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Do I really exist?

by tryingtohope 5/14/2016

written by tryingtohope

One year ago: I had just been diagnosed with breast cancer and was trying to absorb the reality and decide what to do. I had been invisible for so long. After the diagnosis, my family and friends suddenly realized that I exist. The sister I hadn’t spoken to in six months was suddenly very caring and concerned. Even distant cousins sent me cards and emails.

Then it was over. Surgery successful; no chemo or radiation. Yippee. Then everyone left and I was invisible once more.

Then my dad lost his battle with cancer. Two months he’s been gone. I wish I could be where he is. Wish […]

5/14/2016 3 comments

Belonging

by Moneypenny 3/1/2016

written by Moneypenny

I put my soul into a ship that sank. Now I am rootless, lost in space…

Always being blown by the wind, I caress other people’s bodies, refreshing some, bothering the rest.

Belonging nowhere.

Being but a word on a screen, faceless, invisible, weightless

3/1/2016 6 comments

No Reason to Fight

by -M- 2/29/2016

written by -M-

I don’t know why I keep fighting through this shithole called life. Every force, being, and power is pushing against me, hoping to drive my head further into the darkness. The worst part is I am losing. I have to reason to push through to the invisible light at the end of hell; I have lost the traction that helped move my feet forward. I cannot do this anymore. It really is easier to let go of everything, even including yourself.

2/29/2016 2 comments

Life Below Equal …

by Bob40 2/22/2016

written by Bob40

They say mental trauma is an invisible wound. I would have to disagree , I can see it in the mirror everyday and I’m sure that those that used to know me before can see it in my social life.

2/22/2016 7 comments

Walk with me…

by twix this rainbow 2/15/2016

written by twix this rainbow

I am heading back to my room to get my mp3 player before hitting the beach. I want to walk it as I watch the moon rise to kiss the stars. Soon, I will be one of those amazing lights up there.

Walk with me? Leave your invisible footprints beside mine. I won’t tell. 🙂

Love to you all.

2/15/2016 14 comments

Insignificant

by insignificant02 12/7/2015

written by insignificant02

I always knew I never mattered. So what’s happening now shouldn’t be a surprise.

I had to get away from home. I couldn’t run away and it wasn’t the time to commit suicide just yet.

I hid in the cupboard. Its nearing my 6th hour in here and no one realised I was gone. They sat at the table for dinner without me and chatted and laughed, never noticing my absence. I guess it doesn’t matter.

My father (biological) told me today that he got married. Since last Friday. I didn’t even know he was engaged. I guess I didn’t matter enough for him to tell me.

Maybe he […]

12/7/2015 6 comments

Lost all hope

by Blommetjiesoog 11/21/2015

written by Blommetjiesoog

This week was total darkness for me. .. Strugling alone. Every body i ask for help just turn there back on me. Now if you know me you will know i ask a question like how are you? and if you react badly like not so good etc. In withdrawal totaly…
2 days ago I did another search on ( yes call it lame) how to die.. F*¢k its difficult to die…
When I saw the post on coping skills from dawg. If he can over come it so can I.. Still have no way out or no reason to see hope, but I do […]

11/21/2015 0 comment

All this pain is gonna be invisible

by witheringdaisies 11/17/2015

written by witheringdaisies

I heard this song on the radio again this morning. Last night, I was contemplating whether I’d do “it” now, I just fell asleep crying. Now I’m on my way to school with this song stuck in my head, it kinda makes me feel better. So yeah, Have a good day! 🙂

(i don’t know if the video would embed, i’m on mobile :P)

11/17/2015 2 comments

A Voice in the Dark

by cleco 11/16/2015

written by cleco

I have finally found meaning in life – albeit a small and obscure pursuit. I understand now that my voice, as deeply cynical as it is, deserves to be heard. Perhaps, needs to be heard. When I speak the way I do, it is because it comes from a place that is dark yes, but crude and unadulterated. It is the simple, unprocessed thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis. They stem from a gloom that has settled over my life like a dense and poisonous fog. And yet, the skies have cleared in many ways – I see things and people […]

11/16/2015 2 comments

Words

by Harlot.Rebel 11/9/2015

written by Harlot.Rebel

How dare you choose liqour over me.!! How can you laugh and carry on while i cut and cry. Hundreds of miles away from home. No love there either. I find myself in a invisible hole my little suicidal hell hole. I never thought i would reach out to people i dont know but i need help somthing that a doctor or psychiatrist cant give me right now i need someone that understands how it feels to be blatantly fucked over by the ones you love. Just need advice to stay strong.

11/9/2015 6 comments

If only I was invisible

by alonelybird 10/13/2015

written by alonelybird

I just wish I could escape, to get out of here. To just walk endlessly and lie down and die. Just disappear. I’m so fucking done. All the people, all the people; my friends, people I don’t wanna know, people I used to know. I tried and I fucked up, I haven’t had my pills in about a week. I just feel like shit. Everything’s crashing down, gone, just pointless bullshit. I hope she’s okay, I’m just unable to be there for her right now like I should(?) be. I need a reprieve. I need sleep too but that’ll just lead to more school. She […]

10/13/2015 3 comments

Cannot even think of title…

by Mute_spectator_indian 10/10/2015

written by Mute_spectator_indian

.. Just wanted to tell u that there’s one invisible mute person who is very much here between u all who comes, reads almost everybodys post and leave!!

10/10/2015 5 comments

Slowly fading away..

by Lonelygirl 9/26/2015

written by Lonelygirl

I feel so sad today. And nobody notices, nobody wants to talk to me, nobody cares. It might aswell be invisible.

Im sad to the point i can’t even cry anymore.

I just have this cold blank look in my eyes. I really dont know what to do anymore, nobody understands me, i dont understand me.. I feel so lonley. So sad.

I dont want to hope anymore, i just want to die. I dont want false hope anymore.. I just want to sleep and never wake up. If only it were that easy.

9/26/2015 4 comments

What women want, well it certainly isn’t me.

by nias 9/19/2015

written by nias

I’ve asked myself so many times ‘why am I alone’ when I see other men around me in relationships. Well, women know a loser when they see one, and will avoid at all costs, that’s why I remain on my own. I feel I must give off an invisible air of sadness and desperation that repels women as what woman wants a broken and useless man? Try as I might I can’t seem to change how I feel about myself, when anxiety becomes ingrained over time it seems impossible to change it, the dream is over for me, only a lonely future remains and I […]

9/19/2015 12 comments

I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE

by asunayuki1 9/11/2015

written by asunayuki1

Why do i even try anymore . I am in pain i cant keep living like this. Overdosing on pills or hanging myself dont work at all!
I give up i can’t keep going on like this . I am invisible to the whole world and i cant take it anymore. I realy want to blow my brains out and just sleep forever !

9/11/2015 3 comments

stand

by asunayuki1 9/9/2015

written by asunayuki1

I stand alone in a world filled with nothing but hate.
i stand alone with my tears falling to the floor.

All i want is for someone to hear my cries and to go to a place filled with nothing but warmth this is my only wish.

I know I am nothing more then an empty hollow shell my soul is gone my heart is numb and I am invisible to the world.

I stand alone crying in a quiet place hopeing some one hears me.

I want to live but I am tired of fighting this world on my own.

I known that if I kill myself I […]

9/9/2015 5 comments

I wished to be

by cocoki 9/7/2015

written by cocoki

I always wished to be invisible when in class but for some Reason I going what I wanted but not the way I wanted I was always noticed by my pears and unnoticed my my family or maybe just ignored I don’t know I have depression also I’m dyslexic and have dyslexic it’s “OK” to have dyslexica and have dyslexic but depression NOOOOO! That can’t be how can the people how love you not notice that I have something wrong with me I admit I’m good at hiding things or trying to ” thanks to school” but we see each other everyday just HOW ?. […]

9/7/2015 1 comment

Anyone?

by kinda anonymous 8/20/2015

written by kinda anonymous

” Does anyone else ever get that utter sense of loneliness? Where it just consumes your mind and leaves you feeling invisible…

8/20/2015 12 comments

No clue

by unbrokenangel 7/10/2015

written by unbrokenangel

So just had a huge blow out with my family. My mom fired me from work and I don’t know what to do. I always feel so alone when I’m home. Like I feel kinda invisible. They don’t need me. They have my cousins. They probably wouldn’t even notice if I died. I’m just a bother. A fuck up. They would be better off with out me. Maybe I should end it all. It would make everyone happier. I mean hell all I am is a disappointment.

7/10/2015 4 comments

Months & no progress

by Beast 6/22/2015

written by Beast

Been drinking since last Friday, taken pills to sleep, got really sad on Sunday.. As usual. On Monday I went to work, Just an internship that after 2 months I realize won’t ever benefit me, a guy that’s been there half the time has already surpassed me by far. I’m above average intelligence, I’m strong, but socially.. I’m just the worst. And that matters the most, you can be stupid and weak but manage quite well in life if you have good social skills. Lately I’ve been seeing how others progress with their lives more clear than ever. I only have one local friend now, […]

6/22/2015 2 comments

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