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in the end

looking for the end

by lost hope 10/4/2014

written by lost hope

No more tears and no more trying. Trying – what does that mean? – Trying to find a place to fit in, trying to find some peace – just a comfortable place in this life – not looking for perfection or paradise – just a comfortable place … it just doesn’t exist anymore! So why keep trying enough of the pain, enough of the hardship, enough of the harassment, threats and harm. Enough of trying.

I look back at my life and consider how did it come to this. I used to be okay, how did it change – bit by bit over 20 years – but, not now too much agony […]

10/4/2014 2 comments

Destroyed

by michelle.m 9/28/2014

written by michelle.m

I gave my heart to a man. Completely. Irreparably. For 10 years. He said he loved me. He said I was his best friend and soul mate. He promised to marry me. He promised a life together.

I sacrificed a lot to be with him. My best friend hated him so I distanced myself from her. I waited a long time for him to keep his promises.

I’m sick now, since June. Have missed so much work. Am in a lot of pain. I need stomach surgery. All my doctors suck. They’re in no hurry to fix me. They want tests and more tests. […]

9/28/2014 12 comments

insanity

by saved 9/28/2014

written by saved

You ever feel so empty that you begin to suck yourself into this abyss? You wish you could blame them and sometimes you do; but there’s always that tiny little voice that reminds you that it’s actually your fault, that you did this to yourself. And you know that voice is a LIE; you scream it to yourself everyday that that voice is trying to push you past the point of no return, but the voice sounds so right that eventually you think of the nearby overpass and wonder if it would hurt if you fell. And the most stupid thing about all this is […]

9/28/2014 2 comments

My reasons.

by jimmyb0878 9/16/2014

written by jimmyb0878

Well, wouldn’t be here if I wasn’t at the end of my figurative rope. What do you do, if life just ain’t… fun… anymore? Nobody gives a damn about you. You got nobody to vent to, to talk to… Except the anonymity of the internet… Sure, your sick dad, wife, and kids all DEPEND on you… But they take you for granted day after day. And your elderly dad, you realize, never did jack shit for you… You were an inconvenience to him and your mother…an accident, she gladly told you her whole life. He never took time off from work for you, yet now […]

9/16/2014 8 comments

Fired again

by gadfly 9/16/2014

written by gadfly

I can’t seem to do it. I have adhd. I get jobs and I try hard and in the end it’s always the same. I’m not going to kill myself because I know how it would screw up my kids, but I really want to die. I thought this time would be different. I got an ADHD coach, and I worked harder than I ever have to keep everything together. I loved my work. I kept a positive attitude.

i feel so hopeless. I’m so tired of feeling defeated. What’s it like to be good at something? Yes I want to kill myself. I just can’t.

lots […]

9/16/2014 5 comments

What is “Life”

by heartshapedpapercuts 9/7/2014

written by heartshapedpapercuts

I simply don’t look at life the same way others do. You can look at is as a miracle but I see it as a simple meaningless cycle. We laugh, we smile, and we cry but in the end it is ALL for nothing, you die. You die and then those who remembered you will die and then you are forgotten. I’d give the same advice to those I will leave behind “be strong, look on the bright side, things will get better.” Just when will they? If you’re telling me this everyday and nothing is changing then you are lying. Some say life is […]

9/7/2014 3 comments

Blessed

by darkseraph777 9/5/2014

written by darkseraph777

Today, 09/05, I just turn 25. I am just so blessed for being able to complete another year of my life.

So very blessed.

Today was a day like all days, nothing out of the ordinary. Simple, normal, even monotonous I could say. But it’s ok; it makes me happy just being alive. I make sure my parents hear me saying that. I am so blessed. (help me). I am finishing my Production Engineering course at the end of the year and I am glad. (please help me) this is definitely what I want for my life. I make sure my friends hear me saying that. (somebody) […]

9/5/2014 8 comments

quit expecting shit from me

by overit20 9/1/2014

written by overit20

I do everything for you. You do nothing for me. You have come to expect me to drop everything and do whatever you ask. you’re a grown man…act it . Be responsible for your own shit. It’s all about poor you…you’ve destroyed me in your path. I have to get out from under you in order to survive. If you are there in the end things will be different but I have my suspicions that you will be long gone, when the favors stop.

9/1/2014 2 comments

The end feels near more than ever…

by Shawn11 8/31/2014

written by Shawn11

I’ve been wanted to end my life even at a young age because of the loneliness I felt inside my heart. I use to get bullied when I was young and I was pushed around with no one to help me. I barely made friends because they found me weird and ugly. I made some a few years before high school who were good people but none could ever understand me. I always felt misunderstood and hopeless. High school was the worst time of my life for freshmen and softmore year. I couldn’t stand school and I felt so lonely I even just felt the urge […]

8/31/2014 3 comments

life’s choice s affect everyone u know

by bryan higgins 8/27/2014

written by bryan higgins

Some time life’s great tell you realized your quest in life Is Worth it but only to you .in the end do people really care about u .or were u just part of a lust full delusion of an illusion. I’m happy in life and have no real issues to speak of ..but I feel like seeing what’s in my next life .

8/27/2014 0 comment

I refuse

by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall 8/25/2014

written by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall

I refuse to let whoever the fuck is running things up there, the satisfactions of watching me, suffer, wither and die an early death by suicide. I refuse to give up, even though I have all the odds against me, even though I can’t love myself, cause there’s always regression to the mean; Things can’t always be good, but they can’t always be bad either, it has to mean out. I refuse to let my future loved ones down, by swallowing the pills in my hand. I refuse to give up on myself; i refuse to die unhappy, alone and young. I’ll fight […]

8/25/2014 4 comments

Session 19: Read between the lines.

by R3T31D 8/24/2014

written by R3T31D

Part of me still hopes for a safe resolution, maybe find someone that is not a religious crack head to try to repair me? Is just false hope, I know that. I’ve known that for some time. I wonder why I kept holding on to this noise. I knew that everyone was going to walk away, to move on.

Everyone moves on, in the end we are nothing but memories that linger in time and eventually fade into nothing. Unless you find one of those people that can never forget. If such a thing even exists.

I’ve been researching more locations in the area that […]

8/24/2014 4 comments

Tomorrow starts “anew”

by lostchild445 8/18/2014

written by lostchild445

I keep dreaming of a different life
I keep hoping to be a better person
I keep praying for a brighter sun
Yet I keep holding this knife

A new start they say
Its your chance to be whatever you want
But every time I try to imagine, my mind taunts me
With these fantastic images of what may be one day

You’ll be a hero, a friend, a savior
You’ll change the world for the better
You’l finally forget her
You’ll finally change your behavior

These pictures in my head
I can see they are lies
And I know that even if I tried
Soon, I’d just […]

8/18/2014 1 comment

I feel that life is ultimately pointless.

by bornfordying123 8/15/2014

written by bornfordying123

I really do, i feel humans invent these fake ‘gods’ to make us feel like there is some point to it all. Its like that line in that Dylan song ‘All along the watchtower’ : ‘some of us here feel that life is but a joke’ its like ever since i heard that line many years ago i feel it resonate with me.
Its like who cares ‘who’ you are, how much money you make, how much you impress other people at the end of our existence what does it all matter anyway. Who cares if you indulge in certain unhealthy activities, life is short just […]

8/15/2014 2 comments

in the end

by just this girl 8/13/2014

written by just this girl

I have had it with everything.
for all im concerned I have had a pretty good upbringing.
although my mother liked to drink a lot and party and take drugs, she looked after me and my siblings well, that’s what I thought.
everyone els wanted to take me and my brothers and sisters away from her. they got there wish.
and she just started picking herself up and I was going to live with her again.. the only person I trusted, loved, felt safe around… she died a year ago..
since then I have been picked on and bullied.. I have tried suicide a fue […]

8/13/2014 0 comment

Life, oh life

by pinkerton15 8/9/2014

written by pinkerton15

Around this time last year, things were going so well. Was working towards a job, was feeling positive and got a real pretty girlfriend.

I didn’t really get the job in the end, I felt really shitty, and me being schizo I went on a rampage took it all out on my gf, and lost her too…

I was so fkin heartbroken I vowed to myself I wouldn’t be with anyone else until I had my feet on the ground…

I use to be quite good with women and I kind of just threw it all in the drain on purpose cuz of the break-up and how it […]

8/9/2014 1 comment

Pointless blabbering.

by bornfordying123 8/3/2014

written by bornfordying123

After much contemplation, I’ve concluded that life is essentially pointless. It doesn’t make me depressed as much as it makes me apathetic to much that happens. But there is a certain freedom to apathy. It helps me see things for what they are, not through some emotional distortion, and see that life’s really not that complicated. In the end, enjoying life is the only worthwhile pursuit. And if you find yourself unable to enjoy life due to your circumstances, then you’re pretty much screwed (I’ve also concluded that life is inherently unfair).

Also, this site could do with a little DEATH METAL!….on the ukulele.

8/3/2014 1 comment

I just want to disappear

by KuroNeko 8/2/2014

written by KuroNeko

Everything I do is worthless,everything I feel is useless,everything I hope for is always a cruel mirage and my soul is so full of pain I don’t feel like I have any strength anymore to keep forcing myself to live,what for? in the end life just hurts you,people take advantage of you the more sensitive and empathy you feel the worst and unlike they say it never actually gets better is all a lie it just lifts you up with a false pretense to throw you against the ground while it laughs at you and there you go again like a masochist standing up in order […]

8/2/2014 9 comments

How do you tell…

by Durmmy 8/1/2014

written by Durmmy

How do you tell them?

How do you tell them that you don’t want help?

How do you tell them that you don’t want to find a new job?

How do you tell them you don’t want to find someone else?

How do you tell them you don’t want to move away again?

How do you tell them you don’t want to start over?

How do you tell them you don’t even want to leave the house?

How do you tell them you don’t want to sleep?

How do you tell them you don’t want to be awake?

How do you tell them that none of those things make the emptiness go away?

How do tell […]

8/1/2014 4 comments

Tired Of Life

by dethstarx 8/1/2014

written by dethstarx

Im so a fuck up in life it always seems that I can’t do anything right i will try to buy thing to fulfill the empty void that i feel or reduce the feeling by putting myself into situation or doing things that i feel will help with the pain but i always come back and i sit here and think why don’t i just end it I could there notting to hold me back anymore nobody would really care you would move on it seems like everyday that past my life falls apart piece by piece I’m spiraling out of control yet nobody can […]

8/1/2014 0 comment

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