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Transgender Debate

by TwistedSpace 9/6/2014

written by TwistedSpace

On PlayStation Network I made an account called TransGirly. I intended it as sort of a beacon – other people who were either Transgender or questioning such could message me if they ever saw me on PlayStation Home and add me as a friend. There’s always strength in numbers, and that’s what I was going for. To have a circle of friends who could depend on one another if they needed it.

Today while I was on Home, two people approached me. They had club tags that read [<3 Jesus]. One of them began preaching to me about the rapture, how it was upon us, and […]

9/6/2014 10 comments

i cannot take feeling this way

by infectedpooks 9/6/2014

written by infectedpooks

i shouldnt have this much pain inside of me. i dont have it nearly as bad as other people. i have a loving mother, roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my tum, a beautiful car, etc. yet i still feel broken inside. all because of her. why couldnt she love me again? why does she have to move far away and leave me here? she couldve made me the happiest man in the world. nobody will ever love her as much as i do. i cant take feeling this way. once shes gone and my mother passes, i will be empty, […]

9/6/2014 1 comment

Funerals aren’t ”fun”.

by AfflictedSmile 9/6/2014

written by AfflictedSmile

I’ve lost yet another person who meant a lot to me. One of the few people who truly encouraged, inspired and believed in me. His funeral is tomorrow, and I don’t know if I can deal with it. He was a close family member, and our bound was something I took pride in. He became paralyzed at 19 through a swimming accident. He’s been quadriplegic ever since I can remember. I never saw him through his disability/handicap. I saw him for the person he was. From a really young age I started taking care of him when he needed help. He came to be someone […]

9/6/2014 4 comments

Picture of a Thousand Memories

by TwistedSpace 9/3/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I saw an updated photo of my ex. I kind of miss him. I wish things were like they were before – when we actually got along. When we weren’t at each others throats. I loved him, and while seeing that picture of him today, I realized I still do. It makes me regret what I said about his mother that much more. I didn’t mean it, but it was still a low blow. He was mad at me at the time – we were fighting about something, and he said something that had offended me. I don’t remember what it was, it must have […]

9/3/2014 8 comments

quit expecting shit from me

by overit20 9/1/2014

written by overit20

I do everything for you. You do nothing for me. You have come to expect me to drop everything and do whatever you ask. you’re a grown man…act it . Be responsible for your own shit. It’s all about poor you…you’ve destroyed me in your path. I have to get out from under you in order to survive. If you are there in the end things will be different but I have my suspicions that you will be long gone, when the favors stop.

9/1/2014 2 comments

i think i just want to be wanted

by overit20 8/31/2014

written by overit20

I was in a relationship for 15 years where he belittled me on a daily basis. It wasn’t until the divorce and 2 children later that I was told I suffer from battered woman’s syndrome. I was always too fat, never good enough in bed, mean, moody, didn’t clean enough, not a good cook, not a good mom, didn’t take my schooling far enough to be able to give him all the material things he wanted, etc. Finally after a year of being divorced, I tried online dating. I met several people, none of which caught my attention. Then I met one that was not […]

8/31/2014 8 comments

What is the way out?

by istherehope 8/31/2014

written by istherehope

I left my husband for love. We had been together almost a decade and he provided me a nice home and new cars, anything I needed and worked hard to do so. We had a two year old son when I left for another man. This man was charming and loving, came home every night and seemed to put me first. I guess I deserve the nightmare of marriage we’ve had for the last 5 years. He’s left me three times, twice at Christmas for two weeks and another time for two months because he was arrested for hitting me. He broke the no contact […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

The trouble with loving a Ghost

by theforgottenfew 8/31/2014

written by theforgottenfew

I don’t know if my memories are real anymore because they blur with my dreams of you. I dream of how things should have been. As you torture my mind I cling tighter to those memories and dreams and I feel guilty for loving him now that you are gone. I feel guilty. I don’t feel like I deserve any happiness because you didn’t have any, I feel like I’m betraying you by building a life with him. But I have to. I’m stronger now since I lost you but I am weak, and stupid. I make bad choices and I hurt people. The ones […]

8/31/2014 1 comment

Tonight is it

by firegirl 8/31/2014

written by firegirl

I know what your thinking , I’m so young I have a life ahead of me. I don’t. My childhood was tossed between my divided parents who hurt each other by hurting me. My stepfather hit me , my mom told me she wished I had never been born. Then when I was 15 I moved in with my dad and his wife thinking that they wanted me me because they loved me , they just wanted to stop paying child support. I was alone I had a few friends , but then he came into my life, my boyfriend I had found a reason […]

8/31/2014 50 comments

man im so sick of this

by insecure-wreck 8/28/2014

written by insecure-wreck

This pain I’m having needs to stop already I can’t sleep it feels as if someone put a knife through me the pain. I’m having is sharpness just when will it ever end my damn scoliosis is such a bother n I feel as if I can’t really enjoy life I know I have appointments to see doctors for them to help me n shit but I can only wait so long till my breaking point. It’s such a ***** to deal with I cry when I’m alone n when my friends or family r around I hide my feeling I don’t want them to […]

8/28/2014 8 comments

Empty Within

by Scarlett Dawn 8/27/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I feel empty inside
There’s a void I cannot fill
I drink the emptiness away
I smoke the emptiness away
I roll to take the emptiness away

Though these temporary solutions
Hold no effect once I be sober
I miss the touch of a gentle human hand
I miss the warmth of another’s embrace
I miss the smile that follows the sweet words spoken
I miss being loved by another

I curl up and hold myself tight at night
My pillow squished in my comforting embrace
I close my eyes and dream of a paradise
One where a man adores me for me
Holds me and tells […]

8/27/2014 6 comments

Faking a smile.

by smilingbutdying 8/27/2014

written by smilingbutdying

Everyone knows me as that smiling outgoing girl who is sometimes annoying but speaks her mind whenever something pops into her head! No one knows I feel so alone all the time, and that I just want more love. I always think about my life in the future, married to my dream man, having my dream family that consists of a boy, a girl, And a pair of twins (girl and boy). But then when I think about it I don’t want anything I just want to meet my maker and live a happy life in heaven.

8/27/2014 3 comments

No God – Jesse Gunn

by teardownthewall 8/21/2014

written by teardownthewall

the popes got it wrong
when theres no more ozone
we will see the falacy
with our last breath

we’re all going to hell
with no water to quench the smell
inhaled in a blind hurry
a dead man walking at a feast

and our apologies won’t mean a thing
the childrens eyes will shame every human being
each passive one of us a sentencing
but the law rarely gets you for doing nothing

what we have done
knows no logical bounds
we have spoiled the earth
we gangrape the ground

when our plans got botched
we just stood by and watched
we can not explain away
everyone knew […]

8/21/2014 2 comments

Feel As If I Can’t Do This Anymore

by LostInPain 8/19/2014

written by LostInPain

I am so very lonely..and tired. I lost the love of my life seven years ago….we had been married for nine years. He died suddenly of a heart attack and I was the one who found him dead. I can’t explain how much I loved this man and how him dying at 39 yrs old almost killed me too. I had been disabled a few years before he died, I have spinal and brain tumors, and the surgeries not only disabled me, but caused me so much pain in the aftermath, that I lost my job as a trauma nurse because […]

8/19/2014 4 comments

Can’t find a way out

by pixiepojmansky 8/19/2014

written by pixiepojmansky

Hi, I’ve been fighting against depression for 15 years and I think I’ve finally given up on that battle. I can’t take it anymore. I just create havoc around me, and I drag people’s lives into misery with me.

I’m the only child of a deeply disturbed and disturbing woman. To everyone who doesn’t know her she seems to be a loving, caring person, quirky at most, but to those who are near her, she comes out as she is: plain scary. She’s violent, contradictory, manipulative. Ever since I was a young child I stood no chance to grow up to be normal, to be social, […]

8/19/2014 6 comments

wow! this place exists.

by heliumhood 8/17/2014

written by heliumhood

I’m new to this site, so hello and hi to everyone.

I’m a man in my 40’s based in the UK. Up until 2 years ago I had everything I wanted in my life. It was then that one person’s vitriol cast a shadow over my life, that can never ever be lifted. I’m in a long term loving relationship (15 years), and I’m trusted implicitly by this person, and this person has never doubted me for even a second.

I have decided that I wish to embark on the journey of self deliverance in approximately 3 months time.

Why the delay? I have to prove my innocence […]

8/17/2014 8 comments

scars

by Sharn 8/16/2014

written by Sharn

scarsI don’t know what to do anymore.. I battle with severe anxiety, depression, insomnia and anger issues.I try my hardest to be what they want me to be.. the perfect daughter. Have the perfect grades, I was working 2 jobs but I just can’t cope any more. I’m lost. Dropped out of school at 15. Quit one job. Have barely any shifts at the other one. I blow up at everyone over everything. I can’t help myself .I cry everynight trying to think of new ways to be perfect… I tried cutting… It just wasn’t my thing so I started burning myself. The pain […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

by Bisban 8/16/2014

written by Bisban

Hyper beam, inspiration

The dying hell of Leech

Calypso

Are you the dead queen

Does this, have an end

The words

The lyrics

I don’t even exist

I see a wild Ratatat, smiles

I just want to breathe and be strong, Calypso

My … reality

Robin Williams, angel man

Would of saved me a million times

How I exist, nobody knows

I’m just Leech.

8/16/2014 8 comments

Music to Die to

by teardownthewall 8/13/2014

written by teardownthewall

The most important part of planning or imagining suicide (to me) is knowing what music will lull you to your final rest. I realize it may seem like an insignificant and even petty detail but don’t you think the last thing you experience should be the soothing beauty of your favorite music?

What song(s) will you leave as your final farewell?

I personally would like to hear Pink Floyd when I die. I imagine that before I act, I’ll listen to Comfortably Numb and Brain Damage and then, as I’m waiting for my method to take effect, I’ll listen to Goodbye Blue Sky, the last sound to […]

8/13/2014 10 comments

Sickness – I Need Help – To Go Fall – I Was Born

by Bisban 8/13/2014

written by Bisban

Severely ill-stricken and debilitated

The child of the five hang-man arcana

I am Leech, child of the Morlocks

The story of the messiah complex

The blood of the abyssal

Eaten alive, of the fated child

Fullmetal Alchemy, to the rescue

Final Fantasy, X

Alphonse – It hurts brother, I can’t breathe… Save me, brother

Capcom, Morrigan

The caged, beast of hell

The opposite, of your reality

Take me, oh, take me

“Cable,” came for me

“Weapon X,” all wore black, for me

I am, the green man

Hey, how about that. It’s Leech.

8/13/2014 1 comment

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