this year has been horrid, I lost my girlfriend after a drug induced psychosis and wasted all of my money, I’ve managed to save some up again but I’m over feeling hopelessly depressed everyday. I’m buying enough pure nicotine to make sure it works, I tried oleander but nothing happened. My family will be upset but I just can’t do it anymore
“Make today ridiculously amazing”
Think of someone you love, your favorite food, favorite song, favorite show- your favorite part of yourself. Now if you can’t think of anyone or anything, just know that I think you’re amazing for staying with us for so long, even though you are going through some really horrid stuff. You deserve a ridiculously amazing day, because you are ridiculously amazing 🙂
Alrighty my loves, I have another positive challenge for the day ahead. I would like if all of you told me one thing in this world that inspires you, whether it be music or food (heh food is mine) or a special pet or a loved one. By doing this, I hope to inspire a little light in the hearts of those who are having a horrid day to take a gander and remember that there are things and people that make your life worth living. Good luck, loves!!! 🙂
Hey you, yes you, with the razor in your hand
and the tears in your eyes, I hope this has
reached you in time.
Dont drag the blade across your wrist,leg,hip or tummy.
Hey you, yes you, with the pills in your hands
and death on your mind. I hope this has
reached you in time.
Dont swallow those pills. I actually care.
Hey you, yes you, with the rope around your
neck and vodka on your breath. I hope this has
reached you in time.
Dont jump dont hop just stop. Remove the
rope step off the chair, I care.
Hey you, yes you, with the horrid past and […]
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So today was a pretty bad day for me. I got sent home from school because I couldn’t stop crying. Well, I told them the reason was because of a bad headache, but in reality I just couldn’t find the strength to get through the day. The thought of walking around and talking to people who I know don’t like me, the thought of simply being somewhere I don’t belong scared me. So I cried. I continued to do so until I got home where I finally slept. But my dreams were simply filled with horrific scenarios which I dare not repeat for thought of […]
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This year I was diagnosed with Renal cancer for the 3rd time.In 2005 I lost my left kidney to it.2nd time it showed up in my right kidney and got a botched surgery to remove the tumor. Only thing is this time (the 3rd) it’s spread throughout my body. I will not die of it. I am a nurse and have watched too many people die of this horrid disease and I refuse to let it take me.I do not want my families last memory of me to be that of me lying in a hospital bed,wracked with pain,on so much Morphine I don’t […]
Above are a few of my older shots repurposed or recycled to make one piece.. Is that what I am? Am I just something that someone forgot about? It’s like whatever put me here found me and decided that I could be used to take everyone’s shit. Have I been repurposed? I used to be proud of who I was.. Not so much now..
A flower destroyed for its fragrance
A singer being forced to dance
A branch broken to cause pain
Water released to go down the drain
All of […]
I feel so fucking ashamed that for a second foolish time I could believe it was actually worth something to someone!!! I knew from day fucking 1 when you said how you felt that it was a lie, but me being the stupid fucking ***** I am trusted and believed you.. You and all these other people are nothing but lies. That’s all everything ever is!! LIES!! I know I’m worth nothing, I knew I was never worth your time or anyone else’s.. I wish that you’d just admit it. Just once, admit that I am worthless and that I never meant a damn thing […]
Just another slice at a slow soothing pace
Just another pill to drown that horrid face
Just another life, just another feast
I can not escape the ugly beast
It’s all reality, some say a thrilling ride
But there’s nothing thrilling about wanting to die…
Call me bleak
Call me blind
Call me weak
But you see I’ve been caught up in a daunting bind..
In this hole far to deep
80feet under I try to escape
Can’t escape a hole that never changes shape…
I decided to off myself some time ago, but in the middle of getting everything arranged (will, notes to people left behind, etc.), I rekindled a love with a wonderful girl I met my freshman year of college (5 years ago at this point). Â I was so fascinated and enthralled with her that I thought, maybe, somehow, this is what I’ve needed. Â Something healthy and fulfilling after years of miserable, abusive, horrid intimate relationships. Â So, I put everything off.
Afterwards, I was happy, really happy for a spell, and every part of me was distracted by her. Â Even when bad feelings came, I knew I had […]
I could do the whole life is meaningless and pointless because personally in my eyes it’s true. I just wanted to express the fact as to how everything is so black and white to me now. I see people but not the faces its weird. I used to think life was so beautiful and just perfect but  i don’t know if its because got older or whatever but nothings the same.  I see the world for what it truly is which is such a terrible and horrible place ( in my eyes) but, iv’e recently made plans for suicide and if all goes as planned […]
Life is so impossible. I mean you look at other people, and their lives seem so great. But then I think about myself…I have nothing to live for. The feeling of worthlessness and feeling inadequate follows me everywhere.
Is it fated that I won’t be happy? All I really want is to be happy. I’m hung in a bad place, where I can’t get down from and the outlook is horrid.