I dislike them, I really really really dislike holidays .
Holidays are days when family members come together and become fake as hell; They act like they weren’t talking shit about each other every other day.
Well, how to start this… I guess, hello. Hello Suicide Project users. I’m new to this site as I only discovered it a few nights ago. I am deciding to write this post because I have nowhere else to vent, and I feel that if I don’t share this I will go completely mad. I suppose I should preface this by saying that I am extremely sorry if I offend anyone. That is not at all my intention and I hope I don’t annoy anyone. So, here we go.
I’m a 16 (soon to be 17) year old male living in the same small town I […]
I am so depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my sister to die, she has terminal cancer. and she can’t be treated where I live ( Jordan ) And I dont have the money to send her outside for treatment. I tried asking people, the government, i made a campaign to raise money I tried everything nobody want’s to help me, I am so depressed I can’t even go to work. I live in the UAE and work here, what kills me is that I am not there with her and she is in so much pain. she is so depressed […]
Sorry if I ramble, or have half thoughts in here. I’m bad about jumbling things. But I just need to vent/rant.
So. I’m an accountant at a little accounting firm in my town. I’ve been working here since January and I graduated college last December, so they hired the biggest newbie, but they’re desperate for employees.
At first, I loved my job. I loved working during tax season and getting all this new real-life experience. I love doing payrolls and the sales tax. Also, I’m pretty nosy and like seeing confidential information in peoples’ personal lives (and I love being trusted to keep this information a secret). I […]
I really hate how I can tell someone to keep going when I know that I can’t keep going myself.
I hate how I’m there for everyone but when I need someone, all I have is myself.
I hate how I cry myself to sleep at night because I have actual problems and yet, there are kids my age who’s only problem is whether or not they want to actually vacation in Paris this month or not.
I hate how people don’t care about certain things like homelessness and bankruptcy until they have to experience it first hand.
I […]
I hate It when your doing so good then all of sudden something happens & then your like okay no problem but then bad things just keep stacking up & the next thing you know your driving & you start closing your eyes just wanting everything to be over.Like when your so down but you gotta pick yourself up cause your about to see family.Just when I’m starting to see a future for myself I always gotta do something to screw things up.I’ve had 8 jobs this year on my 9 & If this doesn’t work out then I don’t know anymore.
So, I found out for the first time in 20 years that I was right.. Being married did NOT give him permission.
When I said NO and when I was asleep and woke up with him on top of me it was NOT consensual.
Multiple times over a long span of time I lived in Hell because it was his ‘right’ as my husband.
FUCK YOU – YOU LOUSY MISERABLE SONOFABITCH – HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO ME? HOW DARE YOU!
HATE and ANGER and DEPRESSION and MISERY and its all because of YOU, YOU BASTARD
I want to SCREAM – all these fucking years like this because I WAS […]
This is my 1st post in SP. I nvr wanted to b here. But now i am. Coz i started hating my life. How people can easily cheat on us after having a complete relation? How he forget abt the days n nights i hv dedicated to him. Yesss…. I loved him… i loved him too much. Inspite of all the differances, inspite of our family problems. I loved him.
He was elder to me by 11 yrs…. yesss…. n still i loved him…. more than anything else in this world. Went through immense tortures & pains. but still never left him. Carried […]
I’ve finally given up. No joke. I’m fine with dying everything will be better that way. So yeah, bye.
That worthless feeling the knowing that its true. I can’t help but to feel so dumb for holding on to hope I should have went through with it. I should have known that it was too good to be true. Now I’m past depressed and I’m filled with so much hate I cant fucking deal with myself.. They say live life with no regrets but it still living life that I regret ????
I know this is going to sound crazy/weird…..
I literally hate myself. I am a guy, 35 years of age, yet I have missed out on so many great things in life. As a child, and even today, I cannot bear to walk around without a shirt on etc. It has made me become anti social, because I feel I am so ugly I don’t deserve anyone to like me. Yes I am still single because of this, and have no confidence in myself what so ever. I fail at everything I do, get laughed at lot when I make a mistake, so now I never […]
Suicidal thoughts again, cluster headaches, crying, urges to cut myself :‘( I’m feeling numb I dunno what to think or do I keep pushing people away my head is fucked up :‘( I’m fucked up I hate myself so much I’m a fucking fat worthless piece of nothing… I guess my bestfriends lied because they left me… when they said they wouldn’t I just want to hit my head off the wall and pull my hair out I have been sick I dunno what to fucking do it’s slowly killing me and no one I know stays enough to help me .. they get scared […]
If any of you know who I am, you know that when I was 14, last year, I tried to kill myself by swallowing 60+ pills. I was in the hospital for a week. Besides that, I want to tell you what it was like going back to school, and back to social media.
Being back to school was different. I was different. I was much more different than I give credit for. Either way, people took notice of me. I was the talk of the school for a whole month. People watched me like halks. Sympathetic looks? I’ve seen a million. People could be mean, […]
Hi. I am new to posting on here but have been reading this website for a while now. I am planning on taking my life and wanted to share the reason why.
I truly am an awful, despicable person who does not deserve to live. I lie through my teeth to get what I want. I stole over 5 thousand pounds from the company which I worked for who always treated me with the greatest respect and when they found out they should have called the police and have me arrested for stealing and fraud but instead they only dismissed me.
I ruined the greatest relationship in […]
I used to love you. But you fucking broke me. I can’t have one normal conversation with another human, I can’t smile. Can’t laugh! Because you broke me. You ****. I hope you rot and are miserable for eternities. I used to only be suicidal, now that’s changed into homicidal. I used to be sad, so sad. That’s gone now. I don’t feel anything, except ANGER now. Pure hatred. I think if it was my choice to let you live or die, i’d finally smile, watching you burn. I fall asleep thinking about, I dream about it. Dream of your death. I fantasize over it. […]
The mirrors scream at me
The walls abuse me
The doors restrain me
The darkness defines me
The mirrors show a face so tired
Filled with dreams that have been lost
The heart and soul they once admired
Is what my nightmares have come to cost
My hands are shaking as I stare
My legs are weak and there’s no air
Don’t you show me; don’t you dare
Don’t prove to me there’s nothing there
The walls close in and call my name
As vanity subsides […]
My life has slowly come to a stand still. I am stuck, my depression has taken over and I feel like no one loves me anymore. I have had so many people tell me that love is love, but what if there was no love in the first place? I’m tired of falling apart everyday, I am sick of suffering. I don’t want to be here anymore so what is the point. My family tries their best to understand me and relate but it doesn’t work. I have pushed them away and now they are angry. I am not sure why, but I bet it […]
When they asked me if you called me on my birthday, I sad yes, cause I knew that if I told them that you didn’t, they would “hate” you and I don’t want that. They don’t have the rights to hate you, I mean you have not do something bad, hurtful and evil to them. So, the only one who would hate you, would be me. Cause all the things you do to me are pure evil, and still I can’t create the feeling of hate towards you. I think of it, but I don’t feel it. My mouth say it but my heart and […]
you. You think I’m fine. You think I’m happy. You see me smiling, But have you ever noticed that it never reaches my eyes? Don’t fucking tell me how much you care about me. You’ll be gone by morning. That’s fine. I don’t expect to be anything more than a quick lay. I don’t expect to mean anything to you. What you don’t see is that I’ve fucking lost it. I’m clinging to reality with all that I have, But my mind is so far gone. You couldn’t possibly imagine the things that I see when I close my eyes. You would run the other […]
I went from cruising around looking for that 1 and only 1 chance to arise just to come back to the same ghetto, the same situation, the same apt., the same chair, the same thing on the table.
So instead, i pick up this cell phone that ive come to HATE just as much as I HATE MYSELF!
The only difference is…there isnt ANYONE else to HATE ME! There isnt ANYONE else that would ANGERLY-HAPPILY wanna throw me up against the wall AS MUCH AS I WANNA THROW THIS PHONE, and watch ME EXPLODE INTO A THOUSAND PIECES just to fall on the floor… completely and utterly […]