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I think about You

by Roars Kilde 10/21/2014

written by Roars Kilde

This is for You
Because you should know you matter to me, even if it doesn’t matter to you.
What might be missing, and that’s likely a lot, is not a reflection on You, and is just the lack of my skills to put thoughts into words.
After all how could I ever be able to adequately explain how much you mean to me

I see you.
You’re hiding in plain sight, because you think no one will or can see you. How you shrug when someone moves to close. You sob under your breath, thinking no one will bother to notice. The dried up lines, […]

10/21/2014 3 comments

I Hate The White

by Roars Kilde 10/20/2014

written by Roars Kilde

Why did they choose white.
I can’t even sit in a new, freshly “neutral” white painted. apartment for 5 minutes, without the greatest feeling of discomfort anymore.
Hospitals, Institutions, Doctors, Lights, all rooms and hallways, even the freaking beds and gowns and the stupid little wristbands…

Waking up, and the first thing you see is that awful white ceiling, blinking your eyes just to make sure it’s real, because it’s not the ceiling you saw when you closed your eyes. A slight panic might creep up, how can that be?, “where am I?”
Turning your head around, just to pan over more of the white, walls, […]

10/20/2014 4 comments

My Suicide Note. If this works, see you on the flip side.

by AnonKun 10/20/2014

written by AnonKun

Goodbye, From AnonKun (I have replaced my real name with AnonKun whenever it appears)
I am very aware that many readers of this note may be surprised upon discovering it that I committed suicide. Please know that this was not a spur of the moment decision. This is not a decision I made lightly, or one that was imposed on me by people, society, or circumstance. This is a painful decision I made after years of on and off suffering with no logical conclusion or end in sight.
To address what is likely the most immediate question, I will explain why I chose to take […]

10/20/2014 37 comments

abused

by Angeleyes42 10/20/2014

written by Angeleyes42

I just don’t feel happy anymore the last time I remember being happy was Friday morning for about 30 seconds. My roommate is being verbally abusive and I go to bed every night and wake up every morning depressed. I want to change rooms but the other people don’t have a roommate cuz they left so something has to be wrong with them. My roommate tells me I have no butt or boobs, I’m scared to get dressed cuz shes gonna find something wrong with my body. You might say that i don’t need to care what she thinks but I’ve struggled with body image […]

10/20/2014 2 comments

Back home

by anaboyred24 10/20/2014

written by anaboyred24

After spending 4 weeks on a Psychiatric unit/ward I don’t feel much better then I did before I went in, feel a wee bit better but not much.

I really don’t know what I’m going to do with myself I still want to die but at the same time I want to get better, As anyone fellt these emotions at the same time before? I feel that it’s too late for me I car’t see my life with out depression and psychosis.

I see all the people that are fighting for their lives with cancer or other terminal illnesses, And who wants to live. Then they […]

10/20/2014 2 comments

by grm14 10/20/2014

written by grm14

I know as a parent you should never just want to kill yourself because it’s selfish but I feel as a parent it would be better for my 5 week old daughter. I’m 18 and I’m alone . The boy that I was supposed to marry cheated on me so I broke up and for a while we lived in the same town and despite the fact he cheated on me physically abused me while I was pregnant with her and emotionally abused me I wanted to work it out for her and then he would call me high and drunk and stalk me and […]

10/20/2014 11 comments

feelings

by Eyeore 10/19/2014

written by Eyeore

Will the feeling of hopelessness ever go away?. Will I ever feel or just even be normal again?. Why do i still have suicide thaughts even though i went through all this counselling seeing all the dr’s even being on meds for almost 2 years freaken….. i am so messed up

10/19/2014 4 comments

Who Cares?

by No12run2 10/19/2014

written by No12run2

Life is death my loves and as soon as you embrace that, you’ll know that your freedom is in death. The will to live and the will to die are both in the same. Choosing to die is the bravest thing one has ever chosen. No need to fit in the masses or walk with the herd. Knowing that you only exist because you want to and you can be gone when you want to is true liberation and beauty. Those who try to stop you are seeking validation and a divine purpose. Your death is a choice, your life is a choice. Don’t be […]

10/19/2014 5 comments

Thirty years of pain

by teacherlady 10/17/2014

written by teacherlady

All my life I’ve struggled against the pain. I’ve wondered what was wrong with me. I’ve carried the demon around for so long I almost forget that other people don’t. I first felt truly suicidal when I was 8 years old. I hated life so much. I don’t think I realized people liked and loved me because I felt so worthless on the inside. We moved when I was 10, and I thought geography would cure me. The pain only got worse with puberty. I even wrote a story about committing suicide, but the school never addressed it.

In 9th grade, a friend died in a […]

10/17/2014 1 comment

babbler

by chaos13.4 10/17/2014

written by chaos13.4

I want it to end, I want to feel relief. Its funny who one sweet word from that someone can make us feel alive again , and who easily they can take it from us. I can’t take my own life, even if I wanted it so bad.. I’m religious , I’m afraid from God.. from hell, but also.. I’m afraid to die before I have my first kiss, my first romantic hug, before I know how it feel to be the special person to someone […]

10/17/2014 2 comments

The white dress

by lissbabe 10/16/2014

written by lissbabe

When you dream of you cutting your arms and their never going to stop bleeding and then you step into that bath filled with cold water wearing that white dress and dreaming that you will never belong in this world but in the end why is there so many people that care? Why is it that people feel the need to be there for you when you know your not worth it? Why is it that you feel like you can never let your self live a bit? Why is it that you want to let someone know your deepest secrets but your scared they […]

10/16/2014 6 comments

fuck it all

by lissbabe 10/16/2014

written by lissbabe

whats the point in faking a smile every single day and not being my true self why is it that people just judge you by the scars on you and not even your friends are able to look at your body because they are ashamed to be around you becasue of how ugly you are with these scars yes indeed they make you who you are but why is it people feel the need to fucking judge like its their bussiness

10/16/2014 2 comments

Help to resolve my problem

by Vicky 10/16/2014

written by Vicky

I don’t know why i am getting tense often. i feel bad about my current situation. just these 2 months everyone thinks i am not normal. i also feel the same. plzzzzzzz help me to overcome my problem. advance in thanks…

i am not good in english. if any mistakes mean forgive me.

10/16/2014 5 comments

touching base

by sere 10/16/2014

written by sere

was looking up effective suicide methods and stumbled across your site. it’s hard to not really have people to talk with when i feel this way and most posters her seemed kind and smart so i thought i would register. really ptsd triggered today and that usually causes me to want to escape and that is really hard. i feel pretty abandoned by the universe at times like these. i try a hard as i can with my health challenges and ptsd and still things are a hot mess. have thryoid problems that are resisting treatment and i keep wondering if i just stopped taking […]

10/16/2014 10 comments

My luck

by Kailee3 10/15/2014

written by Kailee3

I honestly cannot find the words anymore, nothing to comfort others. I’m just blank, more or less like something that’s been erased. As i sit there constanly with the thoughts of suicide, it moves down my spin.. hurting more and more, like ice onto an ocean. I technically cannot classify myself from an ocean. Because in my mind: I see an Ocean as peaceful, full of life, moving to keep the life going. It’s like we are here to be here? If that makes sense, but unlike others we feel it all, we feel it more and more & it dwells in our minds that […]

10/15/2014 1 comment

Bobono

by Bisban 10/14/2014

written by Bisban

Do I make it

Only with no wing

So that one day

If I may

Maybe one day

A world may need me

Maybe one day

A world may need me

Where may I go

To once again feel

A lone chain melody

Will I make it

10/14/2014 0 comment

Everyday life day 1

by Ohio eddie 10/14/2014

written by Ohio eddie

Maybe if I get it out I’ll feel better. Maybe my next life will be better but I want to leave this one I’m tired of it. All this shit is past mistakes silly decisions. It would be better if I would accidentally get shot or hit by something big. Just so my family don’t feel so bad about how I died. I don’t understand why God just won’t do it cause God know I don’t wanna be here. I put to much faith in people that’s one of my problems and I always get let down friends, girlfriends, family it don’t matter. What happened […]

10/14/2014 1 comment

It’s so blunt, I can’t help but laugh

by Lsari 10/14/2014

written by Lsari

It has been a while but I guess this was inevitable, I really tried to cut deeper but the knife was just so blunt. I just couldn’t feel the sadness that I know I should feel. I feel so empty and lifeless, this at least made me feel something. Just like last time, I started shallow and then gradually I will cut deeper and deeper.

People often mistake cutters for attention seekers and while it is true I am posting my picture in a public space, I also […]

10/14/2014 9 comments

Imperfect

by kontinkatink 10/14/2014

written by kontinkatink

It must feel good to be perfect and superior to everyone else…tell me, what does that feel like? I’ll never know…ever.

10/14/2014 10 comments

by notmyrealname123 10/13/2014

written by notmyrealname123

I really don’t know why I’m doing this. When I first told someone about my ..situation, she said that maybe even though everything felt unbearable at the moment, it could get better later.

It’s not like that for me. Everything is always unbearable. The way I feel, and sometimes don’t feel, scares me. I’m tired of not being able to go through my life without thinking I really should kill myself.

I’m tired of the part of me always making excuses, always thinking “what about your parents? How will they feel?” and I’m very tired of feeling like I’m faking all the time. I’m tired of my […]

10/13/2014 0 comment

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