Well people it’s a cliché that we born to die, but is true we have moments but always the end is dead, so what is the problem with smoke? What is the problem with uncontrolled sex? What is the problem?
We spend all our life trying to find a way to live more years or to be healthy… Life is more than that and maybe that’s why we are here in this site screaming and begging to someone’s support and a shoulder to cry, we are a symbol of self harm because we choose it unconsient.
I know how hard is but please take my […]
I’ve been really depressed over the last six months to the point where I often think about killing myself. I recently have confessed to my mom that I’m having suicidal thoughts. She sat me down and told me she loved me and would do anything for me but I’m finding that harder and harder to believe since its been almost a month since I gave out that obvious cry for help and my own loving mother almost seemed to gnore my plea. I need help but my pride is enough to stop me from straight out asking for it. What should I do?
I’m always nice to people, open-minded and honest (I admit it, sometimes to honest) though prole always start harassing me even if they just see me once and/or don’t even know me are treating me really badly. Pushing me, calling me names and beat me. I feel horrible and I am just wondering when I will be ever accepted? Maybe after I am dead …
So … I haven’t told anyone about my suicide thoughts but I can really just say I am exhausted of life. Not that I don’t appreciate it, I just want to be once something or someone I have planned. I believe in the afterlife and after reading the book “many lives, many masters” my fear and point of view of the afterlife or what is happening after the dead. I did research and I found out and it’s what that book is delivering: you can choose who and what you want to be in your next life, life lesson you want to learn and a […]
Life is hateful mean and cruel each day  we feel like screaming  but we stop and know that it doesn’t matter if we do or not because everybody has turn a deaf ear. We feel trapped lost and chain to the habits that run in a never ending circle.
I want to help-help people like me who just want things to be right again. Who wants someone to care, to love them regardless of the past mistakes , who wants to be happy with her/himself , who is so tired of being strong and for once just want to be weak and have someone to pick them up.  I am here to help along with to […]
Tonight I have a goal. I want to smile. I want to smile, have fun, and let everything irrelevant go. I challenge you to try the same. I challenge you to call a friend and talk, make plans, or just catch up. If you want, I will be that friend. Tonight I will leave the house with a smile on my face and stress free. Please try and do the same, I want you all to realize you’re beautiful enough to be smiling and worries will disappear. 😀
I wrote an essay on how to be happy and remain in that state of mind no matter the situations in your life. It basically focuses in changing your mental process. i believe that if we learn how to control our thoughts, we can control our emotions and actions. For example, if you catch yourself having bad thoughts, learn how to replace them by good thoughts. Its a long process but it can help you if you put effort into it and continue to practice it with patience and belief. Some of us have gone through the worst things in life, in fact, depression and […]
When I’m feeling the most down, I try not to look sad.
I absoultly hate when people pity your life.  It has to be the worse thing.
Which is why you smile.
“Are you alright Elisabeth?”
“Oh yeah absoultly.”
Just smile, and hope that one day everything will actually be aliright(:
I said hope, I don’t know if that’ll actually happen.
.. Have i ever thought i’d get to this point no.. im only 14 why am i here. What did i do to deserve this. I guess this is the time i’d share my story right? Exsplain it all get it out, wipe my slate clean. But im sure none of you care to hear my story. So if you dont stop reading, its not gonna be a happy one.
I was 3 when my mom kidnapped me, she abused me every day tried to kill me once out of jealousy, cause after i was born no one gave her attention anymore. Great mom right? after […]
Hoping for the best
Ready for the worst.
Death is easy
Life is hard.
Knowing’s painful
Ignorance is bliss.
MY PAIN SURPASSES MY COPING RESOURCES….that nailed it!!!!
IÂ have more pain than resources to cope with them!
IÂ am working on that!!!
 Friday I saw a counsellor
 I expressed my need to come up with a “””game plan””” for my life
 She helped in connnecting me to a women’s organization who will help with resumes, job hunts, following leads, ( because to my muddled brain this is the crux of my depression, not to mention being off work with a shattered leg)
Please God, help me stay focused and able to hang on until I get to that appointment on Tuesday.
Everyone always says I am so strong but for heavens sake people,  it is a front […]
I wrote this song a year ago in hopes of saving some lives. I wrote it in loving memory of a friend who committed suicide for being gay. This is for you, Asher Brown.
Every story I have read left me in disarray
I wonder what I could say to you to make it all go away
I know your days are getting darker and colder
But someday, I’ll regret never being able to help you as I grow older
I’m trying to get you on the telephone
Just so you know you’re not alone
Chorus:
Hold on even when you feel like falling away
Give […]
Invisible
Could she belong too?
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My invisible,
Let her play and run.
Have her day in the sun,
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But my sweet invisible
It’s only for a day.
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For they don’t want you
They cast you aside
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My darling invisible,Â
But we love you
Life even without love
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It’s worth living
My invisible
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The sweetheart you are,
Shine today as the brightest star
But only today
Invisible
You were always visible to me
Love. It’s such a simple thought, yet it’s so complicated. We spend our whole lives looking for that one person. That one person that loves you unconditionally. That one person that wants to be with you forever. That one person that understands.
I found this person 7 months ago. He’s perfect, absolutely perfect. I couldn’t ask for anyone better. He understands i’m manic depressive. He understands I sometimes need my space. He understands I’ll be suicidal. It’s a feeling of content in your heart, when you know you’ve found the one and only person you want to be with forever.
I unambivalently want to die. I’m 32. I’m getting married in five days. I have been diagnosed with a mood disorder as well as a personality disorder. I have sacrificed so many things on the altar of mental illness: serious relationships, a career, contact with family, financial stability, dignity. Few people know how horrible I feel most of the time. I work in the mental health field & should take better care of myself. I don’t take any meds or do many of the things that I could do to help myself feel better. Sometimes I think that I’ve become so inured to the pain associated […]
I have attended four highschools, all completely different. With completely new teachers, new classes, and new classmates. With each school year I’ve been that girl who rarely spoke, the girl who just went to school then went back home.I had no life, because I never opened up and allowed people to get close to me.
Every new school year my mother says I’ll find some new friends who won’t stab me in the back, but every time I’m invited to hang out, my mother says no. She claims it’s because she doesn’t know these people, and I think ‘how will you ever know them if […]
I know very soon i will start an attempt but this will be a little different.Pills almost did me in about a week ago.i told the psych at er id try again in two weeks guess shell be seeing me again.Anyway i have this image of slicing a line with my moms box cutter starting at the elbow going straight down almost to the wrist.
But thats not what i want to talk about.
I want to talk about what the key making dcisions and steps you need to determine wether you can actually go through with it or not.
1. can […]
 i don’t know why i came to this site. i’m not actually reaching out for help. After comming here and reading a few of the postings though i couldn’t help but share.
 About 10 months ago i started having problems at work. my job was as a vendor for a rather large well known company, which serves grocery stores, restaraunts, ect. (please pardon my lack of proper spelling and grammer) The company required us to write shift notes for the weekend person covering our shift so i had complete documentation of everything our customer, the company itself, and/or i needed done. Over the course […]
I’ve failed.
at so many things.
life, mostly. work. people. I’m consumed by the pointlessness of it all, now, too. I can’t see a way out. And nothing makes sense.
I just want it all to go away.
One way or another.
September 10th of every year is World Suicide Prevention Day.  To acknowledge the importance of this day, as well as those who have forfeited their voices in exchange for freedom from their unspeakable suffering, New Middle Press would like to offer 50 free copies of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself to the first 50 individuals who respond (as well as the administrator of this site, if he/she would like a copy). For information about Dear Mallory, please go to www.newmiddlepress.com. If you would like […]