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Music Box Memories

by SomeMalaise 6/14/2012

written by SomeMalaise

Poem and how I’m feeling

I log on to my pc
I built it with my own hands and money
I see the backdrop of a starry sky and moon
In my ear I have a music box tune running
And tears are trying to flood into the room

A simple child’s song that brings out memories I wish I had
Each little tinkle, trickle and bom
A music box, xylophone, a trumpet and an instrument unknown

From innocence it sends me
Unto the darker strokes that bring the sadness to the fore

It highlights a lot of inconsistencies
And points out a lot of hard choices I’ve had […]

6/14/2012 0 comment

New blog

by lostchild445 6/13/2012

written by lostchild445

ive made myself a tumblr account where Ill post poems n pictures. Same name as I’ve got here. N yes I’ll still put them here first. Speaking of which.

I saw you yesterday
You were sitting on the bench in an outdoor mall
And suddenly, all the feelings I had for you
Rushed to my head. I loved them all.

I’m sorry about what happened
The things I said wrong
And I understand
If you don’t want anything to do with me at all
But I thought you should know
That though it didn’t show
I haven’t forgotten you

You’ve been in my dreams since the […]

6/13/2012 1 comment

by Janke23 6/11/2012

written by Janke23

I NEED THIS TO END I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.

6/11/2012 2 comments

Just a need to share

by Lavanderblue 6/10/2012

written by Lavanderblue

I hope nobody i know ever see it, and i hope that feeling will vanish soon.

But, it’s hard. Living unhealthy, unhappy, and lonely.Waking up, knowing the difficulties waiting ahead, the lack of stimulation, ….the limitations that my health imposes me.

Spending too much time at the hospital, in need to be fixed. Can i return that broken body of mine? I wish.

When i feel out of breath, when i can’t take it, i think of going, leaving, you know? Dying.

It’s not as i wanna take my life. It’s a feeling of…expecting, hoping, not to wake up .Wishful thinking.

Will my heart give up now? Tomorrow? Tic tac, […]

6/10/2012 2 comments

cut off

by starterjacket003 6/10/2012

written by starterjacket003

My uncle died last night. It might have been drugs or maybe the police using a stunner had something to do with it. It is a rough blow, but I’ve always been able to deal with the big things in life. I suspect many around here feel the same.

It has always been the petty indignities that hurt the most. I really am more hurt about a friend blowing me off and not coming to visit like he said he would. I think about my uncle, about how his story didn’t have a happy ending. He was a lonely person at the end of his life […]

6/10/2012 0 comment

My Suffering

by Kristina 6/7/2012

written by Kristina

Living is suffering for me. I know some would say that I should feel like I have a great life. But they are only saying that because of my material objects.

They don’t know that I stay up late at night, crying because I have to hide so much of myself. My family is Christians, and they make fun of gays. It’s so hard due to the fact that I am a bisexual atheist. And it’s not like I have the courage to just tell them.

I don’t know exactly how long I’ve been depressed, but I noticed some notes of mine dating back to […]

6/7/2012 2 comments

Every day’s a good day

by Wolfenstein666 6/4/2012

written by Wolfenstein666

to die. So I’m pretty sure I’m done I am very serious but can’t become 100% certain. I can’t function around people, I have been deeply depressed for around 7 years, My motivation in life is to hurt those who hurt me nothing more and nothing less. I have no real goals or dreams in life, I have been on alot of medication, tried everything, have no reason to live and am almost sure I am incapable of love or happiness or even being content. I don’t want to live in any society and I wont do anything I don’t want to. I don’t want […]

6/4/2012 7 comments

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

by julieta 5/31/2012

written by julieta

HELLO:

ALL PEOPLE IN THIS WEBSITE THAT FEEL PAIN ON THEIR SOULS I WANT TELL YOU ALLÂ THAT I AM HERE FOR CARE ABOUT YOU ALL

I AM NOT PROFESIONAL BUT I REALLY CARE ABOUT PEOPLE I HATE SEE PEOPLE SAD I WISH GOD GIVE ME POWER FOR GIVE HAPPINESS TO THE PEOPLEÂ AND ALSO I AM LITTLE CRAZY LIKE GOAT. IF YOU ALL NEED A FRIENDÂ HERE I AMÂ MY NAME IS JULIETA

EMAIL ajulieta_77@hotmail.comÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â LOVE FOR YOU ALL

5/31/2012 2 comments

being alone

by noexception 5/30/2012

written by noexception

im so sick of people thinking they know me,
how can anyone know me if i dont really know myself?cause im not the main sorce of information for my own life?soon wen you let every body in, and they all hurt you, this mask doesnt do know good, it becomes to late, it can protect me from other people, but it cant protect me from myself,.has anyone ever felt like they wanna die,or even more wen you thiink of certain people?and its hard not to wen thats all u have,i try to be strong for 21 years, and the only thing iv accomplished is […]

5/30/2012 1 comment

Sleep

by cumma101 5/29/2012

written by cumma101

I am so tired, please can I sleep?Â I cannot take it anymore.

I search my entire life to find a home, somewhere, someone, to rest in. Why can’t the world let me be happy? Whenever I become happy about something, someone, I feel that everything goes out of its way to take that happiness away. This is why Â it takes me a great amount of time to feel happy. But even still, you let it, them, into your arms again only to realize you were making it up the whole time. No matter how much you deserve happiness, nobody wants to give it to you.

Yesterday I […]

5/29/2012 0 comment

Happiness is a mirage

by MyRequiem311 5/27/2012

written by MyRequiem311

For so many years of my life, I’ve endured the constant feeling of sadness and feeling alone. Every day, progressively worse than the last. Then the day came where I met someone who gave me a breathe of fresh air in my life, and gave me a purpose and reason to live. How great it was to love something more than yourself. She lives 10 hours away, I sold everything I own in this world to go see her, I leave tomorrow.

But why is it I’m so close, but I feel so scared? I feel as though I’ve already lost her, and I haven’t even […]

5/27/2012 0 comment

I’m useless in this “real world”….I’m such a fucking impractical, too imaginative person.. thus, I don’t belong here in this mundane, dull, boring real world..!

by niki 5/27/2012

written by niki

I’m useless in this “real world”….I’m such a fucking impractical, too imaginative person…
thus, I don’t belong here in this mundane, dull, boring real world..!
I often feel like I belong to another planet, universe, or perhaps another ‘spiritual’ plane, dimension,..something like that.
my super-vivid imagination’s world / universe is often a HUNDRED times much more lively, interesting, exciting, thrilling, and challenging than this apparently “Law and Order, all about money/profits and status” shallow, mundane, meaningless real world !

it’s my curse.

fuck my life..

get the hell me out of this fucking Matrix , please , somebody!
there should be an OPTION to get the fuck […]

5/27/2012 7 comments

13 Strong.

by hoping.... 5/26/2012

written by hoping....

why do people hurt themselves? why do they want to die? because they believe, TRULY believe that their lives are a living hell. that there is no way they can ever go back and change it. that there’s no way out. is that true? is there a point of no return? well, that all depends on the perspective. everyone, everywhere, any situation can be changed. you can always go back and change yourself and your life for the better. i know because i was there, i was hopeless. that’s what i thought, but i was so wrong. if you’re still reading this keep reading…for everyone […]

5/26/2012 5 comments

My Story- Suicide

by jennyj 5/24/2012

written by jennyj

Hi, I just wanted to share my story about suicide, which I did not commit, and since then have realized the importance of that decision. Everything does get better, I hope anyone who reads that are having thoughts about suicide will reconsider their decision.
The scars runs way down to when I was very young. My dad was a cardiologist and he came home every three days. Always being away from my dad made me frightened of him, although he was a great dad. I was a timid child and was scared of everything, I was told by grandparents that I cried at least twice […]

5/24/2012 2 comments

expectations

by Julesplus3 5/24/2012

written by Julesplus3

Life is bitter life is cruel

Happiness you can’t rule

Full of broken hearts and broken dreams

Even kindness is not what it seems

Don’t expect to much cause expectations is for fools

Acceptance and strength is your biggest tool.

5/24/2012 1 comment

Gone

by musictomyears 5/24/2012

written by musictomyears

I knew it wouldn’t last. All that happiness has vanished from yesterday.

I had a terrible day today. At lunch I sat alone. All my classes were spent ignoring everyone. And when I come home, my dad just starts yelling at me because he’s not appreciated.

Well guess what, neither am I. I just took 5000 mg of advil and I plan on taking more later. Maybe then they’ll realize they should’ve appreciated me.

5/24/2012 5 comments

Pointless?

by madds 5/24/2012

written by madds

I am extremely tired. Happiness keeps teasin me. Everytime it feels like its finally in grasp and my lifes going to be ok, it slips right out of my hands. Somebody I thought was my friend screwed up my relationship a while back. We never got over each other. I still like him alot. My boyfriend now, doesnt make me alot happier. We only see each other literally maybe three times a year so we just text. In the middle of the convErsation he’ll leave without explanation…yay. Then he acts like it never happened. I flirted with my ex and sccidently went a little too […]

5/24/2012 1 comment

A Reason To Live

by musictomyears 5/23/2012

written by musictomyears

For the past few months, I’ve been lonely and depressed. I’ve wanted to kill myself. And I know this might sound stupid, but when my mom said I could go to a Justin Bieber concert with my friends, I found a reason to live.

Yeah, who wants to live for a Justin Bieber concert? Some might think he’s stupid or gay, but for me, when I hear something that’s going to come out soon from him, it just seems like a sign to continue living.

I’m not sure how long my happiness will last, I’ll still stay depressed most likely, but now I’ve made two goals. These […]

5/23/2012 0 comment

Everyone would be happy if i were dea

by alwaysoverlooked 5/21/2012

written by alwaysoverlooked

I wish i could die right now. The pain hurts my body so much. I cry and everyone sees but no one cares. My husband doesn’t care about anything except his own happiness. My mom always reminds me of how fucked up i am and how everyone else has it worse than i do.
I have been on meds for a long time now and they have plateaued. I just want this pain to stop.
My babies see me crying all the time and I think about them and if i was gone how it would be. but to […]

5/21/2012 9 comments

Just don’t want to be here or be me

by lovekillsme 5/21/2012

written by lovekillsme

I’m in a place I have been sine I was 11, I am broken inside friends and family say get help I have but it didn’t really help its basically for people who can talk problems out and somehow be cured. I hurt I’m heartbroken I have been on a downward spiral for so long I no longer know what complete happiness is. I no longer have friends to turn to since a year ago I had overdosed. I feel so alone they say turn nto God but I do have God but that hasn’t helped me either I can’t find peace I feel myself […]

5/21/2012 2 comments

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