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Good morning. Kill me now

by kupo95 3/27/2016

written by kupo95

There gonna make me call my in-laws for Easter I wanna cut my tounge out . then im forced to go to party with alot of people who hate me . why am I going because there grandparents and my grandparents-inlaws are besties. Yay I hope I catch a stomach virus before three o-clock. I wish I would of died in my sleep

I wanna die I wanna bust my head open I can not take this people today self righteous there better then any body on this mother fucking earth .and there th good grandparents meet with others later and all I get I called […]

3/27/2016 28 comments

I have a plan

by sherlame 3/26/2016

written by sherlame

So it’s holy week and i’m going home to my hometown and leaving the city for awhile. Ive been really difficult lately, ive been acting mad all the time ad im just so full of spite, i dont like it. i dont like being mean. but im just so mad. i failed school, it was supposed to be my last term but i fucked it up (after dropping out from a nice school and being in college for a total of 6 years and now my younger sister has graduated ahed of me and already has a nice job and a nice car) so my […]

3/26/2016 0 comment

Ok

by kupo95 3/25/2016

written by kupo95

Im hungry i want. Dounut and im bored somebody talk to me

3/25/2016 61 comments

Look at it

by kupo95 3/25/2016

written by kupo95

72 pounds of patato salad and egg salad finally done Now I clean. Im sooo tried.

3/25/2016 17 comments

BANG BANG ONTO THE POSTS

by Sui the Bunny 3/25/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

Cringe cringe cringe cringe I’m sick of this shit being dumped on me can’t handle it anymore even though I probably sound happy as fuck I’m not. Im slowly killing myself everyday causing my own pain I’m sick of my so called “brother” taking advantage of me. Just because he wants to fix his own life don’t come destroying mine honestly you made your decision marrying that ***** who takes control over your whole and the minute you say no she never lets you forget and then you get depressed and drink your own sorrows away. Can’t you see i’m trying to recover and heal […]

3/25/2016 9 comments

A disappointing mess that has all the potential to be better but through utter incompetence fails to reach potential.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 3/25/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

As I watched moody superheroes fight i realized what this movie is accurately describes my life. It means well has some good parts. But is too depressing and meaningless to be truly enjoyed. Im too much of a fat pos to ever be cared about. I’m too incompetent to improve my life. I’m giving myself 18 months. Its a very short amount of time. If things aren’t improving then it’s off with my head. Im so tired of impoverished lonelines, alienation, and obesity as normalcy. I’m not living. This isn’t living.

3/25/2016 2 comments

by Drowning 3/24/2016

written by Drowning

i find it so hard to express how I’m really feeling or mayb I don’t know how I’m feeling

so the mental health people come to check up on me every 3 days now because what happened on Monday well the woman asked do I regret doing it I pursed and said noI don’t….

because my life is pretty much a mess I don’t know what to do were to start lost interest in everything I’m bored of life iv seen enough and been though a lot why be optimistic ? Yeah things can get better but finding happiness is what counts and I don’t tink il […]

3/24/2016 2 comments

Things are going as life shouldn’t

by bringtherave 3/24/2016

written by bringtherave

things aren’t too bad. at least I think. im not sure about a lot of things anymore. its hard to believe or trust anyone anymore. a lot of people have left me and it hurts to watch everyone I love leave me and blame everything on me. I say sorry way too much and it annoys people but I cant help it. I always feel like everything is my fault and like I’ve done something wrong. I haven’t cut in I dont know how long but I still think of it every day. suicide is always on my mind and I cant stop it. I […]

3/24/2016 3 comments

Anger.

by beaubri 3/24/2016

written by beaubri

I can’t fucking sleep. I haven’t been able to sleep for 3 days now and im about ready to freak the fuck out. My body feels weird in a horrid way. I just want to blow my head off, or his. I hate this fucking place. I need to leave. Tonight I’m wearing 5 layers of clothes. Under 6 blankets. He’s fucking here and I want to fucking kill him. You have no fucking idea how didficult it is pretending everything is normal. Everything is fucking peachy mom! Don’t worry about me! I’m fucking fine!

3/24/2016 10 comments

Sorry for another post but Im a complet mess

by kupo95 3/23/2016

written by kupo95

Updat how fucked up is florida I went down the street to buy cigerrets and some random peson comes up to wanting to be “freinds and talk” when i kindly told him no im good .he tells my i was driveing i and i saw you walking and stop to say hi do you need a lift I can droo you off i said no now leave while waiting to a red light to cross the street he pulled up and opened his window and told him to fo fuck him slef and leave me alone .

Today I cried […]

3/23/2016 1 comment

…..

by kupo95 3/23/2016

written by kupo95

I cried walking home from dunkin donuts … Again . I am going threw wired feelings lost hopeless are some i can name . Im leaving to a place I hate and people I dont want be around. Im lieing to my family about what im doing . little i thought i had im going to loose . writing this threw tears im going to force a smile in moment .

3/23/2016 1 comment

Pills

by beaubri 3/23/2016

written by beaubri

You managed to wake me up at 6:00 a.m. Because you couldn’t sleep and couldn’t find pills. I was in a dead sleep which is rare for me to come by in this house. Now I can’t fall asleep again. I’m wide awake and afraid to sleep. I even got out of bed to help you find the pills. I was so drowsy that I forgot where I put them. You found them in your room after running around the house looking. I was asleep. You could have let me sleep. I even got up and put on another layer of clothes. I hate sleeping […]

3/23/2016 5 comments

We all need to anchor to something or I have my ups and downs right now is a down but at least the ups happen.

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 3/22/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I never knew there was a video for this now 12 year old song. I was depressed when it came out and i still am. I may never overcome it honestly. In some ways i understand that. I dont know how ive lasted this long. There is plenty of reason to be proud of myself. I’m tired of the permanent loneliness. The emotional disconnect from humanity. I don’t have social networking/media. I have never dated regularly anyone in person. Ive never had real close friends save for a needy user. I have goals and hopes and even help with them. Im going to […]

3/22/2016 7 comments

life sucks

by Mudi 3/21/2016

written by Mudi

What is life ?

For me life is just a fucking bullshit because i live like a dead person in this fucking world .

I always hated myself and my stupid life , and since i became a teenager i always wanted to die and lived with the suicidal thoughts every fucking night , it was the only thing i wanted because i just wanted to be free by dying than living in this shitty world .

Even though i always wanted to die , i just couldn’t suicide or even hurt myself because i was just scared, so instead of doing it i was just crying , because i was […]

3/21/2016 11 comments

people who wants something different, and stable..

by darkwillow 3/21/2016

written by darkwillow

If you’re in the US, wouldn’t it be crazy if a group of us got together and lived in a place together? Helping each other financially, emotionally, contributing together.. It’s probably crazy.. But for those who have no one, like me, i think its the best thing we could ask for right now.. And im all for it, if anyone else is..

3/21/2016 103 comments

The hole

by Drowning 3/21/2016

written by Drowning

I’m standing on the edge I stumble I fall in

I’m falling into nothing I’m screaming im calling

it feels like I’m drowning man I can’t breath

can someone save me from myself please

it could be sunny outside but it’s raining over me

downward spiral walking corpse virus Im slowly dying in silence

And I’m it’s host to entertain wile it flourishes from my pain

and stuck in this hole

i remain

3/21/2016 2 comments

Me at my best today.

by beaubri 3/21/2016

written by beaubri

12 hours left.

I managed to shower and get ready for my test. I put make up on. I did my hair. Im wearing normal clothes. This is a big accomplishment for me today. For everyone reading and replying, thank you. Im sorry that I will be posting a lot. Like I said. Im a book. This is my final chapter. And I want it to be rememberable.

3/21/2016 8 comments

The last

by beaubri 3/21/2016

written by beaubri

15 hours left.

I didn’t sleep last night. I laid awake on a couch. I didn’t want to sleep. I was afraid to sleep. Now all I want to do is sleep as I get ready for that pointless test. I’ve realized. This is my last day on earth. Everything I do today is the last. From eating, to pretending like im going to be alive the next day. In about 2 hours I will be back to it. I might sleep for a while. I might stay up for the next 13 hours. I don’t know. I’m tired. I’m so tired. Not just in a […]

3/21/2016 5 comments

It was nice to meet everyone on SP

by beaubri 3/21/2016

written by beaubri

After my test tomorrow with the piza place thay interviewed me this week. And I say good bye to my dog, write or type or video recored everything im done. Im fucking done. I cant handle this anymore. Im not going through this again. Im not going to be homeless. Im not goint to be jobless. Im not going to be carless. Im not going to suffer being alone. Im not going through this. I cant take it! I cant fucking take it! I hate myself! I hate everything! I HATE MY LIFE! Im done im fucking done!

IM SORRY SP! IM SORRY EVERYONE! IM SORRY! […]

3/21/2016 15 comments

Im single homeless jobless car less fucked

by beaubri 3/21/2016

written by beaubri

It finally happened. Now im out on the streets.

3/21/2016 28 comments

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