I miss you guys….I love you all and I hope you are still alive…BTW my life sucks and did I mention it REALLY sucks?
Find love…cherish it hold onto it and NEVER LET IT GO!….something as small as love can save something as big as your life
It’s been three months since you left me, I lost all my friends as we shared the same friends, yet worst of all I lost my best friend – you. I had to find my house, out alone in the cold without you. All my friends left me, they couldn’t bear the tension between us, my friends lived with us, none of them have contacted me. Every night I have nightmares about you. The last time I slept safe and sound was when I was in your arms. How could you have taken everything away from me? Don’t tell me this is a first world […]
So, I’ve read some pretty tough stories on here about other people’s life. I’m not gonna say it gets better, because I don’t know if it will. But, if your faith/belief in God is strong then you’ll be alright. I’m not gonna talk about my life, and experiences I’ve had, but I will say you’re able to overcome any obstacle that comes your way. You have the power to make a difference, and I know things can get tough or you feel like you don’t matter, but you do matter. You matter to me, and you matter to God. God loves you enough to […]
I love it…
I love feeling the sharp pain as the razor slides across my skin and flesh,creating an opening…
I love the euphoric feelings that comes with every new cut…
I love feeling in control of myself…
I love mutilating myself,through cutting or any other way…
Basically,I only live to harm myself.Smoke as much as I can and hope I get lung cancer.Cut as long and deep as I can until I go to the ER to get fixed.Drink as much as I can,until I collapse into an alcoholic blackout and wake up 24 hours later…
I have learned to enjoy physical pain…As I said,it’s the only thing I keep […]
This is a link to a scene from Moulin Rouge, Elephant Love Medley
I normally hate anything happy, but this is much more than puppies and sunshine happiness.
It has depth, and it carries with it a degree of emotion and story depth that I didn’t think was possible to fit into 4 and a half minutes
I was impressed with it, even awed by it, and I wanted to share it with all of you.
Feel free to comment, and include more links to songs you love if you wish!
TaTa
http://vimeo.com/58465513
I don’t know what love is anymore which also made me depressed partly because the only girl i would say i love since 4 years is in america (im in china). I had different things that made me emotionally crippled as i would say myself because i don’t know what love is anymore or better said i can’t really love anyone truly right now (same with hating someone). This also helped me to become sick of life and me trying to end it.. Ive tried it several ways one of them was an overdose of drugs..
If anyone could tell me what love is means or […]
One day Love and Friendship met.
Love asked”why do you exist when I already exist?”
Friendship smile and said”to put a smile where you leave tears”
what do you think?
Is it true/ beautiful?
Loneliness aches… and has slowly, over time chipped away at me. Now I find myself here, maybe just out of curiosity, or maybe just desperation. There are many people worse off than myself, many in this very community, but right now, from my narrow, blinkered and selfish viewpoint; I’ve never been lower, lonelier, sadder or felt so forgettable. I was passionate about things once upon a time, now I’m just cold, bitter, heartless, and full of deep disappointment by how this life has played out. Yet I let this life turn this way, I watched everyone leave, while I stubbornly stayed with my thoughts focused […]
I am tired of waking up to the same day. My day is filled with emptiness and sadness. I love a man that will never love me back. His excuses exhaust me. “I love you” he says, then tells all of his friends “Oh, we are just friends”. He keeps himself open for a better prize. I have now loved 2 men in my life and gave 100% to each relationship. While in the relationship each man found love in the arms of other women. I forgave them, moved past it, but never fully trusted. I am now 30, I have given over 10 years […]
I cut my stomach up today. I don’t ever count my cuts or burns but I know there’s close too a hundred. If I don’t cut I get irritable. My skin crawls. Sometimes I can go without cutting for a few weeks! It’s Rare but it’s happened! I was doing really well until today. I got very depressed because I broke up with my boyfriend and I just thought about how meaningless my life is, basically. Everything is better now but the cuts are still there.
So this girl and I went out and we both have a hard life alcohol, I smoke weed, I have abusive parents always bullied we broke up but remained friends we both cut she saved my life because when I met her I was planning suicide we both started cutting again after the break up and we promised each other we wouldn’t cut again and I told her if she cuts then I will to. Two weeks ago she broke the promise she cut and so later that day I to did to all in this day she told me she loves me she told […]
I am young. The love of my life recently left me a few months back, my friends left me too because they did not want to deal with the tension between us. Suddenly I am gone, I am not there anymore. I am in my twenties and in college, my parents say perhaps the best thing for me is to move to a new city and start again. I can live with my mother in that city and need not to worry about society, which I have totally withdrawn from. Maybe they are right, maybe they are not. The pain is excruciating. I cannot describe […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GntRHCuHorc
I think our last kiss was meant to be quick and chaste, but after the first touch of her lips fire leaped up and roared through my belly. My fingers yanked her close, digging into her back, and her arms embraced me to her as if wanting to meld us together. I knotted my fingers in her heavenly hair and bit down on her bottom lip, making her groan. Her lips parted, and my tongue swept in to dance with her. There was nothing sweet or gentle in our last kiss; it was filled with sorrow and desperation, of the bitter knowledge that we could’ve […]
I feel like i love this person, and its impossible, because they will never love me back. this is eating me away and i dont know how to deal with any of it. i just really want to talk to someone about all of this. the bad thing is, im afraid if i admit it to someone, itll be so much worse. i know i need to talk to someone, if not, ill just explode. either way, this is slowly killing me.
Theme song from a show called Madventures.
Wish I could have seen the world even a 1 percent of what these guys have – and lived my life to the fullest while I still had the time. Really have to give a salute to Riku and Tunna. 🙂 Love the show, and it had for a few years kept me hoping to be in their shoes; exploring places, seeing other cultures and people – but no more.
The best travelling documentary program in the world by far – Finnish, but at least 3th season spoken in English – distributed all over the world though.
Theme song gets me […]
I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I’m fed up.
I’m 20 years old and a junior in college and I literally don’t have a life. I don’t socialize much. I isolate myself; however, I’m not happy when I do so. I feel lonely and sad.
When I’m alone, my whole life runs through my mind.
When I was in the 12th grade my father got diagnosed with cancer. The doctors said he had only a few months left. My dad fought hard and stood strong. A year later. The day I was getting ready to leave to start college he passed away. I was completely heartbroken. Like all the positivity in life got […]
I don’t even know why I’m typing this to be honest, right now I feel reckless and restless and bored and tired.
I’m fed up of being poor and being tired and feeling like I’m being judged for every little thing I say and do.
I’m tired of being ugly. I hate how my face looks, with it’s stupid round jaw and lumpy nose and disgusting frizzy short hair, I hate how I look fat in every photo, I hate how I am fat, acres and acres of disgusting wobbly blotchy skin wobbling away, taking up too much space.
I hate how much I wish I could stop […]
This is my depression story. The following is a shortened version of my journals. I was 13 years old when I wrote them.
Journal 2013
On march 2, 2013 I decided to “get better” I don’t know hep else to put it xD
on March 3rd, 2013 I told my mum about the (kinda) cutting but not the suicidal thoughts
4th of March: “I am not happy nor sad right now, I feel almost detached from everything” “I am happy for Nicole (she was my best friend in 7-8th grade) but it feels like everyone is moving on while I’m left behind…I feel invisible, a […]
Hello all,
I’ve never posted on this site before, but I felt the need to make an account and make one. Â To all that is reading this; to all that feels like no one is there; to all that has contemplated life over and over again and feels the need to end things; to anyone that just needs to share their feelings to… I’m here. Â I have felt what rock bottom feels like and I have been in and out of depression, contemplating suicide a few times in my life. Â I will keep this short and sweet: Â the pain may seem never-ending, but it eventually DOES […]
I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]