I have been wishing this life would end since I was very young…12. I was convinced I would be dead by 30, but 30 came and went and I’m still here.
For the last 8 years, my thoughts of suicide have been infrequent and I thought maybe I had grown out of it. I was fooling myself, its always there, like a shadow in the back of my mind.I wouldn’t say I was depressed, I’ve just always felt tired of living and tired of praying not to wake up.
Taking one’s own life is called the cowards way out, but I believe ending one’s life […]
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“Each day as people make new choices we create the possible futures, so nothing right now is fixed.”
“‘Nothing we can do can change the past, but everything we do changes the future.” – Ashleigh Brilliant
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson
“Those who have changed the universe have never done it by changing officials, but always by inspiring the people”
– Napoleon Boneparte
“It is not what we get, but what we contribute… that gives meaning to our lives.” – Tony Robbins
“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed […]
First of all, TL;DR.
I read the following on one of the links from this site:
“It is the part of the person that is afraid of more pain that says Don’t tell anyone. It is the part that wants to stay alive that tells you about it.”
It just made me think about the fact that it’s been over three years since I’ve admitted to anyone that I was depressed or had thoughts of suicide, even though that has been the case every single day since I last admitted it.
It’s been 1188 days since I last revealed to anyone I knew personally that I still felt no […]
If you have 45 minutes, reading this won’t do any hurt,
hopefully even it might give some inceptions or some mind-opening or adding.
http://users.aristotle.net/~diogenes/meaning1.htm#questions1
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“An idea is like a virus. Resilient…highly contagious. The smallest of an idea can grow. It can grow to define, or destroy you” – Inception (2010 movie)
Hello,
Im a 23 year old male from the UK.
My life is pointless and I have never been happy.
I have sufferd from depression and other mental health issues for years. Ive been on so many different types of medication for my mental health problems. I am currently taking Venlafaxine.
I have a very poor education and I have no job.
I was very violent in my early teens, I was permanently excluded from school at the age of 13, then I was sent to a pupil referral unit along with other misbehaved kids.
I was addicted to amphetamine when I was 13 up untill I was 16, I also smoked cannabis heavily at that age. Then I stoppedĂ‚Â using them and […]
I’m not feeling good recently.. please allow me to share my current situation for you to read:
I feel like a failure, confused, and that nothing I’m doing is ever good (especially to my parents’ eyes).
What will you do in that situation?
especially when I’m 28 yrs old, and I’m still living with my parents, now still jobless (funnily because of my own stubborn idealism of getting out from the 7-years work you hate), still single (where you’re traditionally expected to already got married at 26, and now already have a baby), and constantly getting nagged and asked and even […]
…knowing that this so-called Real Life/world can never match up your super uber vivid imaginations, fantasy, dreams at night, and also your feelings.
To put it bluntly in other words, this so-called “Real Life/world” sometimes (or often?) doesn’t seem to allow much creativity, imaginations, and high-sensitive feelings.
It can in fact only requires you to be the aggressive, smooth-talking, and most importantly business/money/profit-driven or oriented.
So for the creative or ‘feeling’ type of persons/individuals, it can really seem like a hell lot of dull, bland, boring, “same ol’ same ol” stuff keep REPEATING from a day to another day, which can really at most extreme drives […]
So, what is this Life really all about (a new perspective that might *helps*)
by niki
written by niki
So by now, I’m sure many (if not all) of you must have been wondering: with all these shits and fuck-ups happening in my life, what is then really the Purpose of my Life?? And I mean, fuck, what is Life really all about??
(it’s funny, strange, and yet still an unexplored *mystery* in itself of why we humans can at one point always seem to ask about this ‘big’ question, especially when we’re in our lowest point in Life. It makes you think & ponder deeply, despite that “Life goes on”).
How about this: Life on this Planet (& Universe, for that matter) is only […]
“In a world of inhumane reality, it is the only humane sanctuary left. That is dream” ~ Paprika (a 2006 sci-fi anime)
Reality is fucking harsh.
We, as pure normal human beings, would certainly want to get better in Life, and always seem to have HOPE (without Hope, we might as well not live, ‘cuz we would just be simply *existing*, a madness soulless shell indeed!).
But ‘unfortunately’ (though this word itself is arguable), REALITY just simply IS. It’s harsh, ‘cold’, in the context that it simply doesn’t *care* much of whether we will cry, or wail, or scream our voices to the sky,..Reality will simply be […]
If you’ve ever thought of suicide or even know someone who has, YOU MUST WATCH THIS VIDEO! Hope it encourages you 🙂
To everybody in this website,
I don’t know if this is a serious coincidence,
or it’s perhaps really true that my ‘energy’ has just drawn upon *something* very important to read!
I don’t know….I mean, I used to NOT believe completely about the ‘Law of Attraction’ (LOA) and ‘The Secret’ stuff, that basically talks about how everything we see in this world physically is really just a result of our MIND, the Energy.
But lo and behold,
I know that thorought my life I’ve actually experienced quite many ‘strange’ things/events that seems ‘too good’ to just be a ‘mere coincidences’ (and I would bet that all these […]
I have looked through many of these suicide stories. Notes, left from people who were in their final approach to their decisions of suicide. I have read stories of people who have lost loved ones and can no longer go on. I have read about those who have come to the conclusion that suicide is the only way to exit the pain. I decided to share my story. I am now 18. It has been over a year and a half since I had reached my limit.
A few days before my 17th birthday, I had been thinking. You see at the time, I had done […]
Everytime I have a moment of happiness, a moment of peace, it is taken from me.
I was in love with a friend who I only knew for a short amount of time, but above that he was someone who I let in behind the masks. Of course he broke my heart. I don’t know what I expected. No one wants a worthless screw up like me…. no one wants a girl who is ugly either.
and I dont just mean on the outside. Inside I’m ugly. I’m filled with such venom. Such hatred. for everything. for everyone, but mostly for myself. I hate when people say […]
5 Years I’ve been depressed.
Alot of people say It’s not important who they are but I want to share who I am, My name is Salem, I’m 16 years old, I’m 6 ft 2.
So 5 years depressed now, my family is slowly falling apart my mother has a mental dissorder, my father married another woman while married to my mother and had another son and doesnt give a shit about me. tests are here I can’t study this language because I don’t understand what the hell it says. for about 3 months now every night I take a knife from the kitchen and […]
I was sitting on the couch today. I had just had a really emotional argument with my pregnant girlfriend. She left; crying. I sat there with the intentions of grabbing my rifle and doing the deed.
I don’t know why I didn’t. I didn’t have any revelations, and there was no divine intervention; I just didn’t do it.
I don’t care about anything except changing the way I feel. I almost can’t sit still anymore because the pain is too great. I feel like I am not supposed to be here, in this situation.
I don’t care about anyone.
I try, but I can’t find any compassion.
I […]
i wanna die, dear peoples.
i’ve been abused emotionally and physically by my brother whom now i didn’t consider him as part of my siblings anymore.
i’ve lost my beloved and loving father in 2006. and i felt like he took away my happiness with him too.
i hate seeing my mother keep back ups that bloody brother even though he didn’t finish his studies and now he still unemployed and he’s staying with my mother’s money!
i feel like i wanna shoot him!
i feel like i wanna kill him right now!
i wanna see him die!
my bf also just left me.
i’m alone and i hate life.
life is so unfair.
i […]
“No one is worth your tears…… Then why do we cry when we lose them?”
So, what happened… Thursday night, I downed a bottle of medicine, because someone three fries short of a happy meal wrote on a website that “liquid is absorbed faster than pills.” So I thought… I die faster, and I fall asleep before I suffer. So much for that idea…
Obviously, my plan didn’t work. I didn’t have to go to the hospital or anything, though. I downed it, and my heart was pounding, to the point that I just knew I was going to die. So I laid down in bed, pulled the covers over my head, turned on Relient K, and tried to go to […]
I’m not entirely sure what I’m thinking by posting this. I’ve kept to myself for all this time, no one is going to read this,Ă‚Â and no one on here cares anymore than anyone around here. I mean, people say the words, but they don’t really mean them. You can hear, “I DO care about you!” but as soon as they say that, they’re off doing something else. But I guess if I’ve come this far, if I typed the words on the search engine that led me to this website, if this really is some low blow at getting suicidal people reported, whatever the reason […]
It’s been 6 years of an undiagnosed, untreated progressive depression.
The Stages:
Stage one just started with deep thinking. What we all go through, what is life worth? who loves me? what would the world be like if i’m dead, etc.
Stage two became mind over matter. This is the point beyond sadness. Cutting never hurt, it was just a way to wake up into reality again, to start feeling again, even it was just sadness.
Stage three was my addiction. I became addicted to cutting as it would relieve me of the emptiness. Cutting eventually stopped working (it works like pain killers, my body developed a tolerance), […]
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