Cracks in the walls
Deep within darkened halls
Where is the light?
You left me long ago
Will I leap?
From this deathly height
Or will I go running?
In terrible fright
Can you keep what matters most?
Or do you rip
Hearts from throats?
Can I count you as a friend?
Or will you hound me
To the end?
This girl I really like, Mary, found out that I cut. And about my recent suicide attempt. She took my arm today and drew all over it. Hearts, butterflies, her name, the whole shebang. She told me shes rooting for me and that I can get through this. I think I believe her. So I’m setting the clock to zero and letting the numbers grow. Hopefully I won’t have to reset it to zero any time soon. I’m going for a personal record of over a week clean. Wish me luck 🙂
I found this list posted as “What happy people do” … blah blah. I will link to the article below – but although i disagree with the general premise that suggests that if you follow these points you will suddenly “be happy” (Yeah, i scoffed with a sarcastic chucklesnort too) … but they ARE valid point that when most are adopted and incorporated into our every day life and decision making, they CAN make life less abrasive and irritable. A lot of these involve making conscious choices that can evolve into unconscious and automatic responses to situations that would normally inflame an already difficult day […]
Today I attended the funeral of a family friend, she was 22 years young and she had taken her own life on the 8th of august. I didn’t know her very well, but anyone could see she was very naturally beautiful with a contagious smile and an infectious laugh.
She was well known and well loved by so many people, all I’ve heard is how amazing she is, how she was free-spirited, selfless, caring and kind. I heard how much she loved people, music and how devoted she was to her family and friends.
I heard she was a beautiful, bubbly, spiritual and loving young […]
DON’T YOU DARE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJxgrSCZJ1s
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother, father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will […]
Ernest Hemingway came up with the challenge and a pretty sad one to start it off (“For Sale: Baby shoes. Never worn”). use any punctuations you want for your stories but only 6 words. no more no less. lets see what we can come up with! I’ll start:
The spaceships rose. Their hearts sank.
Just actually sit down to think about it
Love is a myth and you can live with out it
Love and pain go hand and hand
If you cant see it why believe you can
You want to see you want to believe
In your heart its not make believe
Use your mind your heart’s deceived
By the one called your hearts thieve
In the end why feel the pain
From the myth love let your mind restrain
To let your heart be broken and stained
Is a huge risk and in the end what do you gain
When you think your in love
Fall […]
Tonight is the last meeting of a Suicide Survivors group that I’ve been going to for a months. Its a group for people who have survived at least one suicide attempt in the last year. I adore the group members and hope them all the best… it breaks my heart thinking that I will be abandoning them in the following weeks; Â I believe its better to disapear then to make any announcement that I will be following through with my exit plan. It fills me with sadness to imagine any of the other members doing what I will be doing to myself… I baked cupcakes […]
Oklahoma This Is For You!
To help
If I won the lottery,
I would feel free;
I’d give it all to you,
Because it’d be up to me.
I don’t care how much the cost,
Don’t care how many there are;
Whether you’re nice, mean, in between,
I still hope it would go far.
Houses torn down everywhere,
People have no place to stay;
They could only sit and watch,
As their homes just blew away.
Kids were at the school,
Trying to take cover;
As it began to hit,
They were protecting one another.
Some didn’t make it,
Broken hearts all around;
Let’s take a moment of silence,
And please no make a sound.
Losing a loved one is painful,
Something everyone can feel;
Too bad […]
Hello, I am Scott Hildreth, the Author of Broken People. At the age of thirteen, my uncle committed suicide. I hated him for it. At the age of twenty one, my girlfriend committed suicide. I spent a lifetime carrying a poem that she left me in my wallet. Additionally, I carried guilt. Crushing guilt. I felt awful, guilty, and no longer trusted people.
A few years ago, a close friend committed suicide. Then, I decided it was my turn.
I didn’t succeed.
This year, I met a girl who needed help. A suicidal bulimic teen.
I wrote a very uplifting and deep book that has touched the hearts of […]
She stood in the cold rain, watching the people pass, remembering… She remembered him, remembered when he was more; when he was something human. She remembered the sun on their faces, when they loved each other, and thought of how they could have been, the family they could have had… They could have had everything… And as her eyes closed on the cruel world, the rain turned warm and thick from her eyes. The world cried for her, for her and for the broken heart of the sea…
Not a day that went by without him thinking about her; her beautiful face, charming laugh, and radiant […]
it used to be that we were together
told everything to one another
we never kept a thing away
even when it came to our razor blades
we had the oddest friendship
bandaging the bloody mess
that was our arms
the reflection of our hearts
we were different in every way
from the way we looked to why we’d lay
in dark rooms with blood running down
sleeping peaceful in each others scarred up arms
you were quite
while i would scream
your words were mine
my tears were yours
forever be in our course
once to many
time to say
we tried to stop
why we felt […]
what is wrong with me , this may sound stupid and worthless but im so sick of people walking all over me , what have i ever done wrong to get hurt so much in my life, im 15 years old and i think i might be devolping bi polar disorder, i always put an act on infront of others, when im around my family and friends i act happy and im the most cheerful person ever but when im by myself at night times i cry , sometimes even cry myself to sleeep. i have cut a couple times but not deep enough so […]
I feel like giving up. Every day I put on a false face and mask the real me just so people dont get to close. Im tired of being alone, im tried of being scared. But Im tired of getting hurt. Since I was little its been days and days of hurting. The names I get called. the names are the worst. and then they hit me and i laugh it off. everyone thinks im so happy. but my hearts a ticking bomb. im going to explode. and each night before i go to sleep. i cut just enough to feel the sting and see […]
I’m lost I can’t even keep a steady thought. My meds failed me I was so much worse. I’m unappreciated and I am so through with my duties in life. My responsibility isn’t even a reality for people. Why must I burden myself with the heavy hearts of everyone around me. I make there issues my own because they mean more than my own life. Now I want to just take mine and leave it at that. I don’t even want to move anymore everything sets me off. I’m beginning to feel the end is near I’ve been going strong for so long. I don’t […]
Hi everyone,
I’ve read most of your stories, and they’ve made me quiver. Your life should never be thought as negative. You were put on this earth for a reason. If you say you’re not loved, you’re wrong. So many people have the biggest hearts and would love to get to know you if you allowe yourself to open up. I know you have been hurt by someone in the past that allows you to put a wall up, but being vulnerable is a beautiful thing. It allows you to feel something, rather than nothing. Even if it feels like you’re not worth something, you are worth […]
Youtube song:
Click here -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS8sqgBgzG8&feature=endscreen&NR=1
Get Well by Icon For Hire http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS8sqgBgzG8&feature=endscreen&NR=1
It’s got a good sound, please listen!
“Get Well”
We throw tantrums like parties
We’re not happy ’til everyone knows we’re sick
And that’s just how we like it
We’ve hurt bad enough, right, we’ve earned itDon’t tell the others but it’s all getting old I mean how many more times must our stories be told?
And being lonely’s only fun in a group It sort of loses it’s charm when it’s true
I meant it when I said I wanna get well, I wanna get well
Are the rest of you so content
Stay […]
Hearts beats together as one
Brown eyes stare
Hand shivers at your embrane
Knees weaken
What, Why is this happen
Tears falls
A silent mumble
Falls slowly to the ground
Will you be there to lift me back up
No no you wont
These emotions, these feelings
Of solitude , of loneliness has overcome me
No clue nor understanding
What do you want of me
I am dead , cold ice cold
These emotions have caused murder
I died in solitude and alone
Hand-written 🙂
We carry the scars on our bodies everywhere we go. We carry the scars on our hearts. We carry the fear someone will see them, we carry the shame when people do. We carry pins, knives, razors. We carry bandaids & disinfectant. We carry a little kernel of hope that we will get out of this. We carry hearts so heavy they drag on the ground. We carry our bloodstained clothes. Sometimes we carry hospital bills for stiches. Othertimes we carry them for therapists. We are the burdens on our families, we are the misunderstood. We are the ones who people stay away from when […]
My hearts broken. false hope.
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