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Floating in between

by anotherfailure 7/20/2015

written by anotherfailure

I am a 16 year old girl (will be 17 in 2 days), and well, what can i say, i am depressed and have suicidal tendencies.

Though i probably have everything, perfect scores, bunch of friends, money, and complete family, i feel this emptiness inside me. Every single day i know and i feel that something is eating away my hope inside me. I dont have the spark in my eyes anymore. I’d cry my eyes out until i fall asleep, i overthink it kills me, and i am highly emotional. I get angry and sad in a matter of seconds.

Perfect scores doesnt mean im happy. […]

7/20/2015 12 comments

My demons are permanent

by LonelyVoice 7/20/2015

written by LonelyVoice

Where do I begin with the shit excuse of a life I have to live? Where do I not begin? Well, my problems aren’t temporary…at least not all of them. It’s not something that some simple exercise can get rid of or basic makeup. It’s…hard to explain but it makes me wish my problems could just consist of being “fat” or having been molested, being poor, or whatever temporary pain someone is going through. Because in my opinion those are things you can overcome. They are permanent and you can make a change. What I go through everyday has been going on for years.

I’m 20 […]

7/20/2015 2 comments

im confused !!! HELP!!!

by thunder2015 7/20/2015

written by thunder2015

i have cut for along time but my boyfriend is starting to get on me about why? how come i wanna die? i know that i feel fat nasty gross annoying! i feel like im always in the way! life is kicking me in the butt!! i grew up at a young age and i had to always be strong but now i dont sleep at night!! i feel alone all the time! but i dont wanna talk to people about my issues because i feel that they are stupid and i shouldnt be freaking about them! i dont know how to feel! can i […]

7/20/2015 0 comment

by LostNConfused 7/18/2015

written by LostNConfused

I’ve never posted anything about my depression online for everyone to see. Hell, I’ve never even told anyone about it for fear they’ll look at me differently. Anyway, here goes. I’m eighteen years old and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think of killing myself. The worst part is, there’s not just one reason or a specific traumatic event I can blame it on. Honestly, my issues don’t seem half as bad as the majority and I know I should be thankful and appreciative but I can’t. I’m just sad. All the fucking time. I used to think it was because my […]

7/18/2015 4 comments

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by Rotted_Flesh 7/17/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

nothing

7/17/2015 0 comment

Crashing Hard

by kills 7/16/2015

written by kills

Fuck man I’m feeling death take over my soul minute by minute today. Feel so weak. Agh goddamn. I should be past this. I should be this and should be that. I should’ve never been born. This life man – all its been is pain. What a ***** of a life. I wish i knew who or what I was in a past life so i could channel that identity’s strength into this one. Fuck.

7/16/2015 25 comments

Temporary

by persephone 7/15/2015

written by persephone

Ever notice how everything is temporary.? Love, LIFE, happines etc… But depression, depression is forever it seems like. I wish it was temporary. I wish it was as easy to end depression as it is to end happiness. Depression will always be with me, and it sucks to know that. Because I am alone, even with so many people around I am alone. So I ask myself since everything is temporary what’s wrong with ending it early.? Then what would they all do.? Bury me and griev temporarily.. but my soul is will feel nothing, and I’d much rather feel numb, feel nothing at all […]

7/15/2015 0 comment

A little something that helps me.

by Aguy14 7/14/2015

written by Aguy14

I started smoking cigarettes a few months back and found myself becoming addicted to nicotine (as you’d expect). I find that giving in to the addiction helps, when you’re craving something and you get it you tend to feel better, even if just for a short time. The idea is based around something I saw in trainspotting, the main character says that when you’re on heroin all you worry about is scoring and when you’re off it you start to worry about a whole lot of other things. I know there is a great difference between a heroin addiction and a nicotine one but they […]

7/14/2015 4 comments

A War Inside…

by theunknownxx 7/14/2015

written by theunknownxx

I’m struggle to let the real me be free and not be this person who I am now that is consumed with anger and resentment, negativity, and ignorance. I’m trying hard to be a better person, I want to be kind to others and be nicer to my parents, but it’s hard when people around me treat me poorly and when my parents don’t respect me and put me down. How am I suppose to be the person I want to be when I’m surrounded by negativity, judgements, and downers? I feel like taking my antidepressants again, even though they make me feel like […]

7/14/2015 4 comments

by hiitsme0819 7/13/2015

written by hiitsme0819

i still dream about you every time i fall asleep i never imagined pleasant dreams could feel like nightmares but no matter how hard i try i cant stay awake forever i lose a little more of myself every time i wake up

7/13/2015 0 comment

The stresses of being different.

by alonelybird 7/13/2015

written by alonelybird

Everyone always gives me such weird looks whenever I talk or do something. I just say stuff, it’s a constant stream of shit. All because of my anxiety, talking just saying anything is a coping mechanism. People think I’m fucked in the head and they’re right. My actions are also mainly from anxiety, me constantly freaking out and just doing/saying different things because I don’t know any other way to cope except for drugs and self-harm and they’re probably not too good(?). I think I’m gonna flip out tomorrow, I can feel it, it’s not going to be a good day. I kinda feel like […]

7/13/2015 7 comments

why am I still here

by _13lostallhope_ 7/12/2015

written by _13lostallhope_

Never used a website like this before but I feel like it’s the only way I can express myself without people worrying and thinking I’m crazy. I just feel so hopeless and worthless all the time. My bestfriend committed suicide in September 2009 at age 13 and in December 2014 my friend from school also committed suicide at age 15. I have attempted suicide twice, both by overdosing but failed both times. There was a time I loaded a gun and put it to my head but I couldn’t pull the trigger. I’m only 17 years old but I really just don’t feel like I […]

7/12/2015 6 comments

from finland

by finnishguy 7/12/2015

written by finnishguy

Hi, i’m guy from finland and i’m 17 years old. I wanted to tell someone about how i feel, but i dont have any good friends to tell about them and then i find this page. I hope this will help me keep going on because i have no idea what i’ll do with my suicidial thoughts.

I have lied to all of my closest friends and my family and now i think i should tell them about it but if i tell i dont know what will happend between me and them. I Think that telling about it will make my life harder and i’m […]

7/12/2015 6 comments

Anger

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 7/12/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

I guess I’m just angry about the fact that I feel like no-one cares about me. The people that I feel are my friends make me feel worthless. Even my best friend, who is the nicest person in the world, makes me feel like shit sometimes.
My mum is really strict, so I’m not allowed Facebook, or any kind of social media at all, so I find it hard to keep in contact with my friends. And none of them bother to keep in contact with me.
Before my best friend got Facebook, my other friends would still try and talk to me, to let […]

7/12/2015 3 comments

so here I am…

by sulger 7/12/2015

written by sulger

…lying in my bed, thinking about life. Thinking about people i care when it suddenly hits me. I care for no one. how can that be? how come there is not one person that i can talk to, that i can love and trust? i feel alone in this world like i do not belong here. That is why i made this account on this page where there are people like me. People that understand, unlike my friends. I guess Im just hoping to meet a person that understands, a person i can talk to. A person that has the same problems. I know my […]

7/12/2015 0 comment

by HRS 7/12/2015

written by HRS

I’ve been eating the pain away, trying to lose the weight of all the hate. Is it normal for feeling sadness ever since I was 8?, sorry I’m not a tank. Ain’t no pill going to stop the wait. Molded into the wrong traits, but I still have faith inside my little gate. My lake is filled up with too many fakes; I try to shake but I always will take the bait. I dream to feel happiness so no such thing as a good wake. I try to be cool, I try to be funny, I try to be smart, I try to be […]

7/12/2015 2 comments

Is Happiness A Medicore Sin?

by theunknownxx 7/12/2015

written by theunknownxx

I’m confused on what’s going on, my dad gets mad at me for wearing makeup, my mom gets mad at me for the clothes I wear (skinny jeans and sweaters) she gets mad at me for the way I do my hair (straighten or curl) I do these things Becuase it makes me feel confident on who I am but to my parents, they put me down about it, they say my hair looks gross and that my makeup sucks and that I would be prettier if I wore dresses…is pleasing myself bad for them??

7/12/2015 2 comments

Burden-esque

by AarinaDaae 7/12/2015

written by AarinaDaae

No matter where I say it, I always feel like i’m lugging a 75 lb weight and handing it to the people I talk to about my depression. I always feel like I’m a burden and so starts the vicious circle of bottling feelings, exploding, and a months worth of nights where I may not wake or go to sleep at all.

7/12/2015 1 comment

I know something you don’t know.

by sickfromthemelt 7/10/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

Get over it.

Oh… well then, that changes EVERYTHING -_-

Why does everyone say that?

I’m not pissed because my team lost or some shit, I’m pissed because I want to fucking die, you asshole.

Yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when my employer fires me for no reason and rips me off, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when some immature prick threatens to kill me on the street, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when you insult me and everything about me, yes, I’m allowed to hold a grudge when someone breaks my heart completely and leaves me unable to […]

7/10/2015 7 comments

Colouring Beyond The Lines

by boldfront 7/10/2015

written by boldfront

I’m taking a step forward.

The past few years have been rough on me. I’m nineteen, I go to college like any normal student, I have friends, I have a family. Every single person in my life are important to me, and I know they care about me even if they don’t usually show it.

Though I’m so tired of what they’ve been hiding. I’ve been a good friend, I know I have. I don’t talk about anyone behind their backs and people learn to trust me. I joke around, I make my friends laugh, I make them smile, and I’m serious when I need […]

7/10/2015 6 comments

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