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I Don T Care

I don’t care…

by AlwaysSoTired123 2/5/2018

written by AlwaysSoTired123

“If I drive fast enough…the impact will make it quick.” “If I could just drink a little more, I’ll fall right to sleep…” ” If I could just cut a little deeper…” These thoughts used to scare the hell me…but now, they just hang around in my head, like a lingering headache, that you just can’t seem to get rid off. Death now, doesn’t scare me. I don’t care if there’s ‘another life’ after this one or if I just end up as plant food. I just don’t care anymore. I haven’t cared for a very very long time.

…I don’t care if deep inside, I rot […]

2/5/2018 2 comments

I’m sick of it…

by endingtheagony 6/6/2013

written by endingtheagony

I go day by day trying to act like everything is wonderful. I am forced by others to maintain a smile on my face because if at any point I am unhappy, a whirlwind of shit talking begins. I get crap from everyone around me, so there’s no way that I can try to talk to anyone and try to get better. But I’m not allowed to ever feel upset? If I had a gun, I would already be dead, no doubt in my mind. I am tired of living and I am tired of people telling me that things will get better when they […]

6/6/2013 3 comments

seeing

by why i dont no 5/12/2013

written by why i dont no

I see people end it all around me

itsÂ suffocating knowing your next but in some way saying yer its cool I can do this I don’t care

shoot me now for all I know im a drunk hiy fool in a life he never deserved so tonight next week moths time ill be gone unless I fined some thing worth doing… this for……. if im honest I don’t know what to do now nor what im doing now for fuck sake iv lost it all all it takes is one biff and bye bye mother fuckers im off I don’t know why I bother doing aney thingin […]

5/12/2013 0 comment

Let it all go

by kidsuicide 5/7/2013

written by kidsuicide

I wish I could restart like a video game. Start over new so I could do everything differently. Every time I turn on my iPod every song I listen to has memories attached to them. I don’t want these memories any more.

I just want to forget the past and let go of this pain. This pain is like a rope that won’t hang me, instead it holds me back, stopping me from moving on.
I just want to let go of the past. The memories. The pain they cause.
I just want to move past this.

I don’t care how I do it, weather it’s with […]

5/7/2013 2 comments

I’m afraid, but not afraid to die

by mes1234 4/16/2013

written by mes1234

For the past three months I’ve been a recluse. I was in college, excited about life, happy, and i was in control of my depression. Now I’m too depressed to continue school, scared of the future, want no future, and I just don’t have the will to live. I don’t want to continue life. I’ve been suffering and I’ve tried to manage my depression with medication, therapy, and alternative treatments. I’m honestly willing to electrocute myself to cure my suffering. I spend my days at home playing with my dogs and watching tv. My therapist and psychiatrist are pushing me to get back into the […]

4/16/2013 7 comments

Lets struggle with eachother

by KaylaKat 1/31/2013

written by KaylaKat

Life is hateful mean andÂ cruelÂ each day Â we feel like screaming Â but we stop and know that it doesn’t matter if we do or not because everybody has turn a deaf ear. We feelÂ trappedÂ lost and chain to theÂ habitsÂ that run in a never endingÂ circle.

I want to help-help people like me who just want things to be right again. Who wants someone to care,Â to love themÂ regardless of the past mistakesÂ , who wants to be happy with her/himself , who is so tired of being strong and for once just want to be weak and have someone to pick them up. Â I am here to help along with to […]

1/31/2013 4 comments

I want to die

by person1235 1/22/2013

written by person1235

I’m tired. Really really tired. I just realized something today. I’ve been struggling my whole life for what? Nothing I do can change the outcome of my life. All I can do is choose whether I want to make things more difficult for myself or not.

I haven’t seen my therapist in almost a month. I know I should contact her and I feel bad for not showing up. But, talking with her is painful. It reminds me of what things should be like and how I want things to be. But, that’s never going to happen for me.

I could go to school. I could suck […]

1/22/2013 2 comments

Numb.. So very numb.

by loveisdifficult 12/22/2012

written by loveisdifficult

I’m numb. No emotions, no feelings. Nothing.
I don’t care if I get hurt. I kick my toe, nothing.
I hit my head, nothing. I cut my wrists, nothing.
I don’t feel heart ache anymore. I don’t care if I cut to deep.
I don’t even care if my family find out what I write on here.
I’m 16 name is Chaifair, I live in a nothing town with people who just don’t care.
I’m over living my life like a happy little trooper. I’ve been faking my smile all day.
No one knows what goes on in my mind, because I don’t know either.

12/22/2012 4 comments

What I really want

by RuinsOfTheVoid 12/2/2012

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

I was making a presentation today for a job interview and I came to the conclusion that IÂ don’tÂ really care about it. ItÂ doesn’tÂ matter if I have the best job in the world, or if im smarter than anyone else. If im alone then I am the loser in the end.

So I am going toÂ organizeÂ my life around the correct priorities. So no more games. they just numb the pain of being alone. This site is kind of doing the same. I spend aÂ lotÂ of time here and I guess its probably not the best thing for me. I should be going places and doing things. Which is very […]

12/2/2012 3 comments

I’m always here

by BeautyIsSkinDeep 11/23/2012

written by BeautyIsSkinDeep

All my life I’ve been taught that no one cares.

No one wants to hear how bad you got it.

Everybody has their own problems to worry about.

I’ve learned to not trust anyone

I’ve been told that no one is genuinely who they say they are.

Well although all of that is true one way or another. I don’t care … I don’t want to be “everyone”.

I want toÂ be different. I know I’ve gone through some hard crap. But who hasn’t …

I wantÂ judge anyone.Â If you need someone to talk to, i’m here. I never had anyone to talk to,Â and I don’t think it was fair.

So i’m trying to help, […]

11/23/2012 5 comments

The ‘Hunger’ Games

by Gumpy 11/6/2012

written by Gumpy

I’m so hungry. Why don’t i eat? It’s so stupid. There’s food but i can’t eat. Everytime i eat now, there is this really pressuring, annoying voice inside my head calling me fat and a big loser. I’m going to stop eating, except for dinner. I just think that if i don’t eat, i’ll be prettyier and skinnier. Not the most truest theory but i’ll try it anyway. Maybe it’ll make things better, maybe it won’t, but i don’t care. When i don’t eat, i feel really skinny and i don’t know why. I’ve got a stomach the size of a whale but when i […]

11/6/2012 5 comments

Make Like Kurt Cobain.

by DarlingDaughterDamaged 10/25/2012

written by DarlingDaughterDamaged

Seriously?

That’s what it comes down to?

For those of you who don’t know SP chat used to be a great place to vent, find friends, even be yourself. But the tides have changed. An influx ofÂ immature Moderators and Admins has made it a living hell. No one can get along when there is always a side to be chosen. The chat was closed TWICE last night. Whatever happened to talking it out?

When the chat closes you aren’t just making the people fighting angry you make EVERYBODY angry. Â Oancu needs to learn to stop complaining all the time, and let someone else speak. Custard. STOP DEFENDING HER. […]

10/25/2012 19 comments

questioned

by katiebear12 9/4/2012

written by katiebear12

today i saw a new therapist and she asked me quite a few questions i was uncomfortable answering but i tried hard to answer. she said a lot of stuff that caught my attention. one question she asked me was “what motivates you?” and i didn’t like that i couldn’t find an answer to it. i don’t know what motivates me to do anything or why i get up and do the things i do, and that scares me. i remember writing something down in a diary/journal that i was afraid of becoming like a zombie, being emotionless and not knowing what keeps me going, […]

9/4/2012 1 comment

Wanna know THE answer to your problem?

by peregrinatingdream 6/1/2012

written by peregrinatingdream

If you don’t take away anything else by the time you finish reading this entry, then I hope you at least will take away this one thought that could perhaps be the greatest revelation in your life which you don’t even know about yet; and it’s this…………………………

YOU. MATTER.

Your problems matter. And someone out there does love you even when you think you’ve been rejected, hit rock bottom, and can no longer find comfort in living.

…Hey, been there. Done that. I have the scars on the inside and out to prove it….and no, I don’t care for a repeat either because as much as it lingers […]

6/1/2012 8 comments

One Dead Bird

by Violet Blake 5/5/2012

written by Violet Blake

I found a dead bird in my front yard the other day.

Normally, I wouldn’t be so caught up on this one animal because to be honest I really don’t like birds (long story) but this particular bird was different.

It started with my cousin’s apparent death that is encroaching more and more rapidly with each day.

My cousin, Zachariah, has been my paralyazed from the neck down since he was seventeen in a motocross accident. At first he was still the same cousin I loved, still able to move around in his electric wheel chair which he would always give me rides on whenever I wanted. He […]

5/5/2012 1 comment

I’m almost ready

by Jay3312 4/8/2012

written by Jay3312

I’m almost ready.Â ready for the pain to end, even if it takes more pain. I wrote a suicide letter a goodbye.I have problems if I killed myself i would be doing the world a favor one less messed up person for people to look at and wonder what I’m like. Who I am. Everyone judges people. And in this world that’s all I am to most people. I was Â abused. It changes a person gettingÂ slapped for not eating. Getting kicked for crying. Getting my headÂ slammedÂ into a Â wall because I couldn’t stop crying. It was like that every day .Â I have problems. They are clear to […]

4/8/2012 5 comments

spin spining spining.dizze. spin

by Knightofdoom 4/2/2012

written by Knightofdoom

These thoughts are out of control,I’m going to my therapist later and i just don’t know how to describe these feeling,I’m a tell her i don’t wanna be on meds ne more, cause there not helping, i’ve tried and tried to push , but i losing strength, I feel hopeless these thoughts will always come back, cause i let them, but it only because the feel so raw and true. I believe what you say, i just don’t believe it forever, you lost it, you lost everything, my love is gone and the only thing i feel is hatred to myself and life,, I don’t […]

4/2/2012 5 comments

two steps left

by tphg 2/17/2012

written by tphg

two more life steps and I get to end it all with as little hard feelings as possible.

1. save up nest egg for brother
2. kill self

simple; I don’t care anymore how I earn the money, just that I do. I’m putting this out to my universe so that it sinks deepeer into my brain. I don’t give a fuck about existence. I want out. The things that go on around me, this life, this society of “civilized” apes.. me nah want it. fuck it. keep it. don’t need it. don’t want perception. don’t want a brain. don’t want to know anything. non-existence, c’est ca […]

2/17/2012 1 comment

suicide project

by tphg 1/20/2012

written by tphg

the only time I feel calm without the influence of drugs, is here. Fuck, what’s wrong with me? :s

I think about dying, and now, what holds me back is that I won’t get to swim in the sadness that I’ll cause with my death. I won’t be able to lick the tears of my loved ones as they wonder why they didn’t notice my derangement sooner. I wanna be like huck finn, fake my death and attend my funeral. The only happiness I have is others misfortune and oh golly would I love to feed off the negative energy that would be radiating from my […]

1/20/2012 1 comment

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

by lonelymyfriend 12/29/2011

written by lonelymyfriend

it irritates me soooo godamn much how everyone try to downplay my feelings and coin it as a sort of illness that can be overcome if I try. I’m not looking for sympathy. i don’t care about that either. ppl telling me im still young, i need to see a doc and such really ticks me off. when im angry, i throw things. okay, face it u do-gooders. u arent gonna save us. we dont need u saving. take ur nice ass off somewhere else. im trying my godamn best to live on. i dont need pplÂ saying to buck up, to try harder when im […]

12/29/2011 3 comments

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