i love my boyfriend but…. he recently almost killed himself. if it werent for me calling the police he’d be dead. but now he’s mad and im sick of all this shit. i mean i love him but i cant handle this anymore. but if i break up with him he’ll kill himself. plus i know my other friend c. will ask me out and i like him. nowhere near as much as my current bf but i do like him and couldnt say no. and then my current bf would try to beat up c. (and hurt himself in the process because he’s not […]
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my bf was going to commit suicide. we’ve always talked about it, but this time he sounded serious. he made me promise not to tell. he said he was going to write him suicide note and leave as soon as he was alone, most likely the next day. he said goodbye, and thank you for being an amazing gf, and sorry about a hundred times. But i was scared so i told my friend who knows all this and happens to be his ex. ive convinced her before not to tell anyone, but this time she said fuck it im telling, and told her mom. […]
Like I said, I am not looking for anybody’s opinion on myself, or any of my decisions. Nobody hates me more than me, so it would be a ridiculous waste of time. I have completely lost the will to live. And I mean that in the most serious way possible. Not because something bad just happened in my life. I just flat out do not want to be alive anymore. I don’t see a real reason to be, either. I am the literal definition of “useless”. I am a complete waste of space. I am probably denying somebody who deserves life precious air, and food. […]
i miss how you would kiss me. i miss you being apart of my family. i miss seeing you everyday and holding your hand. being with was the most amazing feeling ever. i treated you wrong and i wasnt a good girlfriend. im sorry. i see that your happy now with your new girl. i wish it was me. i always wait to recieve a text message from you. your on my mind all the time. i know i messed up and its all my fault. i ruined our relationship and i regret it so much. i miss calling you my baby and being yours. […]
I stood outside the window as the wind and cold played its part in making me numb enough to watch him cheat. I had just gotten home after I had been in the hospital for 2 weeks, and had gone to visit him to see what project had kept him busy enough to only allow him the time to see his ill girlfriend once during her time in the hospital.
I heard her moaning as I approached the door, and naturally I had to see with my own eyes, so I peered into the window with the slit in the curtains.
It was her, a […]
My name is ryan, im 23, i have been shy and quiet all my life. I have severe anxiety, nobody understands me, i am hard of hearing i wear hearing aids. I dont consider myself ugly, but people make me feel that way. I have been a screw up most of my life, when i was 11 i started smoking weed, which then became the root of all my problems since then. I meant an amazing girl at the same time, i dated her from the time we were 11 to 17. In jr high i started getting addicted to marijuana, i skipped school, i […]
Sometimes I feel that suicidal thoughts are just a sign of immaturity in extremely emotional and complicated people…
like there’s this block inside of us saying “WE ARE REALLY NOT HAPPY WITH SOMETHING AND WE DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT (AND OFTEN DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT IT IS)”
I have a little bit more to be grateful for in my life.. though I’m a bit of a space cadet.. bit disorganized.. but people still love me.. I’ve got my friends.. got a girlfriend(s) :p .. I look good .. I ain’t dumb.. I can still eat..
But everytime something shitty happens I dwell and I get […]
i told my parents about how i have a girlfriend now… big mistake.,. did not accept it at all.. so what if i like girls and guys?
ugh… worst night ever. and to add to it. my girlfriend dumped me.. so i told my parents for nothing… i tell my friends and theyre all like “you should of waited a month before telling your parents” and im like, wow! cant you just be here for me instead of telling me the things i should of done differently…
i wanted to start being close to my parents.. so i was gunna try.. well im done trying.. my mom […]
i got a girlfriend! woohooo. asked her out on tuesday. she said yes. so now me and her are together.. but shes pretty busy so we dont get to hang out much.
i told one of my friend about how i have a girlfriend and hes like “what? but you’re not a lesbian.” and that just pissed me off. yah im not a lesbian. im pansexual.
i burnt my finger last night.. got bored so i was melting plastic with my lighter and it dripped onto my finger, i hope it doesnt get infected..
got a new look, more punk now and i LOVE it. tho i do […]
For the past 10 or 12 years i have known that things in my life weren’t right. How on earth did i allow my sad pathetic life come to this? Alls i know is that i can’t take it anymore, constant thoughts of suicide even if i haven’t guts to do it i still have this strong feeling of wanting to die. I often question my very existance. I do understand what people are trying to do when they write stuff like ” It will get better” stuff like that, but at the same time it never does get any better. Just a few things […]
I used to think I would find love one day. Now I just think I’m unfit for it. I’ve never had a boyfriend, or a first kiss, or anything. I would even settle for a girlfriend at this point, if she cared about me. I’m not sure if I’m a lesbian. I’m so confused. Whenever I look at other women I think they are prettier and more appealing than men… but I still am attracted to the opposite sex. Does this make any sense? It doesn’t matter though, because I can’t even make friends. All my friends last for one semester of college, then I don’t see them again. I feel like […]
Just want to say to all who is in hard time at the moment, STAY STRONG, you were born to make a diference in this world.
You are just so much better than those people or things that upset you, who ignoring you, who or what makes you scared… There are people who love you and who DO care for you, they may be near, or you’ll meet them later in your life (you sure will), and they need you. Think about them. Do not be selfish. You are wonderful, beautiful and this world needs you!
Believe in yourself! I DO!
Read some books, look for answers, talk to somebody, look in to yourself, try […]
I’m gay. I know you wouldnt approve. I’m sick of living this worthless life. I’m proud to have a girlfriend, but I’m sick of hiding it. I dont feel like anybody gives a fuck. Ever. This girl. Is done. So goodbye nothing. I love you Kim.
I’ve been reading through a lot of posts over the last few days and I have too say get a grip Some of you. I’m 34 years old and reading some of the comments on here you really don’t have a clue. I’ve been there as a 14 year old and the girl that I love so much has split up with me so I slit my wrists. At 15 I got started on by 7 people my own age and all I could do was run away as fast as I could or literally get kicked to death. I was so ashamed to run […]
This is not a story of hope, even though it starts of like one.
It’s been five years since I first tried to kill myself via exit bag, after six years of depression. After that failed attempt, I decided that if I wasn’t going to die, then I was going to try to live. I decided to do everything I could to leave my old life behind – family, friends… everything.
Things started getting better career/work-wise. I went to college and graduated top in my major. I was able to move across the globe (literally, with a 12 hour time-zone difference), because I am doing my PhD […]
As of tonight, I don’t know what family is. My mom walked out on my family sept. 29th, I’m pretty sure I’m the only one still in so much pain from that. She’s off with the guy she was having an affair with, I still talk to her but she’s changed it will never be the same. My dad was doing good, he planned a trip to Toronto to visit who I thought was his family. Turns out he’s going to visit an old girlfriend… Not impressed. Why? He hasn’t told me. He hasn’t told me he booked a ticket, he didn’t tell me who […]
Hello there. This is my first time on this site so let me just give you some background info about me. I’m 15 years old and a sophomore in high school. When i was in Kindergarten through 5th grade i was bullied harshly. I was bullied for the way i smelled. A guy, Alec, and his friends would make fun of me EVERY SINGLE DAY. They made my life a living hell. They were also on my bus. I remember one incident where i was sitting on the bus and Alec took out his phone and took a video of me sitting there and he […]
I’m 18/male. Pretty much everything is fucked up in my life. Well maybe its not so terrible for others, but for me, its hell.
My parents got divorced when I was 2. A few years later, my mother got married to another man. Later on i realized he’s a dick. When my sister went to high school we were very poor. I can remember that i was sad because she couldnt hang out with other girls just because we were so poor. when she was 18 (i was 12), she got married, i think she couldnt take longer that our mom was an alcoholic. She started […]
I used to be a very happy person. In fact, I was that loud and annoying kid who was always laughing and didn’t care what others thought. I do well in school; I dont really try very hard and I get all A’s. I have friends; they all think I’m the happiest guy alive. At school, I still act happy even now; I don’t want them to know. I have a girlfriend; a beautiful, sexy, funny, silly girlfriend, and I loved and still love her very very much. But on October 1st, 2011, she sent nudies to one of her guy friends. When I found […]
Hi all,
Recently I dropped out of Uni. I have no girlfriend, no driver’s licence and I am going broke. My family dislikes me and I have depression and Paranoid Skitzophrenia. The one girl I do like insists she is “better off alone”. I have known her for three years, FML. I want to overdose on my medication and poison myself simultaneously. I have attempted suicide twice before. I have had enough.
If anybody would love to suggest something to keep me alive, go for it, but I doubt it will work for very long,
Mr. Anonymous