Why are boys so stupid? For all the guys reading this, I would love for you to explain it to me. I have possibly fallen head over heels for someone, and they have no clue. They don’t even like to talk to me. Maybe I’m the stupid one. Eh, it’s probably him. Anyone, if anyone has an idea why they are so dangerously stupid, I would so like to hear it. Thanks for your totally not suicidal related help. Sorry for this post, it will probably be deleted in a little while.
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I wish I would die, that my body would just give out or some freak accident will happen to take me out. I’ve wondered if I could go to a bad area at night and coax someone into shooting me in the head. I feel like placing personal ads saying it’s a last ditch effort before I kill myself, because people need to be taught a fucking lesson about not completely fucking with others feelings.
They had it easy, honestly. Two seconds of pain and now they go out as heroes. Nobody questions anything they did, ever. This universe is so strange. If a stranger shoots us in the head, we instantly become heroes. If we do it ourselves, people call us cowards. Of course there is actually nothing heroic about being shot in the head by a stranger, and nothing cowardly about raising a gun to one’s head and pulling the trigger, but that won’t stop the masses from judging as they will.
I’m sure many of you heard the breaking news today of 2 news reporters being shot to death by a disgruntled former employee while the victims where filming live.
I saw the video and its deplorable and unforgivable. These innocent people where happy, loved life, and didn’t want nor diserve to die. This monster than turned the gun on himself. I never understood why people like this just don’t shoot themselves instead of trying to take others with him.
Thing is – the man is still alive and in critical condition. He shot himself in the head with a handgun. A lot of people have the misconception that […]
She sat alone,
alone and at home,
where her screams were silent,
but her mind was violent.
Her insecurities hid deep inside,
and they indeed eat her alive,
a tear rolled down her face,
as her heart begin to race.
She took her blade and tore her skin,
where her depression lies deep within,
this went on my days, months, years,
and untill she cried her very last tears,
she decided she had enough,
the world around her was much to tough.
She took a gun to her head,
congradalations society,
she is dead.
The e worst thing happened. The guy I love finds someone who likes him, and he gives me this fucking shut that I don’t really love him anyway. Always any fucking excuse to not have to consider me or my feelings!
So, can someone who is 360 pounds even be killed by an impact? What about the head? Would my neck be too thick?
Just found this site and I need to rant. I’m a 19 year old male and I have nothing to live for. My close friends have left the state so I have pretty much no one anymore. I just lost another girl. Another girl who was raped. I’ve only had two girlfriends. The first ones brother raped her and took her virginity and she FORGAVE him. I’ll never understand how victims let that go. My cousin and my mom were also raped, so you could say it’s something I take seriously. I want them dead. But when I tell these girls that, somehow I’m overreacting. […]
I need new people with a fresh perspective in my life specifically to do with transgender issues. I’m so headfucked over this obviously it’s almost driving me to suicide once again. I’m in a dead end in Victoria with nothing but despair and self hatred. No money (which is fine), no friends (cool), no dreams (the kicker). All my dreams died with my old self dying. I don’t want anything anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. The only person I care about I have intense love hate cycles towards and she knows this. So every little thing she does triggers rage attacks.
I want to […]
I met up with my little brother in Victoria today. Fuckin’ cool meeting of the great minds. He’s been goin through some intense changes himself but im glad to see he’s pushing through and making necessary changes. Such a beautifully intense conversation about our current transformations. I’m finally embracing my trans identity and confronting and riding the emotions head on. Such a beautiful freedom. Scary as fuck as I fight my inner judgments and christian past. Fuck it. I feel it, I’m going to do it. Transgender is a fuckin’ gorgeous thing. Such a heavy burden to bear if filled with self hate and fear. […]
“There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, ‘There now, hang on, you’ll get over it.’ Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.”
? Barbara Kingsolver, The Bean Trees
“Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. That’s above and beyond everything else, and it’s not a mental complaint-it’s a physical thing, like it’s physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. They don’t come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people’s words do; they come […]
I’m not evil or I don’t hurt anyone but the dark has pieces of me I can never get back so Im trying to get it back but it feels like im falling back into the hole of the darkness with the depression and loneliness im bringing upon myself I don’t want this for myself I just feel like im drowning in my own head but no one can hear me….it really is a filthy goddamn world we live in its so much pain in the world and people cover it up with a smile.
Lately my aunts been telling me i do or did things yeti have no memory of it, the other day she finally lost it and said i was just fucked up in the head and said she had to walk oug to resist beating the shit out of me. Thats all i remember but i woke up in the middke of the night my arm hurting and by the looks of it i stabbed myself with scissors. The next day i noticed the skin around it turning green, is that bruising from the impact or should i be worried, idk i just didnt know where […]
Trying to make my life more tolerable has resulted in me getting hurt once again. I was the “oops” baby, and i see that my parents try to accept me…But i know they never wanted me from the beginning. I have this indescribable feeling of emptiness that no professional, technique, or exercise can help with. I’ve used sex to coop, sex is great but it doesn’t change the reality of my problem. I’m tired of crying myself to sleep; thoughts of my future, my past, my family & friends, even my own funeral consume my mind. Im a strong person, but this pain inside of […]
Me and you
My love is true
Life is hard
Eye to eye
In the yard
And hand in hand
In my head
Faraway dreams
That they are
But maybe someday they’ll be something more….
Alright, here’s the deal. I need an address from somebody who lives in the states — preferably california so I can tell the border cops I got a destination. I’m going to tell them I’m going to spend a few months time with you at your place to kick back. All pleasure no business this time. (lie). All business AND pleasure. So! Who wants to help me make it big in the city of angels? I’m going to L.A with a dream in my heart. Driving down in my shitty Cavalier with outdated stickers and an exhaust system that’s seen better days but who gives […]
Just thought I’d make a post for those of you suffering physical pain and discomfort.
Many people are ignorant to the “scientific fact” that the left hemisphere of our brain controls motor function to the skeletal muscles on the right side of our body and vice versa. If you were to accept that movement begins with the eyes (you look in the direction you are traveling or intend to travel) then we must also consider the optic nerve and the way in which nerve impulses are sent from the brain (visual corteX) to the eye muscles.
There are in fact 2 branches of optic nerve […]
Latin translation:
(Ancient)
“sui” (of oneself) “caedere” (kill).
(modern)
“suicidium” or “conscivit” .
Greek:
“Aftoktonia”.
My thoughts upon these words, well the obvious “thing” which comes to mind is the cide or SIDE in sui, an anagram of die or dies. This combined with the “Aft” in the greek translation, presumably adapted as a nautical term which denotes either movement towards the STERN or TAIL of a sHIP or AIRcrAFT.
We might say the human body has six sides in three dimensions, that is the top, bottom left and right front and back, with the additional of the inside and outside that makes eight.
Amongst translations for the top as relating to […]
Now I want to kill myself for the simple fact that I’m sick to death of every person on earth saying I’m bat shit crazy and fucked up in the head because I want love in my life!!!! Everyone since I was a kid has said that it’s wrong for me to think about love or want love!! Now I get called bat shit crazy and am said to not know what love is or be capable of loving anyone!!! I am going to fucking kill myself this year so everyone can shut the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!
Everyone always gives me such weird looks whenever I talk or do something. I just say stuff, it’s a constant stream of shit. All because of my anxiety, talking just saying anything is a coping mechanism. People think I’m fucked in the head and they’re right. My actions are also mainly from anxiety, me constantly freaking out and just doing/saying different things because I don’t know any other way to cope except for drugs and self-harm and they’re probably not too good(?). I think I’m gonna flip out tomorrow, I can feel it, it’s not going to be a good day. I kinda feel like […]
Imagine falling head over heels in love with someone. You have been in love with this person, thinking about them, obsessing over them 24/7 for 3 years and it’s still going on. You find out that the intend to propose to you and you couldn’t be happier. You are in a state of ecstasy. In a state of unbelief, that you have to pinch yourself to make sure that everything is real and you are not dreaming.
You really arn’t dreaming but it’s not real. The unconditional love you felt from that someone – it’s not real. The plans that you would be together for ever […]