I really hate school its a pain, i thought this is the part in my life i want to continue ,but i dont no anymore am starting to think this is what everyone else wants from me. I want to do art an from what i have heard from the people around me am good at it, i just wish that it could be my career its an easy way to bleed my emotions dry an trust me i have alot of emotions. I could say todays a pretty normal day but these days am not in the mood to tlk to anyone, the […]
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i cant stand that he still gets to walk around. he still gets to drink his beer sit on his fat ass walk around like he owns everyone spend all day on the computer stalking people on facebook. i cant stand that he will never be held accountable for the hell he made me experience and for ruining my life. all i feel is a very deep hatred that goes beyond what my body can contain. i hate having to see him. i wish i would never see him again. the problem is that my mother is still married to him and i love and […]
I should start off by saying I may not be someone anyone should look to for guidance or good advice. I am a survivor of a serious suicide attempt and many days are still a struggle for me.
I haven’t read through the site enough to determine if it’s a place where most of the posters are dealing with suicidal thoughts and mental health issues or if there is a large percentage of people who are in a good place mentally and are offering up advice. It seems to be a combination of both, with the earlier making up for most of the content.
Nonetheless, […]
You ever look at people around you and wonder “whats going on with me” ever wonder why your sad, lonely, why people you trust leave you, i do, i had a friend we were close and we kinda liked each other then he got a girlfriend stop talking to me, an we still tlk i guess but not the same, never the same he has new friends, an me, well am alone i should have known to keep my life to myself ,now i feel invaded, i feel like everyone knows me, i feel stupid, i feel alone in a world full […]
Life loses it’s worth to live, sometimes.
There are days where you wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is “Shit, God woke me up again!”
It’ll get better, they say.
It’ll get easier they claim.
Who the heck are they kidding?
They don’t understand.
They have yet to feel what it’s like to be in my shoes.
What’s the point of reaching out?
All they’re gonna do is judge me.
They’re gonna pretend to care,
And then they’ll leave just like the rest.
Does any of this seem familiar to you?
You know it’s true. You think it too.
I can’t promise you that […]
Starting off im a male, 21 years old, names not important. Basically my story is my life isnt as bad as others im sure of that but yet I feel this tremendous pain inside me. Im currently in college to become an architect best in my class and have already had job offers. All this but I come from a not so nice family wanted to get away from them ive had problems with this in the past I’ve been to therapy for this whole wanting to commit suicide since I was young about 13. Its a little funny cause my parents used to […]
Warning: rant from top of my head. Might randomly skip to from topic to topic.
When I was in eight grade, I thought I knew what long lasting pain and depression were. I had grown up in a “broken” home, I was bullied, I had been cheated on and my brother nearly died from a suicide attempt. I can remember sitting next to his bed and even after I found out he was going to survive, I kept thinking things couldn’t get worse than that. Since then (3 or so years ago), I have been in a abusive relationship, cheated on again lost a friend who […]
I had a dream one night.  I was with my friends getting pretty stoned outside on a bright, clear happy day.  I took a hit and looked up into the clear, beautiful  sky as I inhaled, but as I exhaled I began to feel out of place and out of person.  I tried to move, and I did, but at the same time I didn’t.  It was as if I was out of my rotting flesh cage, but my vision wasn’t coming with my spirit.  All that I could see was the clear blue sky… I began to panic.  My unbound spirit was being anchored […]
Okay, i’m 13 years old. I have to repeat the 7th grade. I would’ve passed it, but i left my school 3 weeks early. That school stressed me out, to the point where i just couldn’t do it. i never wanted to go back there again. i only had about 2-3 friends at the end of the year. i like, pushed everyone away. i don’t even know how. right now, it’s about a month and a half into summer. i moved across town, so i’m going to be starting a new school. i lost connection with all my friends from my previous school, but like […]
I cant help but feel lost all the time, no matter what I do is just the same cycle, I have tried doing something about it but my plans never work out..
I feel like my own family doesn’t love me and non of my parents are around to tell me that everything is going to be ok. I feel selfish for asking God if I can run away because running away is the only thing I have done my whole life. I have nothing in this world, no job, no family, I’m not happy with who IÂ have become. even though people tell me you […]
My life has fallen to pieces. The details aren’t important. It’s all the same stuff that you read on this forum. That’s not even the reason I’m upset. My emotions are out of control. I can be fine one day, then spend the next day crying into my pillow. I’ve had it. I cut myself. I beat my face in with a mallet. I can’t stop fantasising about jumping off the roof of my house. And yes, I do have a suicide plan. I feel that God has abandoned me, and I don’t know where to turn. The only ray of hope right now […]
You know how everybody says †God put you on earth for a reason†Well … . . I truly believe that “God†put me here by accendent, and hopefully he realizes his mistake and takes me back. Sure It’s been fourteen years and one month that i’ve been on this planet. But i’d happly give my life away to be anywhere eles, just not alive. But the thing is I don’t believe in this guy named “God†I don’t believe in the “Bible†ethier. I doubt that a man had magical powers and; created nature, created people, created food, created everything on earth and […]
Still wanna kill myself over a person who could care less.im going to eliminate that pian in my chest by putting a bullet through it.god hasnt answered a single prayer in 3mon.as a mater of fact thing just keep getting worse. I cant wait to taste the kiss of death.ill be leaving us soon its just too much to bear anymore.goodby all.she is worth death.seeing her with another man is worth death.my sadness is worth death.im such a coward.and am so selfish because there are many who love me but the one i want to doesnt.and thats worth death
What’s the point of living if my family doesn’t except me for who I am if I’m bi I’m that font try to change me to who I’m not I mean I’m not perfect or anything I’m me I’m the funny one I’m the one who gets blamed for everything I’m the one who doesn’t tell on anyone for smoking weed Im that one girl who comes out of the closet and wants everyone to be fine with it and not for the opposite I just wanna die and be with the people that I loved that god took from me I wanna die and […]
I came out I was bi to my mom and it wasn’t the reaction I expected it to be. I expected it to be tears of joy but it was tears of madness and anger and I started to cry cause i didn’t know why she was getting mad of the situation I mean aren’t u gonna be happy for me i came out to u cause I trust you and now I have no choice but to think to kill myself I mean why hasn’t god taken me yet i mean it’s my time to go :/
“Suicide is man’s way of telling God, “You can’t fire me – I quit.”â€
by sowhat
written by sowhat
everyone will die (eventually) so what if I decide the end of my history??
I’m not going to kill myself. Not now. All of the low points I’ve gone through in my mind I feel I’ve caused. If I were to ever take myself out of this world, I would hope that it wouldn’t be because of others, or the world. It would have to be strictly because I felt as though I would never escape my mind. I’ve been told that I am articulate, but I disagree. I can’t process any of my thoughts anymore. Even writing this is taking longer than it should. I realize that it’s not my time to go yet. When I was really […]
People say if you kill yourself you will miss out on alot. Me all I have ever done is missed out on things. I missed out at socializing in a party cause I was to god damn scared, I missed out having a girlfriend all because I can’t read the signs, and I am missing out on seeing the life’s of 4/6 of my nieces and nephews whom I love dearly. All I am is just a zombie. Trying to make ends meat in this cruel world while struggling to know my difference with society and just waiting for someone or something to end it. I am […]
i can’t control how it feels and functions. I alter its actions if i try hard enough but i rarely have the strength. i want one thing but my body usually wants another. i wish my brother were never born so i wouldnt feel obligated to take care of him, but my body says i love him. i want to be a swinging polygamist for the rest of my days but my body says im afraid of people, women especially. i want careers, cars, cash and success but my body says theres no value in that; that i must be with people to be happy. […]
This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]