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Hopelessness

Little Angel

by lostone18 5/26/2012

written by lostone18

Little angel, don’t you see how beautiful you are?
It’s time to stand up and wipe the tears from your eyes.
You are fighting this hopelessness and the end Â seems so far.
For every second that passes, it feels like a part of you dies.
And they make you feel as if your feelings are not up to par.
But it is time to be strong cus I’m right beside you, fighting the lies

You’ve been fighting for so long,
Little Angel
Can’t you feel that you are strong,
Little Angel
Because it is in you that I see hope,
Little Angel
It was you who […]

5/26/2012 3 comments

A poem…

by lostone18 5/21/2012

written by lostone18

Little angel, don’t you see how beautiful you are?
It’s time to stand up and wipe the blood from your eyes.
You are fighting this hopelessness and the end Â seems so far.
For every second that passes, it feels like a part of you dies.
And they make you feel as if your feelings are not up to par.
But it is time to be strong cus I’m right beside you, fighting the lies

5/21/2012 1 comment

Broken Wings

by lonely0831 4/26/2012

written by lonely0831

As i sit here i am playing “Born to Be Somebody” by Justin. Ive been listening to it for about 30 minutes now. ive never been one who’s into his music, but this song is helping me with my broken wings.

I am so tired, emotionally drained, mentally exhausted, just everything in me is tired. I wake up each and everyday and i plant a smile on my face. what else can i do? i was born into a family of strong christian faith and this, my feelings, my broken wings are not acceptable. So i hide. Smiling in my mother’s face like a hypocrite, laughing […]

4/26/2012 0 comment

organ donor

by livingnightmare 3/31/2012

written by livingnightmare

I wrote that on my arm last time I was on a psych ward, and then was about to take my life when the girl with learning disabilities across the hall from me came and knocked on my door wanting me to do her nails. She had been through so much and we were friends, she really didn’t deserve to have to watch me be brought out in a body bag which would have happened right outside her room. So I held on for a while and now I feel the same hopelessness again, the same desperation I just wish there was a way to […]

3/31/2012 2 comments

maybe in heaven,

by idunno 3/28/2012

written by idunno

Maybe in heaven, there will be understanding.

Understanding of the motives of each and everyone.

Understanding why they feel the way they feel.

Maybe it will be more than understanding, maybe you will get a first person glimpse of what it is like to be someone else.

Connecting of each other to form a peaceful, heavenly bond.

Madness, disappointment, RAGE,Â hatred, disgust, FEAR, sadness, grief, humiliation, shyness, cowardliness, regret, sorrow, loneliness, Physical pain, emotional pain, stress, turmoil, suffering, HOPELESSNESS, nonsense,Â will be overcame.

Maybe in heaven, things will all make sense. It will all PUZZLE together.

Why there is pain.

Pain adds character. Pain breedsÂ experience, wisdom, knowledge, meaning, bravery and resilience.

Pain makes […]

3/28/2012 2 comments

When I’m Depressed I’m Happy

by Cheerio 3/1/2012

written by Cheerio

I’ve written about this before but I feel the need to write about it again. When I’m depressed I’m happy.

Let me explain…

Today for the first time in awhile I wasn’t depressed at all. I haven’t been on any antidepressants for two days and all of a sudden I can breathe. I’m tempted to start taking them again so I get worse. When I’m depressed people worry about me. It’s the only time I know they actually care about and love me. They take care of me so I don’t have to. I guess too that I’m so familiar with sadness, hopelessness, helplessness, hatefulness, shame, guilt […]

3/1/2012 2 comments

I have always known…

by FadingAgain89 2/9/2012

written by FadingAgain89

Even as a child I knew how my life would end, I used to think it would be before my 21st birthday. My 23rd birthday is next month, I cant count how many failed attempts I have had. I do know that I am better educated now, I know what will and wont work, how much I should take and when to take it. I have a generalized date set, it wont be until after my birthday, it would be selfish to do it sooner. I have chosen to overdose, I have the medications I need. The money for a hotel room. I am calm […]

2/9/2012 6 comments

i want to die so badly

by bex21 1/17/2012

written by bex21

Hiya I am a 21year old and since I was about 12 all I have felt is despair and hopelessness. I can’t remember the last time I was happy. I attempted to jump off a bridge last night but just my luck the police turned up. I feel useless I can’t even kill myself properly. They took me to the mental hospital but they didn’t even speak to me just told the police to take me home. So looks like I was right all along I can’t be helped otherwise they would help me right? So it looks like my only option is suicide at […]

1/17/2012 3 comments

Unattainable.

by U.N. Owen 1/16/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Something I wrote years ago expressing my only real goal.Â I was raised southern baptist.Â And while most people fell on their knees and bowed to god I wanted to be one.Â And I read some of the Torah, Quran, a lot on Buddha, the Hindu deities, Shinto etc.Â I figured that I’d wipe the slate clean and just give all beings the chance to create their own universe to their own liking and they could be free to interact or not as they will.Â None of this forced acquiescence and forced submission that currently exists. If so many ideals, rules, expectations, mores, traditions, religions, […]

1/16/2012 2 comments

I Was Nothing

by Chelsii 8/16/2011

written by Chelsii

I thought I was nothing once…
It seemed I was a small, insignificant part of the world, and when I died everything would keep moving forward as if I didn’t ever existed in the first place. My hopelessness… my struggles… they were all too much for me. I was ready to die, not knowing what was on the other side, but hoping it was better than the hell I was living.

I was two years old when my parents divorced. I was the daughter of a 24 year old Sunday School Teacher and a beautiful 18 year old High School Graduate, but others in our community […]

8/16/2011 18 comments

Splinter’s case: is humanity and mankind hopeless?…

by niki 8/14/2010

written by niki

Some of the thoughts & responses have really reshaped my perspective on life, humanity, truth, and pain.
But unfortunately, I got so depressed again at how humanity & mankind in REALITY are progressing.
I just looked at the latest update regarding Splinter’s story, and my chest suddenly feels so heavy, that I can’t explain it by mere words. Even I have such a very HARD time to sit in front of computer, and write another reply/comment,..and especially fueled with some unfortunate ‘flame wars’ here showed me of how differing each person’s perspective is,..and it makes me eventually ponder, think, and ask this ultimate question, that […]

8/14/2010 19 comments

Helium hood method

by robbieinman 7/28/2010

written by robbieinman

I only just found this site, which is pretty weird seen as I have been searching and studying suicide methods for 3 years.

Just briefly: I have known that I would take my own life for about ten years (I’m 37), and for 3 years I knew that the time was near and I started to study methods. the past year has been detailed planning.

Since I was 15 I have taken many overdoses, some of them massive (280 paracetamol, 80 sleeping pills and alcohol). Each and every time I have survived, obviously. But I warn you now, recovery is horrible, absolutely horrible, I can’t stress that […]

7/28/2010 718 comments

I’m so alone

by whitbread 8/31/2009

written by whitbread

I am depressed and sad and I’ve tried everything, and I don’t think I can go on. I have tried meds, therapy, doctors, yoga, everything. i get thirty seconds of peace each morning immediately after I wake.Â Then it’s like someone turns on the radio in my head and it’s a constant rant of hopelessness and hurt.Â

One of the frustrating parts is hardly anybody knows the truth, andÂ I have nobody to talk to.Â My dad was aÂ world champion sales repÂ because heÂ was a true expert in how to make people feel goodÂ and feel comfortable.Â He was born withÂ the touch.Â I learned it from him.Â I am also an expert at […]

8/31/2009 15 comments

New Insight on Existence…

by missesMask 3/13/2009

written by missesMask

Life.The last couple of days have seen the spawning of a journey out of the abyss. So much deep emotion, (confusion, anger, fear, and hopelessness) was building up and needed to be released into the atmosphere. I still think about those things (meaninglessless, conditional love, my mistakes, my future) but when I feel myself slipping asunder, I mentally create a hypothetical situation that I know would be 100% unbearable, then measure how much worse it is than my present state.

I talk to the Universe, thanking it for taking care of the souls who have departed, praying for their happiness.Then I ponder on things completely unrelated […]

3/13/2009 6 comments

SEE! NONE OF US ARE REALLY ALONE!!

by missesMask 3/11/2009

written by missesMask

I truly understand how you feel life is meaningless. I have felt that way for months and it is very painful. SOme days I think its the day to get it over with, because the pain and hopelessness is just unbearable. This life just feels like a dirty little trick played on us by biology, or cosmology, or whatever. The strange thing is, I think that even though we are suicidal )some of us severely so) I donâ€™t think we really WANT to die. I think we just want answers. THough it seems those answers arenâ€™t reachable (outside ourselves) maybe they arenâ€™t even as important […]

3/11/2009 5 comments

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