I need to know how many sleeping pills it takes to get knocked out, but not die. I need to see who cares. And don’t you DARE call me an attention whore. Its just my life is falling to pieces before my eyes. I can’t take it.
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Here I am. Finally writing.
It’s been 3 or 4 years.
I don’t remember.
This is the good part. These days I don’t remember anything.
Everytime some feel something inside me. I can’t put this in words.
Emptiness. (Maybe)
As I said I can’t put this into words.
Please don’t pity on me. I am very bad person. I did some awful things in life. Which I regret very much. I feel guit everyday every moment.
Yes I do want to die.
But I can’t.
I have a girlfriend. She is the reason I can’t die.
Mother, sister…. are also the reason.
I have faced alot. I know. I know everything. Then why I am so […]
Recently my girlfriend of around 3 years just broke up with me. You can say our relationship was an odd one being that it was an online relationship. I even went and visited her for the first time recently. Time I spent with her was the greatest moments in my life. I am completely in love with her and she even said she loved me. Entire time I was with her felt like a dream. But she broke up with me after all of that. I feel lost, I simply given up caring about my own life. I have stopped taking my medication, often starving […]
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I don’t know if I will ever be consistently happy. I’m changing into somebody I don’t like. There’s not much emotion anymore. I’ve become much more logical, pragmatic. I still suck at doing work, so it hasn’t made me any better at school, but I’m just not emotional about things anymore. I’ve become terse with my parents and girlfriend, less caring and more calculating. I’m losing something, me, and I don’t know why. I don’t know how to comfort anyone, or the right things to say. I can’t really empathize. Without a passion, what my purpose? […]
Here is the deal, im poor,black, and my future is not bright. I live in a world that many people online may not understand. It is a cruel world where people are homeless, drunks, in poverty, and life is cheap. Those are the lucky ones. The unlucky ones end up in jail or dead. I came from an ok home, i guess. Though,, i went to college, and cant find work. I just want to get good heatlhcare, and a decent job so i can get away from my “family.” I may end up homeless one day, but thats ok. I know that i have […]
Don’t know where my life is heading me. Don’t evn know how to live. Every thought, each feeling, every emotion is now jumbled up. M into deep darkness…. want to come out of it. Trying…. but not able to. Somebody plsss advice how can i overcome this suicidal feeling. long back i attempted it twice. Aft that gradually everything become settled. But again with his ignorance towards me & getting closer to another lady pulled me back to 7-8 years ago. Same problem is arising again. I cnt evn trust myself now. Hv loose all my hope n wish for death every moment. Each second […]
In this year I had 2 good days only nothing is going as planed my life is getting screwed up every day too ugly to get a girlfriend too stupid to pass a test too dumb to find a job. Iam really getting sick of this
We deserve better!
I deserve to be happy.
I deserve to feel loved.
I deserve to have a job i love, & that can support me.
I deserve to be treated as i treat others.
I deserve to have the life i want.
Why is this world so cruel & awful that people can not even be happy anymore. Everything is too expensive, the meaning of true love is gone. You can not rely or trust anybody, if you do, chances are you just get hurt worse than before.
All i wanted was to be happy. To make a difference in this world, to make a difference with someone i love.
Life is […]
Here’s a piece of advice for anyone who needs it. Enjoy life. Even when all feels hopeless, enjoy life. Happiness, we chase a dream but it doesn’t exist. There is no pure happiness, we have to settle for 50/50. Peace of mind.
Life is what you make it? Partly true. Life can give you stones instead of lemons sometimes. It takes courage to face these problems. Believe in yourself and love yourself no matter what. Because there is always someone else in your shoes. Don’t let a bad past or things that have happened to you follow you through your life. No it’s not easy, life […]
Today is a day I don’t want to live
I don’t want to breath
I don’t want to smile
Thinking is out of the question
I want to cry and scream
I go through so many days just doing life
When I sit down and think about life
I drop
My mental thoughts decline
my smile fades to tears
I lose it
spending time on my own is bad
i decline to suicide
Death is pending
life is lengthy
I feel i have done my amount of time containing all the hurt i need
the broken hearts are unbearable
My life needs to stop
But i breath through another day
I have had anxiety my entire life and have been depressed for the past few years. I am going to be a senior in high school where I am supposed to start figuring out what I want to do with my life but I’ve never felt so lost. It is summer before my senior year and summers are tough for me because it gives me a lot of free time to think and feel lonely. I am afraid of choosing the wrong college and not being happy. A lot of people see me as a nice person but I don’t think people know how sad […]
by each passing day my suicide toughts grow stronger. I think I hate every person, even my family members. I cant find a girlfriend and i dont think i ever will. My life is revolving around finding pleasure in meaningless sex…I am constantly in the center of attention and being bullied due to my hieght ( im 6 feet 9 ( 207cm))…the only thing keeping me alive is my passion for music. I’ve been paying the guitar for about 5 years and i cant see myself doing anything other in life but making music. It is my way of expressing myself. I act coldhearted to […]
It’s been a few months since ive wanted to commit suicide and been depressed and each time it happens or cycles i feel closer and more at peace with going through with it just have to be nice about it and fix my funeral expenses. When it happens i wont be mucking around i will down a few downers down some alcohol and choose my method which should be pretty peaceful.
I came to this world with lots of drive and motivation and somewhere along the line got caught up with the wrong crowed from school and got caught up in drugs and alcohol. 10 […]
Does anyone else here feel like two different people, or am I alone? I don’t know anymore.
There’s the me that realizes life is fantastic and pretty awesome, the side of me that tells me to enjoy life while I have it. Then there’s the side of me that is realistic and tells me the honest truth: I am a mistake. I’m not supposed to be here. I don’t deserve all the wonderful people in my life. I only screw things up. I am forgiven too often. I wish I could give my life to someone who deserved […]
what do you think of life?…
has it treat you well?…
are you happy the way your life is?…
everyone knows that life is not perfect….
who knows……
is yours?
if it is then I’m happy for you..
if it is not then I do hope you find your way……
see ya…….
in the next life……
I am not smart, not beautiful or pretty, have spent my whole life in a little black isolated hole which I cannot seemed to climb out of … my life is a huge black pit of depression and sadness and pain and I don’t know how to escape. When I was nine I was raped for three years by my brother, I’ve been cutting for ever since… I’m 17 now. I have no friends… No one who loves me for me…. I spend all my time watching time pass me by because I just have no power of what to do. I hope and pray […]
I’m tired I’ve been tired, I’m a walking fuckin skeleton with nothing left to give you can look at me and see I’m no longer here anymore. 24 years old or 4 this is all I’ve known, a never ending black hole I’ve gotten fuckin stupider and have ultimately fucked myself up even more. I’m sicker than sick, I’m fuckin sick and feel like nothing in this world can “fix” me. I honestly believe this is it no heaven or hell we had a choice to make this world our heaven or hell, the more I look around and the longer I choose to stay […]
From being young to many problems or a problem.
Each step was tough or maybe it still tough cause nothing has changed.
No one gets my state,maybe I should be the one getting to change my state in my own way by taking my own life.
Lies I have told,hidden in the dark in clear day light
Sharing my story is a waste of time cause it all end the same way, it passes by like nothing ever been told.
So ugly thoughts come up,should I take my self down?
I’m nothing than another day tomorrow suffering.
Having those ones who care is playing […]
I’am too yong to talk about my experience in life i’am only 17 but i know a lot , i know that life is so hard cause i’am suffering . Every day i hate my life more cause i live a very miserable one . Sometimes i think that everyone hates me even my parents they allways hit me , my mother told me that she wish that i was dead or never born she dont talk to me well she do but just to tell me about the bad things that my father did . They dont sleep in the same room they dont […]
I’m that typical 3 sport athlete girl who you expect to be fine, always look fine, always feel fine, but I’m not. I’m not at all..
Tonight was Cross Country practice and as doing Cross for four years now I know what to expect, or so I thought. Growing up running I use to finish and never quit, never want to give up, or stop but tonight was different. The distance I should have easily ran and should have been able to complete I couldn’t. The thoughts in my mind I usually can control and continue to motivate myself, I couldn’t. Usually the statement “Your mind […]