Those of us who can’t get N are left to hang or blow our brains out. Â Is this what the world is all about? Â Fuck everything. Â FUCKKKING FUCK!! Â Lol this life is so fucked up it’s comical.
Hey, was just talking in another thread about what girls look for in men, noonoo said ‘looks and money’ .. I said I was fairly good looking and quite handsome if you catch me in the right light! .. So, thought I’d put some pictures up..
I am so freaking awesome Is what I tell my self when I wake up….
I go Througth my day repeating this phrase eating on every word
And it helps
Till you’re eyes become filled with tear
Then you say ,about five times, fuck being depressed I am fucking awesome.
It helps for an hour or two
Then the words become meanaless
Then you add some humor
And repeat the words I am so freaking awesome
I bet no tears will comeback that day
Your fucks in life will not be giving ^^
Repeat daily …it will help for a while
The moment when you bored and knotice a friend you lost becuase of your depression is clost by and all you want to do is ask them how they are ……lol
And I have come to the conclusion I cannot continue or bear my university classes anymore. I am done with everything. I am done with my fucking life. I have purposely sabotaged everything I have been working for so I could find myself closer to committing because I don’t want to live. My entire life has been the most mundane and horrible life imaginable, everyday is like groundhogs day basically.
I promised myself sometime last week that I will kill myself sometime in June or May, but I may decide to live longer if Britney Spears announces some news about her 8th album and/or releases her lead single off […]
im high off pain medz….but still in pain
My name is drew, i am 20 years old, and currently residing in a “suck you under” little town in texas. I grew up a happy child, played sports and had lots of friends. But were did it all go wrong? why do i have no friends? no family? no life? why is waking up a day to day challenge? i guess you could say im to chicken shit to kill myself. but the thought has passed my mind alot more than it should. i wish i could just leave this world behind….and no one would remember me. i see my life and friends […]
Just got my own cocktail of pills.
Antidepressives, sleeping pills, stuff for memory.Â
Soon, there will be more (ADD concerning).
How did I get to this point?
I just hope this is will start making some effect, and I start feeling better. Although, funny enough, one of the side effects of the antidepressive right when you start taking it is intensification of suicidal thoughts or something like that. lol seriously? This is gonna be a funny ride.
I won’t be around for a week, I’m going away, but once I come back, I shall evaluate if this cocktail is doing what it should.
I hope everyone here has a better week […]
A week of coincidences. Those unhappy bitches just never let up. Every time I take a step aside, there they emerge, out of nowhere. Every time I do particular things, either intentionally or unintentionally, no matter what the outcome is. Much like someone trying to tell me:  Stick to the same route, or you know you’ll regret it. It STILL has me wondering, who is behind the wheel of my life? I only know it ain’t me.
I’ve been sleeping badly this past week. I don’t even know if I’ve been sleeping at all. It could be that drinking 10 cups of coffee in a day until […]
Hey
This is my first time doing something like this. Not sure why I’m doing it, but yeah.
I’m 20 and live in England. Ever since I was young I’ve been different. I’ve always had a different outlook on life, and people, and so on. I try to be a nice guy, just like everybody else, but people never seem to do the same. I’m quite an anti-social person, so there’s that, but I always have time for people if they need me and never close the door on anyone – until they walk all over or something equally depressing.
Like most people on here (I imagine), I’ve […]
i have learned that i am very sadistic. hurting people brings me pleasure, and i really dont know why. i seems like im going down the same path of my fore fathers. it brings exseptional join when its people that are close to me. but still there are some people i dont not nor would not hurt. it only satisfies me for a very brief instant though, later i regret my decision. and i do sincerly feel bad. but still the cycle repeats, until i have no one left. and i really dont want to be this way but on some occasions it seems inevitable.
but […]
Fuck, my life is one big joke
I’m not in a good mood today. It was a P.E day. We had to dance with boy partners and most of all of them i had was wanting to switch partners, meaning, i’m an unenthusiastic, worthless creep. I was depressed all day over one little thing. i’m so ridiculous. I wanted to cut myself all day, it was so painful to be me. These things, negative comments, just triggered me to want to kill myself. Anyway, i have a plan to. I don’t mean to give people ideas, but i just wanna know if it’ll work. One idea was to take an overdose of […]
Seriously?
That’s what it comes down to?
For those of you who don’t know SP chat used to be a great place to vent, find friends, even be yourself. But the tides have changed. An influx of immature Moderators and Admins has made it a living hell. No one can get along when there is always a side to be chosen. The chat was closed TWICE last night. Whatever happened to talking it out?
When the chat closes you aren’t just making the people fighting angry you make EVERYBODY angry. Â Oancu needs to learn to stop complaining all the time, and let someone else speak. Custard. STOP DEFENDING HER. […]
5 Years ago today is when I tried to ctb. I was 16.
The events around it that triggered it, I admit, were bullshit but my reasoning behind it was not.
I got home from school. the bullshit that happened was that I thought I lost a friend, someone I loved, due to some stupid shit that happened that I thought was my fault. I blamed myself for everything back then. That’s what triggered it. My reason behind wanting to die is that I saw myself as a worthless person who could never do anything right and would never amount to anything in life. I […]
One of my friends told the head of my school everything. My depression,the cutting, the suicidal thoughts.
Now everyone is laughing at me, indirecting me and I can’t fucking be arsed with it. The girl who is supposed to be my bestfriend has tweeted twice about me,
“I want to commit suicide for no reason at all lol :):):)”
“Cuttin my wrists at the moment bcos my friends care about me x”
Charming, right?
my name is heather im 22 years old and im tired of living. i smile and laugh in a crowd and secretly plan my demise. i dont have the normal reasons why people want to die (if there are normal reasons) im attractive people say. i am a college student and i have a bf. but im just so tired of existing. i fantasize about death almost everyday. im alone in a crowded room, and i cant handle the stress of my past anymore. I plan on overdosing in a forest its a nature center that has trails preston would be so proud lol. but […]
I really am trapped in nothingness, I have a problem where I just cant occupy myself or be active. I dont know wether its due to a neurolocal problem ive got but its like this claw is digging down in my brain, keeping me locked just to my thoughts, my standard of life is so low that my main things in it are websites and an on going conversation with the samaratans lol .. now thats some life! I did drugs again on the weekend (amphetamine) and it brought me to life, felt so much better, spent days writing lots and lots of song lyrics and […]