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Whos laughing now?

by Morgan 6/16/2015

written by Morgan

So here’s the thing. I hurt all the time, hurt from my head to my toes, just hurt everywhere and all the time. As cliché as this sounds it is literally as if there is something or part of my heart missing. I am also very lonely. I really want someone who will care for me, hold me as I start to cry, someone to tell me that I am perfect, beautiful.

I can be anyone be anyone I want to be, I can be the bad girl, the good girl, the messed up girl, the girl who doesn’t have a care. I don’t know who […]

6/16/2015 1 comment

Everyday It gets worse

by Lota 6/16/2015

written by Lota

Until the day you break. I can’t even smile anymore, let alone think straight. I don’t know what happening in my head right now, it feels like I’m drunk, nothing’s registering. I’m a disgrace to my family, it would be better for them if I just left. It’s stupid too cause they’re the only reason I’m still here. Life’s fucked I guess.

Does anyone know a forum or website where people can talk strategies and things like that?

6/16/2015 3 comments

I’m help

by shellyyy16 6/16/2015

written by shellyyy16

i am not on this website because I’m suicidal, im here because I want to help someone who is. I want more than anything I’ve ever wanted, is to be the difference between a life and a suicide. Drop me a message if you want and please know that you aren’t the only one that feels this way. Everyone at some point in their lives thinks about killing themselves, but some people let it turn into a reality. You may feel like it’s the only escape, but it isn’t. There are 7 billion people in this world so there can’t be no one to talk […]

6/16/2015 4 comments

Stupid feelings

by RIN 6/15/2015

written by RIN

How many times do we have to feel grief, fear, hatred, jealousy and everything else put together do we people have to go through? How many times do you sit there and feel dead inside when someone is constantly bringing you down. I have a boyfriend and he can sit there and call me beautiful and say he loves me but I don’t feel it. I feel used, I hate it knowing that he always prefers to watch beautiful blond perfect body’s fuck themselves but won’t touch me. Unless he feels so hard that he needs a vagina to get him off.

I almost jumped off […]

6/15/2015 5 comments

who also expect to end up in hell

by Stefann 6/14/2015

written by Stefann

My post might seem a little strange but this are my feelings and i hope to find someone that feels the same.
Title: who also expect to end up in hell
text: Hi, My name is stefan and i’m 31 years old. I made many mistakes in my life and caused pain to many people. I’m absolutely sure i will end up in hell after committing suicide. I realy like to talk to other people that know for sure they will end up in hell. I’m blind so most parts of this site are not accessible for me. So please answer me by email. my […]

6/14/2015 0 comment

I Don’t Want To Hurt My Teacher

by Lovebug4142 6/13/2015

written by Lovebug4142

When I was kind of living all over the place, she stepped in and helped me, even though I didn’t really like her. When CPS came and saw me, I went to church with her that day and spent the night with her. I was TOTALLY freaking out and she talked with me and stayed up with me till 1 in the morning. She laid next to me and played with my hair to calm me down. She took me for the weekend to her home town and we stayed at her parents and met her siblings and aunts. They were totally nice to me. […]

6/13/2015 1 comment

Duality.

by sickfromthemelt 6/12/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

I’ve gotta say what I’ve gotta say, and then I swear I’ll go away.

Let’s see, I want to be a girl, which is still hard for me to wrap my head around, even after explicitly knowing it for two years now, up until that point, I’d started to feel quite weird indeed.

I felt numb/drugged/whatever, sometimes I felt like my brain was the only part of me that was alive, and it felt like it was burning, I was wondering why I always found girls more interesting company, but not ‘interesting’ company, even I find some girls pretty attractive, but when I’m out and I see […]

6/12/2015 6 comments

Any Suggestions?

by thelost 6/12/2015

written by thelost

I could really use some help. Lately I’ve been unable to sleep normally and I can’t stop freaking out over the littlest things in my life. I have to go outside and do something constantly or I get really anxious and want to scream. I can’t sleep at night because it feels like I have enough adrenaline in my body to kill a bull. I also feel lonely constantly because my two best friend (who are dating one another) are either busy, together, or in another state like my female best friend will be for a bit. So I’m going to be alone for the […]

6/12/2015 6 comments

Some things personal

by tralala 6/11/2015

written by tralala

fuck, i don’t know where to write. This is the only place i felt safe to write something down and make it public. I am sorry, I am not suicidal anymore. Life is way more sucky this way. I can’t let myself even fantasize about killing myself because now I am a bitter grown up person who is not selfish enough to allow myself those fantasies. But I am selfish. And my lazy, depressive and lost existence makes life difficult for people around me, just less difficult than it would be if I killed myself. So I am that much less selfish.

Some days are so […]

6/11/2015 8 comments

self-hatred, afraid of everyone

by teana 6/8/2015

written by teana

I hate myself and I feel like a complete loser. I used to think I was somewhat pretty, but now I feel ugly, especially on the inside. I feel disgusting and dirty like I murdered someone. I am taking summer classes because I decided I just had to double major in another useless liberal arts field and it’s hard not to compare myself to people out having adventures and experiencing life. I don’t think it’s that lame to stay in school necessarily but for some reason I feel like I’m horrible for staying at home with my parents with no money or job, crying like a baby every day […]

6/8/2015 1 comment

Love.

by hellblau 6/7/2015

written by hellblau

I’m falling in love,
But something feels wrong.
Something about his words,
Feels like lies dressed as love.
I need to find a way to explain
How I really feel about this pain,
I don’t want to get hurt again.

6/7/2015 1 comment

by goingnumb 6/7/2015

written by goingnumb

Everything just feels awful, nothing has a point, nothing feels real, I have not seen the point in 99.99% of the things in my life.

6/7/2015 1 comment

the climb with no peak

by teana 6/7/2015

written by teana

Every day feels less meaningful and I’m trying so hard to be positive but I feel like I’m just wearing down. I pretend to be happy around people and the only ones who I can tell about how empty I feel is my counselor and my mom, but she rolls her eyes and gets irritated when I bring up these things. I don’t have any relationships that have any degree of intimacy. I just want to be able to be honest with someone and to be myself. I’m tired of waiting for it to happen though and I just want to be happy without needing things […]

6/7/2015 0 comment

Unrequited Love

by FearInLiving 6/4/2015

written by FearInLiving

I came here to get help .. so please no negative comments . Feel free to share your stories with me , I’m open to anything but , here’s mine ..

Its crazy . It hurts . It makes you feel so insane & lonely . You loving someone you know you’ll never have a chance with . What’s worse is never telling the person how you feel . When you constantly think of him more than yourself . You cry sometimes when you come to reality , when it all hits you .. it’ll never happen . Stop being irrational . Don’t be stupid . […]

6/4/2015 0 comment

Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies.

by hellblau 6/4/2015

written by hellblau

He was feeling sad today cause of a family problem, I tried my best to make him feel better, I tried to let him know that I was feeling worried about my life too, college and stuff. And I was just starting to tell him, when he started to talk about his problem and I completely forgot about myself, so I can focused on him and try to make him feel better and not sad. And tried and tried my best, and he never let me in, he tells me “I love you” and I take it, but it feels like a lie, why. He […]

6/4/2015 0 comment

New here. Could use people to talk to.

by NWren 6/2/2015

written by NWren

I’ve been dealing with suicidal tendencies since I was in high school. TEN YEARS AGO

Obviously it hasn’t been continuous over those years. There have been days where keeping it a secret is easy and my “happy face” feels normal.

But these thoughts have been VERY strong over the past month of so.

I HATE my job. The people I serve (I work in food service) are RUDE. I’ve been laughed at, sworn at, and just generally treated badly. I serve the same people every day so I’m constantly dealing with it.

I am so unhappy in my apartment. I rent a room and have no say in who […]

6/2/2015 5 comments

Heavy

by Marianne 6/2/2015

written by Marianne

My heart is sinking. My blood feels thick, like lava, burning through my veins. I feel sick with anger and sadness. I feel hopeles. I want to lay down and sink into a peaceful death. I can’t remember anything anymore. I can’t feel anything except the agony of wanting to die but still having to be alive. How can you want something so badly and struggle everyday to reject it. I want to want to live.

6/2/2015 3 comments

all i cannot say

by silvermoon 6/1/2015

written by silvermoon

all i cannot say i pour out here even tho it feels so painful in a way. i was told to practice self-compassion and i cant. i cant believe anyone cares. the ones who do are the outsiders. everyone else – nope. ive been dealing with really bad depression and isolation. it is hard not to beat yourself up. my heart just had a huge jolt from noise, for me, noise brings up the past. i wonder how much longer i can bare this. my online friend said if i end my life i dont go to a better place and am still “me” and […]

6/1/2015 4 comments

My thoughts are torture

by alina_01 6/1/2015

written by alina_01

I had a bad dream the other night so horrible that I kept waking up, but I would fall back asleep. The pain from the dream has been lingering lately and truly saddens me. I sit here and tell myself and the rest of the world that I’m over the first guy I loved. It has been almost a year and the urge to have any contact with him has long been gone. I don’t love him anymore it feels like our whole relationship the past 10 years were all part of a dream. Him moving on helped me to move on and I needed […]

6/1/2015 2 comments

All I want is peace

by cantstoptheshame 6/1/2015

written by cantstoptheshame

This is the crap in my head. It will probably never go out to anyone but maybe if I post it here it will help me.

I cheated on my boyfriend with my supervisor. After being with him for 10 years and begging him for marriage and kids, after he broke up with me twice I cheated on him. Through the years everytime I felt neglected or ignored i’d get depressed and flirt with guys around me. I never actually liked, was attracted to or gave a shit about these people but the attention was like a drug a quick hit to make me feel better. […]

6/1/2015 1 comment

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