I think about You

This is for You
Because you should know you matter to me, even if it doesn’t matter to you.
What might be missing, and that’s likely a lot, is not a reflection on You, and is just the lack of my skills to put thoughts into words.
After all how could I ever be able to adequately explain how much you mean to me

I see you.
You’re hiding in plain sight, because you think no one will or can see you. How you shrug when someone moves to close. You sob under your breath, thinking no one will bother to notice. The dried up lines, tiny crystals of salt, from where tears flowed free in a moments loss of control. Feeling lonely when you are surrounded by people, and you think you are lost in the ocean of them all, that you don’t get noticed.
But I see you, and I look only at you

I feel you
We each have our scars, some more visible than others. Your lot in life is not what made you matter to me, it was how you felt.
I suddenly woke up and knew the knife that sliding across the skin. The comforting burns and and following smell. I recognized the cheap booze down the throat. I shut the world out as the humiliation took place. Hitting, tearing out hair in despair as your mind distorts everything you know. As you got locked up and loneliness became an all to familiar friend. The pills you had to swallow, and a rope that got removed from our necks.
You know the feeling, you feel it every day, on a good day you feel it a little less, and you don’t want to feel anything tomorrow.
I feel all of you with you.

I care about you.
Because you are. Because you care, care enough to hurt, something lost on so many others. The way you care might be different than others, but it doesn’t make it any less real, so if you hurt, it’s not less real either.
Your struggle might be different, but I care about you as if it were my own.

I need you
You are what I dream of, how i wish the rest of the world would be. If all of the world was like you, it would be just that, perfect.
I need for you to smile just once, for when you do, I know that happiness is possible. Even though we shall never meet, we are here together, we share the same sun, and look at the same stars. Knowing that makes me smile.
I need you, because I would not want to be without.

I love You
I don’t know you, and you will never know me. But I love You
With every cell of my being I care for you, and just for you, I would wish God to be real, and send Angels to carry you to whatever you choose. Whatever lies ahead, I promise, even if you don’t think it’s real, I do, I will, I love You.
To me there is nothing greater than love, and as a result I see most of what’s good to come from love in whichever way. If ones goal were any form of happiness, I could not see that without love. How you define love is for you to decide. For me it is ultimate.
I hope this helps you to understand more exactly what it means when I say it.
With all of my heart, body. soul and mind
I love You