanda

I don’t understand why these thoughts wont ever leave me head, its seems as if no matter what I do I’m never good enough for anyone or I’m overly selfish.

The fact of the matter is I am not. I always go with the flow and do what everyone else wants to do, and they always seem so happy. Its not fair its like no matter what I do I’m not happy.

Its gotten to the point where I’ve been overly abusing LSD so that I can actually get that euphoric happy feeling but it never stays for more than the high lasts.

The other drugs don’t work, I’m […]

11/24/2014 9 comments

There is no Neverland.

by Nevereverland 11/1/2014

written by Nevereverland

I am a diagnosed bipolar, twenty year old girl. And maybe it is just the depression talking. But I am so lost and I’m so on my own. I’m scared.

Fear is my biggest problem. Im so scared of everything. Scared to be on my own. Scared to run. Scared to hide. Scared to fly incase I fall. Scared to risk it all. Scared to die.

To die would be an awfully big adventure.
I’ve sat on my bed on days when I’m all alone in the house. I’ve taken pills, washed them down with vodka. But as soon as it started to hurt i made myself […]

11/1/2014 5 comments

Reality sucks, Reality suck, Reality boring, I hate Reality, boring Reality, Reality is boring !

by niki 10/23/2014

written by niki

Reality is boring & LIMITED !! I hate Reality ! boring Reality !
Real life is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real life ! boring real life !
Real world is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real world ! boring real world !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, […]

10/23/2014 6 comments

Fear

by Not-Important 10/16/2014

written by Not-Important

Have you ever wanted to die, like, it’s all I really have ever wanted. Hell the first time I tried to kill myself I was 8. But no matter what I can’t because of my family, because I’m scared to death of hurting them. Even though they’re the ones who kicked me out because I called them out on stealing hundreds from me, the people who abused me and beat me no matter how much I cried, the people who screamed how useless, lazy and worthless I was in front of Everyone I knew when I was in 4th grade because I got a D. […]

10/16/2014 2 comments

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