*Holds up a Lego movie cup with coke a cola in it* Here’s to my family..the people who have just confirmed that they don’t care if I’m left alone at a house for hours on end while they are out working for no reason or having fun while I’m stuck at home wondering why they are gone so long when they said they only were going to Home Depot..but hey things just “happen” am I right? Yeah whatever…So cheers to them for making me feel even more unloved and not cared bout..My mama even told me they only thought bout me once to see if […]
I was at school. I just recently found out that a mean girl from last year said that I had head lice and I should just go kill myself. Of course, I just laughed my ass off since that mean girl wasn’t good looking herself and tried to do that because she thought of herself as ugly. For the first three weeks of hearing that I was fine… until something happened…
My sister, who is in the same school and grade as me, became friends with that mean girl’s sidekick. Every time I passed my sister’s new friend, they would both just roll their eyes. I […]
I’m just an average teen with an unusual problem. I have the heart of an caveman. Sometimes I sit still hold my breathe just to see if my heart is beating most of the time its seems like its not. I could watch someone get hit by a car and just stand there and laugh. My soul is so dark that the only emotion joy when others get hurt. I think of killing myself everyday. I look for suicide methods and when i look it over i smile and say that’s a good way to die. I would kill myself but i have no opportunity […]
Nathan,
I was really upset when you decided to take your own life back on June 23, 2002 and still think of it almost every day. I know you must have been going through some rough times but I really wish you would have contacted one of us (your family)for support. We had our share of fights growing up that I thought I would never forgive you for. As I sit here today writing this letter I can honestly say that I forgive you. There are so many things that I held onto over the years, maybe I could have learned to get over them and […]
I’ve stopped caring and so has everyone else. I’m struggling to find a reason to keep living this awful life, it’s not like I’ll go far in life anyways. Everyone dies eventually, why can’t I just make it happen for myself?
how can i love you,
why do i care,
how was i not aware,
you were going to leave me at my worst,
to turn my life into death,
leave me screaming in despair,
i trusted you to always be here,
through thick and thin,
you put my life in the wrong spin,
when you left i picked up my knife,
i thought i was an ex cutter,
but i guess i was wrong,
i must have been fooled […]
Hey guys,
I’ve been super busy with school and such, sorry about the leaving. I’m here just to see how things are for people. I have heard that there has been a bit of drama on here, which makes me sad, because this should be a safe place for all people. Knowing that there are people who have no consideration of others and their feelings, truly makes me sad.
Anyways, if anyone on here needs someone to talk to, feel free. My email address is: brl.cents@gmail.com
I’m always here for anyone who needs a friend.
as I sit here deep in thought. Am i something you forgot? I am lonely, I am cold. These feelings surrounding me are getting old. I wonder every day, if your love is here to stay. only God knows why so I sit here and I pray. hoping one day this pain will go away I feel torn I feel used I feel broken and abused my heart can’t take this anymore broken shattered on the floor. I am here you are there why can’t you just finally care you say you love me say its true but this love fires turning blue. broken […]
I want to share the change that happened in me. Maybe my words will mean something to someone. I met some people that shared some ideas with me and their words hit me where i needed it. These were those words:
I am not my thoughts, feelings or states, those are the things that are just passing through me. I can choose if i want to relate to them. I am the one that is aware of the thoughts and feeling,s, so they are not a part of me. They are the clouds and i am the sky. I exist even without any of […]